Amidst all the commotion,
You've managed to open up a calm, clear field in my path.
Even if it was just a flash, a tease of a longed apparition, it was full of emotion.
You made it falter- this onslaught of a wrath.

You caught me off guard,
But I became untouchable.
I dodged and missed the slash of the sword that would've left me marred,
Caught a few punches but remained unbreakable.

Even then, it was you who was thanking me.
And though I should be the one doing so, you thanked me for existing, for talking to you.
It's unbelievable how even past all my walls you could still see
How much I was putting at risk through and through.
You thanked me for putting my heart on the line.
That was when I started hurting for breaking you while I was moving on, doing just fine.

I just want to thank you for looking past all my flaws, past all my heartless decisions.
For always seeing the bright light radiating from within,
For mounting me up high even when I refused to let you in.

Thank you for allowing me to end and begin.
Even if it was at your expense, you let me win.

I believe in certain forevers.

I believe in goodbyes that render tremors,
In sad moments and blue weather.
That lasts forever.

I believe in pain with no measure,
In aching and breaking that doesn't get better.
That lasts forever.

I believe in tears and quivers,
In curling up with an empty feeling that festers.
That lasts forever.

I believe in certain forevers,
But never the ones that cause pleasure.

Long sighs* of exhaustion,
You keep blowing things out of proportion.
Deep sighs of regret,
You never let me forget.

Long thoughts on you,
Remind me of everything we've been through.
Deep thoughts on our once upon a time,
Pray they lessen overtime, pray I'll be just fine.

Long moments of daydreaming,
When you think about me, I hope you're screaming.
Deep moments of crashing down
Into the water, there I drown.

Long incisions to the end,
Heard those can't be mended.
Deep incisions full of fear,
There's no going back from here.

Caught sight of me,
Sprinted towards me at full speed.
Left me disoriented at impact,
You knew, for you, I was the perfect catch.

Pretented to mend me,
While feeding me poison ever so sweetly.
Lifted me up and set me firmly
On a chair cemented to the ground- you were all I could see.

Every now and then
You illuminated my world with false light.
Your stone cold hands caressed me,
Created a fire only you could ignite.

Through time I grew accustomed,
With time came wisdom.
I was able to finally open my eyes, finally got my freedom.

It was unmistakeable, your malice,
I saw through you like *cheap sunglasses.