-JCM-: Poems

11:11

-JCM- Dec 2018

11:11

Looking at the night sky
When shooting stars
Glare in my eyes
I don’t want to wish anymore
When an 11:11 appears on the clock
Let it be another meaningless moment
That passes me by

-JCM-

*Admiring you in spanish*

-JCM- Oct 2018

*Admiring you in spanish*

Estrella brillante
Bailando en el espacio
De mi mente vacío
Ojitos lindos
Galaxias oscuros
Me llevan a otro mundo
De que solo puedo soñar
Al conocerte aprenderé
Que no tengo que morir
Para conocer cielo

-JCM-

Bright little star
Dancing into the space
Of my empty mind
Pretty eyes
Dark galaxies
Take me to another world
I could only dream of
To meet you
I’d learn
I don’t have to die
To know heaven

Again

-JCM- Jan 2019

Again

I'll give up again
Hoping against hope
I've reached the end of the rope
I'll hang around for a while
Thinking of a smile
Till I reconcile
I'll pull myself up
Till I give up again

-JCM-

Anxiety

-JCM- Feb 2019

Anxiety

Living in memories of moments
That never happened
A slave to the past
That can’t be changed
A prisoner to a future
That hasn’t been written
Can I feel the gift of presence
I’m losing
Giving it away

-JCM-

Bad taste

-JCM- Jul 2018

Bad taste

I'll be mute
Won't say them no more
Sweet words that spill from my mouth
Are rotting my teeth

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Balboa

-JCM- Nov 2018

Balboa

Salted air
Blowing through chestnut hair
Sitting near on the pier
Glowing honey eyes
Reflecting the sun
Goosebumps on pale thighs
Inside of me silent cries
The need to keep you warm
The coldness drew in
You froze me out
A shadow of me remains on balboa

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Beach Rose

-JCM- Jul 2018

Beach Rose

Sun kissed
Summer glow
Beach rose
Petals spread
Beauty bestowed
For you my admire grows

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Beads of wax

-JCM- Jan 2019

Beads of wax

I felt like the brightest light
Burning everything within sight
Touch and go
My glow is my might
Now I'm fading
Dripping slow
I'm beads of warm wax
Turning cold and hard
I am a candle
Blown out too soon
Do wishes ever come true?

-JCM-

I woke up and went to the gym at 4 this morning, I enjoyed my morning coffee after that. I felt nice but I'm coming down from it now.

Cloud

-JCM- Feb 2019

Cloud

I'm a rolling cloud in the sky
The words I rain
Are to help you grow
My perfect storm
I'd weather it all with you

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Concussed

-JCM- Nov 2018

Concussed

Technicolor sphere
Take me far from here
Concussed
Dazed
You're my latest craze
Losing track of days
I'm floating
Between worlds
Touch and I will burst
My minds become a hearse
Lay all my thoughts to rest

-JCM-

Damnation

-JCM- Jan 2019

Damnation

Falling for you
Was my fall from grace
Don’t want salvation
She devil
Smallest glimpse of skin
Tempting me to sin
On my knees
Give in to my pleas
I won’t repent
I’ll wear you like a halo around my head
Be my damnation

-JCM-

Diving head first

-JCM- Jul 2018

Diving head first

When you do the things that you do
Say the things that you say
It’s like clipping my wings
And asking me to fly
But in my plight
I’ll oblige

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Dreaming in pastel

-JCM- Jan 2019

Dreaming in pastel

You bloomed through a dream last night
A pastel flower in a muted garden
I seek you often
But you hide
I'd rather die
Than know
Together we will never grow

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Drive me away

-JCM- Jul 2018

Drive me away

You knew all the shortcuts
I know all the routes too
It wasn’t a careless mistake
Played dumb
Missed every turn
Took the long way back
Only to spend more time with you

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Dry

-JCM- Jan 2019

Dry

June gloom
Summer night
Warm breeze
Dry kiss
Busted lip
Sweet pain
Lust pours
Cleanses like rain
Relieved suffering
Flows down the drain
You are my rain cloud
Drenched over me
I’m drowned in you

-JCM-

Echo

-JCM- Jan 2019

Echo

In dark rooms
My figure emits
Familiar shapes
Erie shadows
Sound of my voice
Carries a known tone
Haunting notes
A glance in the mirror
Freezes my stare
A reflection of me
An echo of you

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When you lose a parent they never really die. We are an echo of them.

