Pitter Patter
and a thump in the night
Alone I crumble
Alone I fight with the mirror
Pitter Patter
I desire your silk
I desire your comfort
I pour your evil but charming ways
I am sick again

Soul
My soul has been cheerfut since the magic pill
A month later I visited the renound  psychiatrist
He drearily informed me what I had been taking
Was indeed a sugar pill
I walked out completely outraged
My soul returned
Back to the black hole
I am dreadfully disappointed there is no pill to relieve
Me except for that magic sugar pill

Oh springtime lover,
To dance the immaculate funk
White Sunny dress, toes bare.
In the white crystal colored sand,
to dance the immaculate funk
To be free as the unfiltered child,
molding their imagination with colored squishy playdoh

As I sit,
I look upon the slow draw of the river
My soul is free for just a moment
As I recall past memories
of the place where I shall be put to rest
A teardrop runs slowly down my cheek
As the river continues to flow
Such as life
A moment to cherish

When the earth was one
many moons ago
Open lands
Unspoiled ground
Fresh flowing streams
Survival in the circle of life a necessity
Earth spinner slower
Thoughts were as one
Mother Earth pure
Carnival clowns and shamans
Magical music
Instincts pure
Life was short and pure

My granny is dying,
Wow plasmatic  skies ignite,
Anger into revolt as my tears melt into hers
What a grand woman
Poor imdeed, heart of gold
Determined eyes of steel purpose unleashed as a brothel of bubbly love
Where and who are,you
Step off  the dirt my Granny will soon be in the small plot is only a memory for all who loved
Step off my grann's plot for I will punish thee with a fury not witnessed by you and that im sure
Step of mother ******* my tears are for me and my granny

Return to sender,
Smile it's not yours anymore,
Blackened past
Disruptive pause in life,
Return to sender
I will return ,
I will pick myself up once again
Disruptive pause in life,
I am the sender and I am the receiver
Let myself turn the button back to play
For the pause has been stuck for way to long
Pause play pause play,
Return to sender
Play pause play pause and play once again
Thank you life thank you me

Sparkling hot love,
Fresh water,
Warm bones,
Weary travels
Broken down
A hot bath,
My little rubber ducky
Floats,
My soul smiles

Alone, pacing
Wandering mimd spinning the same tracks on a continuous groove
Stuck in the middle of nowhere land
I've visited here many times before in my trails
Medications meditations misguided and maladjusted
Been up down and over and out
Bipolar a rude disorder
White knuckling despair
Craving breath and the laughter of others
alone ,
Thoughts
Darkness with the sun shining on my skin
Wrinkles forming as the bumps of life
Stick firmly to my face
Alone pacing
I'm stuck

Grounded smile
Toes in the sand
Colored love
Blissful sensations
Crystallized in time
Nature’s perfection
Toes in the sand

Paper made of jello,
Snowmen dancing in the wind
Free yourself,
As your imagination
Soars into a peaceful state.

Lies and lips that hush in the night
Secret whispers dance through the forest
Unleashed and trapped
barefoot in the soft trimmed grass
She is simply a
Serpent Sweeping up my pieces

Life *****,
**** rots,
That's the way the cookie crumbles
Bake a ****** cake
You get what you get don't throw s fit
Crumbling life
Rocks in my soul
As I crush another muy bueno
Pseudo smile
Onto the shiny thoroughly cleaned mirror

Sometimes I forget to tie one shoelace
Never tripped up
Forget it’s even untied
Out of sight out of mind
Walking freely
I broke my ankle the other day
The one with the shoe tied
I now leave both shoelaces untied
Untangled
Out of sight out of mind
No filters,
Smiles abound
Shoelaces blowing in the wind
Freedom

I beat myself into the ground again today
I don’t know why
My mind tightens and the shovel flows quickly
My dirt turns to mud quickly.
I beat myself into the ground again today
and I do know why.
I’m me and have to accept the scratches in my mind
I wash the mud off and a new day begins.

Blue womderful pain cuddles me
I made it so
I returned the magic beans to the stalk
I figured it out
The blue womderful pain cuddles me
I want it all
I want sensual bodies meltimg within me
We all feel pain
How do you deal with it
The blue womderful pain cuddles me
And I cuddle it back
I figured it out
Just for this moment
The sensual bodies melt within me
Just for this moment
Caress it and live it
Remember it all
And the door opens and the nurse visits me with a smile and asks hermso familiar questions
Just for this moment
LIVE

I looked into the silver streak breath of life
stared into the mirror
I licked aromatic flesh
Pressed heads against the biggest of eyes
I sit upon Mother Earths own waterfall
And
I
C
R
Y

Sand in between the toes
Mystical moon
Trails of stars
Moonbeams glistening with a soft glow
A collision of one
A grounded pure connection
A pure breath to your core, your center
You found yourself,
The sand in betweeen your toes

