sanctuary

Sep 2014

rufus

exchange

i refuse to believe
that you are being true
you tell me the fault i have
but you act like that too

sanctuary Sep 2014

It ***** to know you say you love me
Yet you point out my flaws
Yes, I don't have the flawless face
the fit hair
a slim waist
an endless smile
the always sparkling eyes

Then you ask me why I doubt that you do

It's not love when you can see every wrong there is

When you rub it in my face that I am not perfect
it doesn't make me feel any better
It makes me feel like I won't be enough
then you have comebacks that you like it that way
Sometimes I may get used to other people saying that but maybe I just want to look like I'm perfect for someone not my family but someone else special to me

hope I explained well

sanctuary Sep 2014

Tucked in

I don't like dreams
For they are full of lies
Making you hope and feel this delight

Then when you wake up
It makes you yearn for it to be true

Such blissful vivid scenes
Such cruel jokes

sanctuary Sep 2014

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It's not yet time oh darling I know
You really can't be there all those times
I need you
But honestly, it would feel better if there's nothing to need at all

It just keeps my hopes up more
And the more it grows, it doubles the pain

In you I found solace
In you I found my weakness but you've also given me strength

And I don't know my heart can take this all anymore

sanctuary Sep 2014

✨

"I know"
I've said this hundreds times
But I don't know why I say it a hundred times more

Not a single astronomer
Would study this super nova
No matter how long it waits
They don't

It continues to hope
But then it burns and explodes
It's ****** by the black hole it, itself has formed

sanctuary Sep 2014

Gazing

Vines intertwined.
Scattered leaves left behind.
Where can we seek what we need to find.
Beauty and chaos combined,
What is this that makes us blind?
Look around maybe search behind.
Then they'll see something undefined.

When can sorrow never reach our tomorrow?
How can we escape this tragedy happily without agony?
I want to cross galaxies.
Redefine fallacies.

But how?
How can you do what is unknown?
When will you know to dodge what is thrown?

Like lost birds we search
For a branch where we could perch.

sanctuary Sep 2014

;

My thoughts are already blades
*who needs physical self harm