Enough

-JCM- Feb 2019

Enough

You weigh heavy on my mind
Keeps my head anchored to my pillow
I'm able to sleep enough
The hope of a tomorrow with you
Is enough to keep me getting out of bed

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Every time is like the first time

-JCM- Jan 2019

Every time is like the first time

Your silhouette
Casts a shadow I feel comfort in
I've memorized every line
Know every curve
Every time I see you
Its like the first time
I never get enough

-JCM-

Exagerado (This is not a game)

-JCM- Apr 2019

Exagerado (This is not a game)

Me llamas el exagerado
Se lo que siento
No es un juego
Mi muñeca

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You say I exaggerate
I know what I feel
Its not a game
My doll

Fall(ing 4 u)

-JCM- Oct 2018

Fall(ing 4 u)

Its always autumn in my head
Wrapped in sweaters and cardigans
Comforting threads
To when my heartaches again
Harvesting wishes in my brain
I fall so easily

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Fan fiction

-JCM- Aug 2018

Fan fiction

Won't audition
I'm my own star
When the credits fade
At the end of the reel
I'm still real
I'm not your silver screen
Stop projecting

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Fear of missing out

-JCM- Jan 2019

Fear of missing out

Undiscovered bliss
Softly knocking on the door
So easy to miss
The handle isn't locked
You won't open
Won't let it in
For fear of missing out
On a dream that isn't real
Contriving illusions
Living in disillusions

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Fingers crossed

-JCM- Jul 2018

Fingers crossed

I pull up your number
Lucky digits
If I hit it
Will I strike out
Pressing send
Its a gamble
I'm in shambles
Come on baby
Let me win the lotto

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Forgettable

-JCM- Jul 2018

Forgettable

Is it desperation
Is it realization
Is it weakness
That brings me here
Can it be my initials
To settle in the concrete
Can I get away
Before it cements

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Heaven's sake

-JCM- Jul 2018

Heaven's sake

How do you keep living
When you've met angels
But were denied heaven
I wanna sink to low depths
Still I keep praying
When I feel so bad
Continue trying to be worthy
Can these conflicts that fill me
Be the making of a good man?

-JCM-

Honey

-JCM- Nov 2018

Honey

Her voice calling me honey
Stings harder than a million bees
Saying I'm sweet
There's no better treat
"You're so ******* cute"
Hits my heart like a ******* nuke
She only exists in a land too far
My hopes only lie on a shooting star

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¿I am who?

-JCM- Mar 2019

¿I am who?

Everyone knows how I feel
Except me
I speak words but they aren't mine
Slipping through deaf ears
Waving at blind eyes
Whose real
I don't know

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If only

-JCM- Apr 2019

If only

I think I'm invisible
I look in the mirror
I'm still there
If only I could be you
Then I could forget I exist too

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Indulge me

-JCM- Jul 2018

Indulge me

Cutie pie
Coolin on the window sill
Hunger please stay still
Need your sweetness
If no ones lookin
Can I get a slice?

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Insomnia

-JCM- Dec 2018

Insomnia

You are a dream
I don’t sleep enough
Sandman don’t know my home

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Internal pain

-JCM- Apr 2019

Internal pain

Can I fall without breaking
Got scars that are hidden
Fighting a war that can’t be seen
To speak it is forbidden
Will I ever win
Stop the pain within

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Jail

-JCM- Apr 2019

Jail

If I say your name enough times
Will you finally expel from my mind
If I stay silent like a mime
Can my head keep quiet of you
If I go blind
Can I stop picturing you
When I close my eyes
My brain is jailed
It’s the biggest crime
I’m your prisoner

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Just because

-JCM- Jan 2019

Just because

You say it so easily
It scares me
Takes two to tango
I'm too shy to dance
If I say it
It will cease to be
Just because I don't say it
Doesn't mean I don't feel it

-JCM-

I love you too.

