Sitting in my home all the day,
and going on the terrace is the only fun thing to do.
Yes, I'm an introvert and I don't want this to be over.
I was tired of tired of "a new day with same activities" anyways.
All of the pain I felt ?
Where did it go ?
It just got vanished away ?
I'm beery but what if all of the ache comes back when this is over ?
What if everything gets back to normal ?
And I'll have no time for myself,
in my schedule.

Those dark brown eyes,
looking into mine.
Wearing the lehanga she always liked.
Walking down that aisle.
And stepping and destroying all the scenarios,
I always created in my mind.
She looks beautiful,
just like she did when she was 16 and left the city,
breaking my heart into pieces.
Life's crummy right now,
because I never confessed my feelings.
But who knew that the girl of my dreams will be marrying a firrangi.
And I'll be standing here regretting all of my actions,
at her wedding.

Today, I choose bright blue sky,
over the sleepless dark nights.
Smile over tears.
Staying alone over fake people.
Simplicity over extraordinary.
Self-respect over attitude.
Satisfaction over guilts.
Happiness over people's opinions.
Today,
I decide to write my own story,
over all these judgements and expectations.
Today,
I decide to search for my purpose,
to search what I was made for
Today,
I choose life !
I know I'm getting a lot of hate,
to do things in this way.
Ii know this path seems dark and hard,
but if needed,
I'll become the light !
And, I' promise, I'll come back,
shining even more bright.

Unrequited love hurts ?
But for me,
it's a pleasure to sit and waste all my time, counting to infinity,
and wait to get the love back that I've been giving.
Waiting to be destroyed by the betrayal from a person who don't even know that I exist.
But does that mean I'll stop loving ?
No, because it's hard to love again,
if you truly felt affection towards someone.
Doesn't matter if there's any love left,
but just pain.
When you let someone go,
you lose a part of yourself and I'm not ready to feel a blank space inside of me so I'll stay.
I want to feel like someone's holding me,
or I'll fall down.
I need something to keep me going,
or my life will be miserable,
and more like hell.
I'm just another star but I still believe in happy endings because my love is true.
I can't leave you behind,
and move forward in my life.
Because I've already convinced myself that one day,
you'll be mine.
What if I'm nothing without you ?
Just a thought of you is so magical,
It feels like home.
I wander all the time,
but still, end up coming back to you.
I've done things I won't ever do,
just because I've you.
I'm not in your life,
but you're all that I look forward to.

Writing this in 2020,
when we're going through a global pandemic.
Everything's closed and,
we're staying at our homes.
I know I'll be fine if I take all the precautions,
but life takes turns and we don't know what's coming next.
And no one is immortal,
so, I don't know if I'll be here in upcoming years,
but I really want my words to stay alive.

So many deaths all around the world,
and we still don't have a vaccine to cure this disease.
We all are fighting against this together,
even though we all are struggling.
So many people don't have food to eat or places to stay in,
some of them lost their loved ones and some don't have access to medical facilities even when they're effected.
Social distancing is the only activity we can practice to save our lives,
and survive in this hard time.

W all are trying to stay safe but has anyone thought "why so many problems?"
We all hurt our mother nature everyday,
without even knowing it.
Have you not noticed the change in the environment these days ?
The sky is so clear and our surroundings are so clean,
just because people are staying in.
It's all our fault because we are needy and selfish.
If this isn't an apocalypse,
then, I hope this condition teaches everyone a lesson.

Life's like a roller coaster ride.
Sp many ups and downs,
but we still choose to continue to enjoy.
And those who don't,
are cowards ? no !
They're tired and done with everything.
So, they choose to quit.
But this isn't how it is supposed to be.
We all have reasons to be here,
we just need to find them while we're riding.
Giving up is like end of the game,
it isn't the answer,
to all the questions, that we've been searching.
To pull out the sounds like demons from our heads.
Learn to fall and shine like a star,
no matter what happens,
don't let anyone dull your sparkle.

The dark night, full of stars shining bright.
I look into his eyes and find love for insecure heart of mine.
I was lost,
and in the next minute,
I realized,
he's holding my hand real tight.
It's like I'm floating in the sky,
on a cloud.
With lilies all around.
What a pleasure this is,
I'm smiling and he's admiring my beauty.
It's more lovely because there are no sounds around but just me and him,
making love under the big fat cloud.