He poured the coffee
Into the cup
He put the milk
Into the cup of coffee
He put the sugar
Into the coffee with milk
With a small spoon
He churned
He drank the coffee
And he put down the cup
Without any word to me
He emptied the coffee with milk
And he put down the cup
Without any word to me
He lighted
One cigarette
He made circles
With the smoke
He shook off the ash
Into the ashtray
Without any word to me
Without any look at me
He got up
He put on
A hat on his head
He put on
A raincoat
Because it was raining
And he left
Into the rain
Without any word to me
Without any look at me
And I buried
My face in my hands
And I cried

The sun is rising and
I can't sleep because
A broken person is
How you left me
And, empty now
I sit alone
Longing for the days
When I called you
Home

there are no words to describe how i feel for you
whenever i try to speak
my throat becomes enclosed
and my words get lost in a giant sea of emotion
there is nothing i want more
than to spend every waking moment by you
counting the beats of your heart
and stripping you down to reveal your inner core
i want to see all your imperfections in high definition
i want to learn what makes you laugh
what makes you cry
and how you got that scar behind your ear
everything you do
every word you say
it gives me hope for the future
presented through love and feeling
for my dear you are all that i have
and all i have am
and without you i am dead
if you were ever to leave
i would simply melt into cracks of the earth
with others i am merely furniture
i observe and i listen
and serve my purpose
but you give me a reason
a reason to live and breathe
and continue you on
my darling you give me life
you are the air in my lungs
the blood in my veins
i want to wipe away your insecurities
as someone as lovely as you
does not deserve to feel the sorrow i do
as i am nothing but an ugly soul encased in a pretty package
and i dare you to open it
there are no words to describe how i feel for you
so please allow me to show you
i love you

In a mid summers eve
I see all I can be
I gaze upon the stars
to see the root of these scars
and wonder if the choices
are made for me
am I selfish at heart?
or am I too giving
is there happiness in death?
or just the living
these corrupted thoughts alter my mind
and as hard as I've fought
I can't seem to find
the root of my problems
this aggression i have
my one chance to solve it
all that I've had
left with my dad
yet it makes me mad
for following this fad
that I blame him
for this is my sin
it is only within
that my problems dim
I am the root of evil,
aggression and strife
My whims cast aside for they are feeble
alone I must rise, to win this fight

The nights seem to last longer...
I watch the minutes crawl upon the ceiling
As I replay every word exchanged
From your tired lips unto my walls
Splatters of colorful paint decorate every brick placed
and you can almost trace the misunderstandings
If you examine the situation close enough
The fear comes from wanting
The pain is cradled in longing
and I wonder how I ended up falling
Pointless thoughts that keep my mind soaring
So far from reason's reach
and it's been too long this night
That day has breached