Dr Seuss
Kids eyes closed
Snuggled up just right
Awake
My own stories
Ruminations
Stuck needle on old school vinyl
Awake
I want dr Seuss
and snuggled up just right
My mind
Awake

Love the magic
Mother nature’s way
Pure nature
Heavy snowflakes at its finest
Enjoy

Luscious unfiltered water,
Sunshine snow, perfect in the moment
Magic from the sky
How do we all miss the moment
Frantic mind scatter,
Where do I have to be
What time
Can I make it
Who goes where
Insanity of the scattered schedules,
The hurried pace,
We can never see the sunshine snow,
Unless we all take a moment
and breathe

People please give me space,
We are being collapsed on top of each other
Open 24/7
Pick up, order through, clicked out,
Checked out
No more space far too many people,
Running each other into distress.
Can’t quite take a big enough
step to another planet

Please give me some space

Can't help it ,
Can I , confusion saddles my mind,
Lovers ,soul friends , family can only do so much
Stuck in sloppy mud,
Tires spinning,
Over and over,
Can't help it,
Can I?
Thoughts spinning in the mud .
Tired tires,
Please come to me love,
It's been quite a journey

fresh drops spring flowered dress
Rolling ankles
Below sun drenched light what a marvel
What a spin of love
Mystical wizardry floats upon the magic field
I love her
Maybe

I adore that fresh air
Springtime drops of love
Yummy sweet kisses
Hair flowing
What a time
To seize the moment and eat some candy
With the endless possibilities of springtime

Jumping jacks,
Marshmallow pies
Grade school kissing behind the fence
Tall weeds sunshine flowers
What’s on the minds of innocence
My innocence has  long been gone
But I stroll down the path on occasion
Looking at the sunshine flowers
Hoping to find her in the perfect white spring dress
as innocence lost awaits.

Lips gleam
Buses scream through the dirt roads
Sirens
Long legs
Tight skirts
And all the glory in between
The clocked turned 6 and my night shift had ended
Lunch is for dinner
And the streets continue their roundabout rush
As survival is the same from the house or from the night protection of a solar eclipse

Spine sticky
Residue of past emotions
Linger trapped,
Bone sore,
Skull crushing pain
Black sticky scraps
My food never truly cleaned
From the plate of my life
Sticky plate

Green grass, pristinely cut low.
Moonlight dance
White laced summer dress flowing
barefoot freedom, wiggle your toes
Breathe through the green grass
from the souls of your feet to your frantic mind
Feel the calm
Feel your sunfeet
Perfect as intended

Who what where when and when
Corporate fog
Buzzing
Tingling
Body numb
Engine has seized
Computer overload
Sail away,
My ship has no destination
Only sunshine
Managers
None
Sally good riddance
Sealed mouth
Clear blue skies
Ship onward
Hungry but happy

Say something ,
I can't see you I can't hear you
Open up conduct your own flow
Clear communication coordinates concise connections
Be yourself, im here ,your there
Talk
Say something , it's important
Conduct your own flow
You matter , I just want to know

No two teeth are the same
No two people are the same
No one snowflake is like another
Why Is that
It doesn’t matter
It’s your teeth your snowflake
Don’t lose your teeth
Don’t miss your snowflake
Because you have to put in your dentures.
Be yourself
Brush your teeth
Capture your snowflake

Memory recalls hurt pain purging out
The source
Hidden in the closet
The Source
People know you know they know
We have to hide it to survive
Memory recall
It is of the upmost importance for us
Secrets deep layers of quicksand
Recalls getting close to being free
Dint hide your mind and body are ready for the
SOURCE

Well constructed visionary cries for help are not for you
My worn out wrinkles are not for you
I lost you I don't want my words to ever find your shadow
I found me and my words that I construct are for me
When the blood stained rooster awakes me in my nightmare
I mean to say that all the nonsense that I have written down might only make a bit of sense and a sack full of seeds to myself
So me myself and I can feel my words and my phrases
In their purest numbing extraction
These words are not for you

My bones ache my soul is crushedi
All alone my thoughts my eyes red
All slone I  sit
All alone I try to find the blackened light
Can anyday jere me
The razors edge
The mystique of  a Lost wondered
I ponder
All alone
What would it be like to be with another
I sit here alone sith my my ruminating thoughts
The slick sharp razors edge
What would it be like
As I  sit here a broken man
A glimmering Ray of  my
Of my blackened self
Just is trying to find a light switch
My bones ache and my soul is cdussjdd
All alone
And justI sit
Sitting and wating
As the snail moves,slowly across the razors edge
Im just TIRED

Sweet tears drop signs
emotions corrupt a hot lovely day
short skirt washed away as the waves speak of hypnotizing solitude
Lips plumped and embodies sin
Forever it seems our skin is blushing
Torn around
Washed up in fiery sin
Yummy lips andI edible skin
Merry Christmas Brianna that dive bar was mindfully exquisite!