Keep

-JCM- Nov 2020

Keep

Cleanse me of obsessions
Tear off my limbs
I’m falling off
From holding on

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La Razón

-JCM- Mar 2019

La Razón

La rosa mas hermosa
Creciendo en el jardín de mi corazón
Con tu sonrisa
Disminuyes toda razón
Toda la razón de mi sufrimiento

-JCM-

The reason
The most beautiful rose
Growing in the garden of my heart
With your smile
You diminish all reason
All reason for my suffering

Like a glove

-JCM- Jul 2018

Like a glove

If your delicate hand ever returns to mine
Where comfort and softness was found
Don't be alarmed
Touch won't be familiar
Palms became disfigured
They've grown calloused
From carrying the weight you left

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Lunch break

-JCM- Dec 2018

Lunch break

1 hour a day
5 days a week
It's all I had
It's all I needed
It's all it took
For me to fall in love
(with you)

-JCM-

Falling for a coworker? It happens. When they quit and left they took part of me with them and took the reason I looked forward coming into work.

Magician

-JCM- Mar 2019

Magician

Do that trick again
Locked into your stare
Make me disappear
Vanishing act
Who summoned who
Were we ever real

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Me

-JCM- Apr 2019

Me

My voice is soft and timid
My words are strong and bold
I dress in bright colors
Emit a glow
Never see how dark my mind goes
The sweeter I am
The more pain I'm in

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Meditation (to my conscious)

-JCM- Jan 2019

Meditation (to my conscious)

I am the tunnel
You are the light
Don’t lead with spite
Guide me through tonight
We'll make it in time

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Melt for me

-JCM- Jul 2018

Melt for me

I am a tame boy
Make me a wild man
Gave up cruelty as meals
I want your flesh
Let no inch of you go to waste
I want to devour you
Melt on my tongue
I need your taste

-JCM-

Mime games

-JCM- Jul 2018

Mime games

Look the other way
Eyes to the floor
If silence is golden
Your tongue has the Midas touch

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My father's sun

-JCM- Dec 2018

My father's sun

The older I grow
The more I learn
The more I know
The more I understand
Drowning for a feeling
Crushes me more
Than it did before

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My father had a heart attack due to complications of alcoholism when I was 18. I had to perform CPR on him on our living room floor. I failed. This is why the thought of drinking never appeals to me. I hope you can understand why I say "no thanks" when offered a drink.

New view

-JCM- Jun 2018

New view

Thought I knew heartbreak
Thought I knew loss
Everything I knew
Became new
After meeting you

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"No one will come from me"

-JCM- Oct 2018

"No one will come from me"

If I ever have children, I hope they never have an affinity for Morrissey.

Premonition

-JCM- Jan 2019

Premonition

Relieving peace
Triggers memories of discord
Dreamlike wave
Stirred on by pain
Feeling hollow
An agony that swallows
Waking up in a new day
Will the hurt always be this way
Can I live without feeling guilt
Of a premonition that spilled

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Pull me in

-JCM- Jul 2018

Pull me in

I like the way
Gravity falls on you
Sway away pull me in
The way your atoms hold
My knees buckle and fold
Your laugh’s frequency in tune
Brings my heart to bloom
The brightness of your smile
Shadows my doom
Stop and stare for a while
I’ll be empty of gloom

-JCM-

Queen

-JCM- Jul 2018

Queen

I am your peasant
In my heart is resistance
Can only admire from a distance
I your knight in shining armor
I will defend your honor
I your dancing jester
Your heart will never fester
You are my kingdom

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