Mom I wish you were here to say good night
These nightmares are becoming real
The murmurs are getting louder
The claws at dragging in further

Mommy save me
I don't want this anymore

I'll let you point the syringe
Its okay to feel the flow
Of that chemical of peace

Please be aware. Please let me have it.
Please save me make them go away

Your words in forms of whispers
Replacing what I call music
Your breathing warm and deep
Serving as my source of air
Your arms that envelop me
Providing refuge
Your touch that with every linger it
burns
It leaves traces
along those places
a contingence

Something vivid
Something surreal
Something perfect; impeccable


But then at one moment my eyes started to flutter
The vision of you beside me
Disappeared
Then I realized
*I woke up

A farewell never said but felt by the heart
A one way ticket to a world forever apart

What are your sources to the stories about me
that I myself don't know my darling?

Her thoughts loom as vast as the ocean floor
Never escaping a swirl of inadequacies
Evaporating once or twice
yet crashing like waves in the middle of the night

All my life
I've read novels and story books
I've watched them come to life in my tv screen

And just before true love's kiss is about to happen
They cover my eyes

I thought of why's
Are they afraid to let me see how what they say would look like?

Little years added in my life
At times I could see
How they both hold hands and then close their eyes
Sharing something gross at first
Yet magical as you see the silhouette of they're future made but what they called love

For  some time I have dreamed of finding a prince
Though I may not be royalty by blood
I imagine someone who treats me like one

Someone who gently touches my skin in fear I may get hurt
Someone who says nice things
But still joins me with my mischievous tasks
Who'll dance with me through midnight then kiss my hand good morrow
Someone who's my foundation when I become weak
Who'll be the knight of this heart full of bliss

I understand that it may never come true
For reality is no where near fiction
But inside of every one of us
Is a person in hopes of finding what they call true love

No matter how cruel the world could be, hope is the answer that makes us find a better tomorrow

I have decided not to let people take away my happiness
I already know that nothing lasts forever
If people will leave, I'll let them
I believe they were part of my life for a reason
And if it's all at loss
Something better would replace them

I have learned that some people are worth it and some are not

I guess it's all measured by who stayed at your darkest and dwelled in the happiness

You are different, they don't have the heart like yours
So be weary child
For they will not return the same love you give

Sometimes you have to let people go
Specially when you're the only one holding on
Trusting that they will undestand you
But they don't

That will always be life
Choose who is worth it