Underneath the squeeze
Panic attack in my belly
Physical
Mental
One in the same
I brushed my teeth
Everything went away

Sometimes I wonder what the river truly says,
It’s a wander of nature at its finest,
It is a pure interrupted flow of beauty
At its worst it is a stagnant pond that lost its way
I look back as I see the drops fall from my eyes
And hoping my heavy drops can help release
The toxic pond back home
To where the beauty of the untamed water
can  once again be free to its uninterrupted free flow
My heavy drops sink into the ground
Hopeful that one drop of water in the pond
Can find the hole left from my toxic soul
to see the narrow path of freedom
as the others may follow
seeping their way through
and all find all their way
back home
To join the beauty of nature at its finest
The pure river of of an uninterrupted free flow
Sometimes I wonder what the river truly says

Inside my brain
My lower skull
Base of blood barrier
There dwells black toxic putty
Nerves frazzled
Isolation with my bed buddy
I return to the revolving door
of western medicine
I believe a shaman,
A medicine man
Is the only way to **** out
the toxic putty

In the funk,
Melancholy drips its hollow shell
I dig deep inside my mattress
I stay fearful yet only comfortable within
My best friend the heavy blanket
Wet from my tears,
Hankering down been here gone through without a scratch
Just the continuing fear of the scratch in my mind

The rush,
Andrenaline pumping,
Feel, listen, grasp
The energy
Under the roller coaster
I sit
A tear drop falls
I feel,
I listen,
I grasp
Underneath
Alone I sit under the roller coaster
Afraid to ride
Life

In the shadows
Out of the forest
Rocky bottom, Soul hurts
Depth perception is hidden
The twinkle of the swivel
The grand finale , I reached the grassy hill
My brain has been unraveled
Freedom of sweet uninterrupted movement
Perception on spot
Shadows sparkle
The unsinkable mind twirl, bends to my delight
Imagination is a luxury that many have lost.

Up and down,
Bipolar popcorn
Salt and pepper,
With a lovely twist
of an unorthodoxed path
Bipolar
I diagnosed mysel
I am simply me

Smart,
Phones,
Empty life,
Sympathy lost
Overcrowded planet
Mother Earth
Lost her cell
She smiled
Advanced human technology
Lost
Green grass
Spring flowers
Wild animals dancing through the forest
Mother Earth
Vanished
She never got the text

Inside the light,outside my cluttered door.
One guided step and the black hole is dissapating
The misery of my shadow finds new shine
A new day,a new moment,a simple spot of freedom outside myself.

Seemingly quiet
Inspirational rhetoric as the crowds come and fade away.
Lost souls, empty lighters and the clowns continue to their own bipolar destiny
All encompassing life too much
Simple short breaths treat me as mystical magic
Keeping jagged thoughts at bay from the desperate circling act
Pure delight
A good day indeed
A good moment absolute

Encapsulated by a drop of thirst
Falling for an outside view
Pummeled by an awe inspiring imagination
Thorough enough
Bold enough
Simple enough
Encapsulated by a drop of thirst
I sit and thus enters the maddening rush of the stars
withtheir own tale attached
I walk and the the light shimmers its known comforting smile
Let it Be
Bold enough
Simple enough
Thorough enough

Sit tight ,unwind the mind trap settles it's own scores.
Darkened shadows mixed with unfiltered light .
We begin the journey, we begin the fight with
balanced approaches from medicine filled souls.
Hold on tight for the new day has shown its manic face and
The cold steel rain is waiting to engulf itself upon thee.
The battle is but a battle and a smile is but a smile,
I for one choose the unfiltered viewpoint as I sit  on top of the
mountains edge.
Smiling, I remain unattached  knowing I will be victorious either way for this moment in time.

Smile it has arrived at your doorstep,
A wide eyed surprise for your ever ending thirst
want want want
What happened , where are we
We as in us or is it just me and what I want
Look around , be brave
The doorstep can vanish in an instant
One hedonistic step down the immaculate staircase
One view as someone else's
I need a drink of water, I need just a bite
I truly just need you to be you
And for all of us to peel the layers of protection
After the painful peeling is processed, it is found that me is we
And I is you
I stooped up rushed down the immaculate staircase
Wide eyed I rushed to the door and saw a filthy sick homeless man
I sit here changed forever of what I truly need.

Shimmering beauty
Slow crisp waves reappear,
Time for coffee
Time for life
Time for shadows dancing on the wall
Im alive
Im dead
Im everything in between
Shimmering beauty
Slow crisp waves reappear
Out of my head and into the day
Im alive
Im grateful