my time is measured in cups of love
in stars in the sky and dreams above
my heart is heavier than a paperweight
because what is holds is ornate
my spirit is stretched way to thin
to hide all the secrets within
my soul is on it's vacation
I reiterate as I pull into the station

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alm and palm in hand

got a band aid
my heart has a hole
you took the cork
to keep my tears
from draining out
and drowning me
in my own despair

I cant be fully cooked
if I am:
       hot on the outside
       but lukewarm about you
       on the inside
       and my heart is still as
       cold as it was

she rides like a mustang and runs just as fast
you can never catch her because she will break
just like all the things made out of glass

her heart is the most fragile part of her frame
and if you touch her she will turn to sand
just like the wind over the dunes

the only thing I saw hiding under my nose

          were your soft lips

I couldn't see you mouth goodbye

you don't take my breath away*
    

              you suffocate me like cigarette smoke to an asthmatic

etching
sketching
watching
catching
finding
reminding
and drawing your name in the sand

you rubbed your face against my shoulder
I felt the bristly hairs of your beard
giggling because it tickled
you smiled as I stole the snapback from your head
you took mine and put it on backwards
I fell into your arms and I still haven't gotten out
please don't smile like an angelic demon
because my heaven is your hell

the excitement I get from your touch
is like static electricity

how did we end up dreamers on different shores
how did we become islands of androgynous memories
with the sand on our poets toes
and the wind in our flushed confused faces

getting a break from the lines on your face and on the paper
from the noise of the city that lost it's inspiration
we get away from tomorrow's mystery
trying to forget the affair we had with yesterday
only dealing with today's starvation of molecular poems

packing our bags for the chemistry we make for each other
finding we only bond well when we are magnetically near the other

keep breathing in poetry
and exhaling unwound emotions
dusting off dreams a gift to the star
praying to the dictionary god
and the rhyming wizard
dreaming for a clearer tomorrow
and a brighter future

my heart wants to come home
            but it is lost in your veins
                    so used to your love map
                          that it cant find any other way
                                         it had the treasure I lost
                                               you gave all the love away

can you hear me
save me
know me again

do you miss me
love me
make it all right

will you kiss me
love me
find me tonight

will we break it
fake it
find a way to make it

we both sleep alone
on our own
in the dark, apart

I wish you goodnight
tonight
in the twilight

I kissed you goodnight
But I didn't know we would ever see
Tomorrow's morning light
Because it was the dark that set you free

gray and gay
black to black
white and tie
purple and pearl
pink on ink
yellow so mellow
green like dream
all lost in the sea

the colour finally found it's love
but she lost it the same day
the red on her cheeks *
the red on her lips ~
the red in her heart <3
was unflushed *
unsmeared ~
and unloved <3

Just anther devilish smile
The kind that fades after while
A cruel joke like a deep cut
They broke my shell like a nut
The names and hands come like knives
Beating on innocent lives
She tried so hard to be brave
But there was no one she could save
A kiss goodbye soon forgotten
That's proves this world is rotten

A fallen bridge over troubled waters
Simple nights with death's daughters
A drowned out cry for light
But it vanished into the nights
****** hands and stained towels
Empty woods and dark hallows
A candle flame put out by ghosts
Evil words raised like a toast
A dreadful plea for the end
But who knows what the day will send

A book of confused emotions
Scratched words and etched notions
Flowers drawn on tear stained paper
Looking for a savior
Reading by the moonlight
Hoping to make it through the night
A prayer to a God above
Mixed with fear and washed out love
Drawn away from what she knows
Where the darkness ever grows
Lost between the shadow lands
Hiding in the palm of his hand
A dark story with darker dreams
Who know what this world means

fishtail braids
sock and sandals
drawn mustaches
left over food
songs on repeat
semi stinky feat
sweatpants and suits
unicorns and cupcakes
phone charger cords
long summer nights

lay down and sleep
sit down and weep
stand up and cry
walk away and die

this was the world's suggestion, they recommended this, they said if you do this you will find you bliss, but I thought there must be more, so I picked another door and this was the reply to my firm knock

ask and it shall be given
knock and it will be opened
seek and you will find

and so asked for love, not from this earth, and it was given unto me, and as I knocked the door opened and it let me in, and as I seek for tomorrow I know I will find, because this voice I trust is more than just a feeling from inside

