Lost in space,is it day or night
Insipid meds driving me into a moon filled submission
I saw the owl today during daylight
He comes to me menacing but guiding still not done with my spiritual quest
Now not about love misery process misery of unbridled destiny
Now about meltimg walks undescribable realizations about me
No one else is alloed at this festival of mental instability .
I need help
I am ill do what
I accept and that's it
The end
Will the owl ever present me with my true answers to positive health
And my now lost funny contented grin

Done with tiny masquerade parties
Accepting sweet passionatecandlesbeimg briskly blown away
Unacceptable timetables of perfection predictability
Immense knowledge must be withered away in the ******* like forest
We all must understand each other to begin to give pure unadulterated ever quenching water back to our MOTHER EARTH
Trumps a fkr

What and Whocame around that one day

Don't remember
Exact memories what and who said that
Whatever happened to the real me
**** I don't know
Memories lost and episodes of massive im er shift quaked me
What and who did happen
Reality did strike
Lightning did happen
What and who hid for along time
Im finding out
That's,my own heroes journey
Find what and who in your own life
**** matters I matter
What and who said thatt
Matters
Mimd shakes and quakes
Lightning  did happen
What and who
**** matters
Im gonna find out

Blue womderful pain cuddles me
I made it so
I returned the magic beans to the stalk
I figured it out
The blue womderful pain cuddles me
I want it all
I want sensual bodies meltimg within me
We all feel pain
How do you deal with it
The blue womderful pain cuddles me
And I cuddle it back
I figured it out
Just for this moment
The sensual bodies melt within me
Just for this moment
Caress it and live it
Remember it all
And the door opens and the nurse visits me with a smile and asks hermso familiar questions
Just for this moment
LIVE

Diagnosed and frightened ,
Yea im a recovering addict I sdmit it
One year plus if you care to count days I dont
What matters is mindfully being here in this moment
I grasp it it
I have mental health issues as well I accept it
But my latest diagnosis Trigeminal Neurolgia just too much
Not going to give up or surrender just another pile of shot added,to me
I will survive I will continue being sober
I am whing about this I get it
This isn't even a,poem so what
It's me and it's real and I just need,to get it out
What is truly real is this moment
Please ne mindful of this moment becUse it is all we truly ever have and all moments add up to a day a week a year a,life
Relish it live it be,present with it
Whether it be pain happiness or love or hate
My pain from my new diagnoses is hurtful new Meds help but sometimes through all of this I just want to know the base root cause of it all
That's it and enjoy the moment accept the pain the happiness the fear don't resist accept and move on otherwise it may consume you

Pretty words painted to,souls,of mass production
Warm colors ignite the keyhole of secret exploding secrets,left behind the locked,doors
Guck that
**** rhyming to and melting words to produce something special to the poets themselves something so important that they selves think it's truly a masterpiece
**** that
Pain is pain
It burns different colors at different times
I want the truth
The bottom line not painted in pretty positive picture as it still sits behind the secret locked doors of secrets
I want to know
Bottom line
**** it,
Just want the truth
Plain and simple words will do

Sweet tears drop signs
emotions corrupt a hot lovely day
short skirt washed away as the waves speak of hypnotizing solitude
Lips plumped and embodies sin
Forever it seems our skin is blushing
Torn around
Washed up in fiery sin
Yummy lips andI edible skin
Merry Christmas Brianna that dive bar was mindfully exquisite!