Slipping through the cracks
Melting into puddles
Drip drab dribbling down
Inbetween and runny sides
Egg yolk brains being fried
Long thoughts shorten
Shortening thrown in eyes
Swinging wildly and blind
Borrow some eyes
If you dont mind
Drib drap dribbly
Slippery in the cracks
Of these dusty sidewalks

Awoken from a 4 1/2 month dream
Find myself hanging by my feet
30,000 above and swinging wildly
Nose bleeding like waterfalls
Eyes suffering drought in Arizona
                           The dream was about you
                           Unsure if it was reality
                           It sure wasn't fake though
A "steal" heart shall sit in my chest
because you stole the one that beats
Swing, Bleed, Suffer some more
Fake airplane air makes me wonder
Where I am whenever I awoke
Captain, "To the right lies Kansas City"
I knew those lights in the distance
They twinkled like your ***** eyes.

Golden curly q's
Large christmas sweater
The boots for winter
Smile gives me goosebumps
You're cuter than ever

Your vibrant smile
laughing like child's
play heartfelt, mild
and something wild

It's not about the collective
or about you and I
None of this is subjective
Sorrow is like smoking
But at least it's protective
so I begin looking
for a place to protect me
I'm falling down.. tumbling again
tumbling all over you again...
Does my heartfelt silence
make you frustrated
in the same way your
indecisiveness makes me agitated?
I am blue
suffocating from
a lack of you.
So if anyone
makes me feel true
in my moments of gloom
I will cherish that fool.

I'm sorry If I annoyed you yesterday
With my incessant affection
I was all over you far too much
I know that you still have to make that decision
And all I could do was think of myself
So I will stand by your side
patiently while you decide
between him and I.

I keep having these emotional outbreaks
and when I feel like this, I need to tell you
But my words get jumbled up and I cant keep my emotions under control
Whenever I go to
I think it has to do with my worst fear
The thing that eats away at me everyday
Claws at my tendons causing my muscles to die
Stagnates my blood causing my arteries to clog and brittle my  bones
It's crimson needled fingers are powered by one hand underneath my gums and rips my teeth out one by one while the other hand slides my fingernails out of my skin
Stalking Seeking Slithering through my skin it crawls inside
and stalks my spinal cord all the way to my skull, plucking spinal cords along the way
Seeking for my brain and
Slithering into every neuron and cell
It rots every single one
And decays the rest of me
I am numb cause I'm afraid no one cares.
No-one has cared at all
I knew from the first christmas
that I was a mistake
In middle school
it was made clear again
when everyone bullied me
Then again in High School
where teenage apathy reigned
But now, I really don't know if anyone cares
and your answer means so much to me
"Do you care?"
Cause if I can't have you as a lover
I want to love you as a friend
Cause I can see you doing great in the end