Hurt me and break me,
Laugh and betray me;
Then you come back when you’ve realized
What you’ve done.
Hate that you need me,
Mad that I don’t.
Mad you can’t save me and mad
I can’t help.
Put your problems on someone’s back and leave.
Walk away.
And that’s just that.
Mad that I’m not here to take all your crap.
Mad that I won’t put up with your ****.
Mad I can’t play therapist.
Mad you don’t have no run to run to
Because you push them away.
You push me away.

Don’t understand the risks that you make
For me...
I don’t want to understand the
Pain you deal with me.
Don’t let me know.
I don’t wanna know.
I can’t deal with letting you down
I can’t manage
I don’t wanna know
The disappointment I ring to you.
To everyone
To anyone.

The way I feel is nothing compared
To how you feel.
At least that’s what you tell me.
I shouldn’t feel this way
‘ I’m fine’
That’s what I hear.
So what do I feel?
Do I feel?

i cry for you.
i cry for my life to be mine.
i cry for happiness.
i want that.
for myself, for others.
i want to live happy, i want to write.
i don't want to go to the army.
i don't want to work hard for things that wont help me,
be happy.
i want to live.
i cry and beg to live;
happy.

What have I become?      
Blank stares and a blank mine.                                                            ­         
 Doubtful of any happiness to come of me.       
 Sad.                                                 ­                  
 Feeling lonely.                                                 
 Doubtin­g the ‘love’ you have for me.                  
Am I wrong? It’s not like you show it.                
So am I wrong?
I feel alone like if no one knows it.                                                          
But you do.  
You know it.

What is there without you here?
Me.
I’m here empty.
Why must you hurt...
Me?
Is it my fault?
Has to be.
Your perfect.
You deserve better than me.
I am at fault.

Drowning in your presence.
Filling my lungs with false thoughts,
And hope.
I try to grasp reality but your pulling my legs down with you.
With you all.
The sea of strangers.
Of the hopeless, of the ones stuck.
Not going anywhere but down.
Into the abyss.