"Why do you write" will always be a hard question to answer.
But I'll try to answer it.
And define my feelings to explain what it's like.
To pour our hearts out on a paper and cry through words everytime,
I write.

I write when I feel unheard,
because people around me only label my thoughts as "chatter".
I write because,
I don't like bothering people who love me,
no matter how much I'm hurting inside.
I write to let all the lava (made up of my thoughts) out,
and sometimes, to relive a few memories.
Or to express how my imagination can go wild and how I can bring life to scenarios in my head,
like it's actually happening in real life.

Whatever I write today,
I believe that someone out there will relate with my words.
And learn from the mistakes I've made.
And realize how beautiful life could be,
and find what they're missing out on.
And fight for what they deserve,
to get what they really like.

And one day, I'll be gone,
but my words will always remain alive.
And I'm sure it will matter,
and read by upcoming generations.
Maybe people won't remember my name,
but my words ill influence their minds.
And what else do I really need ?

It's a sweet addiction,
because you feel relieved.
And when I sit to write,
I don't really care about the fact that,
"writers don't earn enough".
Because I win people's heart.
It brings me happiness,
which can't be bought by money or any other materialistic things.

It's a sunday evening and I can't go out because of lockdown.
So, I just decided to enjoy quarantine,
and make some coffee for me.
Just because I don't wanna feel like I'm alone,
and to avoid all the thoughts in my head.
I played my favourite song "anxiety" by Julia Michaels,
because I can totally relate to all the lines in it.

The coffee is already ready.
And now,
I'm just gonna sit in my balcony hearing to my favourite old world sparrow chirping.
Thinking about all the things,
I should be doing,
instead of crying because of social distancing.
And guess what ?
I can't stop thinking.

I could have been enjoying in LA right now !
Yeah, I've been trying to avoid this thought from the morning.
LA has been a dream forever.
And when I finally got a chance,
covid-19 ruined everything.

They say I'm an attention-seeker and always crave for playfulness and excitement.
I express leadership and I don't like feeling.
I don't even if all of this true,
just because my zodiac sign is leo.
Or maybe it is,
but my eyes just fail to see.

Sun ! It's beautiful, right ?!
Not because it looks good in pictures,
or,
because it feels like you're in magical genre's book.
No ! It's beautiful because,
it gives us the best lessons of our lives.
Only if you notice,
only if you're good at observing.
What I learnt from sunset is that,
no matter how many times you fall,
you're not a failure.
Where are rainbows without a little rain ?
Get up !
Try harder ! Because,
life isn't easy for anyone here.
Sun sets in the evening,
but still rises on the next day.
And from this,
I learnt that,
I should stop waiting for moments !
And start to make my present,
the moment I wanna live in,
the one I carve for.
No matter how many times you feel low,
you can still shine bright,
and, hurt people's eyes.
We can't escape from reality,
so, how can we forget about clouds ?
There will be days when the sun won't shine bright,
because of some dark clouds.
But the sun always try to come out of darkness and shine.
This is what exactly happens in real life, right ?
People will let you down, and,
throw you in dark days.
Don't let them affect you,
you can still shine bright like sunshine !
We all learn new lessons,
on a new day.
So, believe in yourself,
keep learning and,
don't give up because of some stupid dark clouds,
okay ?

Protest **** ?
What's the first thing that comes to your mind after reading
these two phrases.
Candle march ?
Asking for protection ?
Crying and shouting in front of media to get attention ?
And then, get back to home,
and call girls "*" because of her clothes ?

So, this is a society that we live in ?
If yes,
then, sorry I can't stay.
But where do I even go if I run away ?
There are no safe places,
we've a monster in every corner,
with a desperate *,
dying for some satisfaction.
Why don't you try ******* ?
Because women aren't here to fulfill your dreams of ****** interaction.

Asking your sister to not go out because it's not safe,
while telling your girl about how will you've *** ?
Why are you sexually assaulting your daughter,
in the name of love ?
Don't you know that it's a crime, uncle ?
Stop * your wife every night,
if she's not fine with it.
Your marriage don't give you a right to go against her will.

Try shutting your ****** fantasies,
when you meet a girl.
It's her body,
not a **** movie for your entertainment,
you * !
Watch your eyes and your ***** mind, please.
It was never our fault,
we're not offering blow jobs to you all.
You can't control your ****** desires,
and that's not our responsibility.
You should know how to respect,
I wish you did.
Because this lack of education is leading to crimes and life-long trauma,
so many innocent girls have to suffer because of such mother**s.

This is life,
you'll have nights,
when you won't let your body fight,
and you won't sleep tight.
You'll have days,
when you'll try to escape,
but just don't hate.
This isn't a bad life,
but just a bad day.
This is life,
and you'll be in pain,
just keep fighting with the monsters in your brain.
Things will get tough,
but so are you my darling.
You'll never ever give up, okay?
Just keep learning.
Now wake your soul up and listen,
You're here for a reason,
stop waiting for seasons.
This is your time,
get out of your comfort zone,
because you're strong,
stronger than you know.

The list of things that I wanna do with him,
the situations I wanna be in,
the scenarios I've created in my head,
all of it,
it's huge.
But trust me, it's cute.
I wanna adore him,
like I adore god for sending him on this planet.
I wanna be around him,
always,
like that bracelet in his hand.
I wanna hug him,
like the beach does,
to the sand.
I wanna be a part of him,
like the sun becomes,
of the river,
at dusk.
I wanna make love with him,
but with good intentions and purity.
I wanna love him,
till my soul leaves my body.
I wanna give it all for him,
and live with him till my last breathe.
But what if he's not upto all this ?
What if he don't wanna do the things,
that I wanna do ?
What if god have just sent him to give me another heartbreak ?

Be a flower to the people as spines,
because only want you to shine.
They're not faking anything,
they're just trying to disguise.
Because they don't wanna bother you with their love in their heart for you.
They just have their ways to be affectionate.