I am like an alzeimer's patient
you can tell me everyday you love me
but by tomorrow I will forget
I am like an asthma patient
you can kiss me a million times
but I still find it hard to breathe
I am like a epileptic patient
you can hold me for forever
and I will still shake and tremble
I am like a diabetic patient
you can be so sweet to me
by tomorrow I will be in shock
I am like an amputee
you can break my heart
but I will still survive
I am like a cancer patient
you take my insides out
and I will still last a little longer
I am mentally retarted
because no matter how much I love you today
I still believe you say you love me more
two plus two is four
but you plus me is more

beautiful girls all over the world thought my time would be wasted they've got nothing on you baby, nothing on you baby


this plays over and over again in my head
just like the day you sang it to me
I wish it was real but now all I remember
is a beautiful sorrowful memory

I guess she thought it was okay
To let me know her in that way
I think she knew the intent
And the way my heart was spent
How circumstances change a view
And love sometimes clouds your view
The tears fell like water over a sodden face
I never knew that this could take its place
I was told dreams are made of dust from a star
But mine are made of earthly things not quite so far
They brought a dream of the kind type
It wasn't enough though, to bring light
Like a an heir to a throne you left your kingdom
And me behind, to fight the war
A war I could never win alone
But hey that is what soul mates are for
Forget dreams and remember me
Shut the gates and throw away the key
Just love me now, and until tomorrow
We will forget the sorrow
For today is its own and you are mine
And will dance forever even if it is only a short time

My wings caught in the gate
As I left my kingdom
They tore from shoulder to waist
And then they were erased
I lost all grace and charm
I no wings just two weak arms
Tears so cold rolled down my face
And no wings could wipe my face
Never again will I fly
I can never face the sky
For it will taunt me and remind me of my shame
Remembering that day of pain
The day I lost my wings
The day I changed my name
I cannot be an angel
For I have no wings
My halo I lost in the war
And I shall have it no more
My wings are gone
Flown away from me
They tore from my soul
And left me broken; un-whole
I lost my wings
My angelic dreams
I lost my wings
They were more than just things
They showed my power
And my dreams
My kingdom now is desolate
I left it now, I left it
My wings behind my future before me
I left my dreams twixt heaven and earth
Hoping they can find another galaxy
Another way to fly
Than an angel with no wings

the only part of beauty that the world understands
is the kind they can destroy with their hands
the only kind of pretty that they know
is the kind that they choose to let go

I'm so fancy you already know
I'm in rehab from Tuesday to Thursday whoa

Swept out of the womb
Towards a shore of freedom
Eyes hungrily seeking
A brave new world
Pilgrims and pirates set sail
For a land of untold riches
Finding shores of desolate sand
And fields of maize

Mother calls you home
"Come back to me" she cries
The gentle ears of a new country
Ignore the ringing call

Rebuke comes
Followed by armies of red coats
Thirteen fingers reaching
For the freedom within its grasp
Thirteen toes digging
Into soil it wishes so keep

Pain in the chest
And love in the heart
Don't tear this new country apart
England, fair well
Do drop in for tea
But not in Boston
Because the tax isn't free

freedom from sentimental
           S
                 L
                     A
                            V
                     E
             R
     Y

Yoke's of my burden

                     l      i     f       t     e     d

from my shoulders

bills and lotions we're over coating
I'm hurt but I still want you

the point is the tip
    the sharp end that hurts

if I could concentrate
the paper would fill it's self with ink
the pencils would sharpen themselves
and I wouldn't be thinking about you

strawbeery**  
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