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Writam Allan Ray Jan 2014
I look beyond my scarred life
I look beyond to find me gone
I take a last glance at this place
I tried to hide for far too long

I try to keep my absence secret
I don't want you to hurt
With every day that I am gone
I felt as if I was dirt

I hate to leave you in this life
However it's the only right way
I'll remember all those memories
As I linger in you're today

The past may hurt too much to stand
But please never let it go
With every step you'll be much stronger
I'll be around when your feeling low

never forget me and my ways
I know I left but I still remember
I hurt you all with lack of presence
But don't forget Crystalwolftear
Writam Allan Ray Jan 2014
I didn't care what people thought.
We always used to smile.
I clung on so desperately
For everything was a lie.

You took me past the clouds,
Up to the clearest sky.
Now I know you better
And if you wont, I'll cry.

For our first kiss
I can't breathe
Our conversations, I miss
I can't breathe
I'm trying to forget
I can't breathe
I don't believe you left
I can't breathe

My thoughts were we'd be forever.
I close my eyes and dream.
Apparently we were never
What other people believed.
You were my first, will be my last-
Are my only love.
For your touch I still thirst, my dear
I live in memory of the past; not enough.

For our walks through the streets
I can't breathe
In the warm summer breeze
I can't breathe
Long were your sighs
I can't breathe
for when you were mine
I can't breathe

And did you hear my sobs?!
And did you see my tears?!
Did you want my blood?
Now you're one of my fears,
Now my breaths end is near,
Now it's all so very clear.

So here I am, bleeding out
Missing you, you see.
Always wanting you by my side
It wasn't meant to be?
But here I am, bleeding out
I wasn't your love to give
But that of the mask you always wore with me
I don't have the strength to live.

I have no strength
I can't breathe
I have nothing left
I can't breathe
You were the thief to my heart
I can't breathe
Our lives are those that are set apart
I can't breathe

You've literally beaten
The breath out of me.
You've literally kicked me to death,
My dear
you've stolen my life
No, my love, literally.
Writam Allan Ray Jan 2014
I live with my broken heart
I live with my dying part
I can't believe that I still live
Even in my dream I can't have your love

I have wings but I can't fly
I'm torturing but I can't cry
I can't live without you but I will try
Even stars don't shine on my black sky

Why does my destiny not on your way
Although I've seen the Sun and Moon together
If I could open your heart with this key
I would be with you forever!!!
Writam Allan Ray Jan 2014
Her Dad was a drunk,
Her Mom was an addict,
Her parents kept her locked in an attic.

Her only friend,
Was a little toy bear,
It was old and worn out,
And had patches of hair.

She always talked to it,
When no one's around,
She lies there and hugs it,
Not a peek of sound.

Until her parents,
Unlock the door,
Some more and more pain,
She'll have to endure.

A bruise on her leg,
A scar on her face,
Why would she be in such a horrible place?

But she grabs her bear,
And softly cries,
She loves her parents,
But they want her to die.

She sits in a corner,
Quiet, but thinking,
"God, why? Why is my life always sinking?"

Such a bad life,
For a sad little kid,
She'd get beaten and beaten,
For anything she did.

Then one night,
Her Mom came home high,
The poor child was hit and slapped,
As hours went by.

Then her Mom suddenly,
Grabbed for a blade,
It was sharp and pointy,
One that she made.

She ****** the blade,
Right into her chest,
"You deserve to die,
You worthless pest!"

The Mom walked out,
Leaving the girl slowly dying,
She grabbed for her bear,
And again started crying.

Police showed up,
At the small little House,
They quickly barged in,
Everything was as quiet as a mouse.

One officer slowly,
Opened a door,
To find the sad little girl,
Lying on the floor.

It must have been bad,
To go through so much harm,
But at least she died,
With her best friend in her arms.
Writam Allan Ray Jan 2014
what's the use of a heart when your heart gets broken.
what's the use of breathing when you leave me breathless.
what's the use of a soul if your soul gets stolen.
what's the use of speech when you don't even speak to me.
what's the point of feelings if someone dislikes you for them.
what's the point of you and me if you know that it will never work out, but i thought it would.
so here i lay crying on the floor "i loved you and i still do". but you go and forget my feelings for you...
Writam Allan Ray Jan 2014
What is this?
I am restless
I don’t know why
But, I feel no interest
Just force a smile upon

What is this?
I see no color
But, I am not blind
Oh, I see, the world is black
No love, no affection

What is this?
This emptiness I never felt before, or
I did but chose to ignore
And live a life of mere glass that can shatter
Shatter at the slightest touch

What is this?
I am breathless
As if someone is following me
Or is it that I want to catch someone
How do people smile so easily?
Live so freely
Will ‘they’ answer me?
If I ask
The reason for life to be bestowed upon us

What is this?
I feel alone, separated, anxious
I am scared
I want to live
No perhaps I don’t
Yes  
No matter where I search
Whom I ask
They give no reply

What is this?
I am eager
I want someone to share my feelings with
I searched here and there
Tried to open up to many
But ended up hurt

What is this?
Ah! I see, perhaps end
Searching for someone I came across this question
Why is life bestowed upon us?
I am alone
I want someone
I call out will all my might
But no one listens
I am tired
I will just live like others
Yeah

What is this?
In the end I give up
That someone I want to share my feelings, myself with
Is no where
Oh! I give up
I am really afraid
Scared
I am as if bond by invisible chains of
Of what
Hatred, love, anger?
No perhaps emptiness

What is this?
I am alone
In this darkness days pass
But no one comes
Please come
Someone
I want to open up
Share
I can no longer live alone
Why
Why is life in the first place?
I don’t want jealousy to devourer me
Please I am alone

What is this?
I feel attracted to someone or
Perhaps I am forcing myself to be attracted
Wanting to live on imaginary lies
Yes
Lies
All are lies
This life is itself
Having no reason to exist
Is there an afterlife
A happy one
Where I can find someone to open up
If there is I wish to die
Oh! God forgive me
But I can no longer
Handle these injuries, pain, and suffering
Not anymore
I am gradually giving up
On the believe on the very existence of happiness
But,
Please, if my angel exists let my voice
My hearts reaches you and find me
Before I am devoured by this darkness



For,
I give up on this life of mine

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