Can I ask you
To filter air gently
Through your lungs
Before you release it
Into my mouth
I will devour you one day
We will burn
Like the sun when she finally dies
Big, and bright, and beautiful
You have never felt the cold before
I would not believe ice existed
After I feel
The warmth of your touch
Burn through me
Peeling back my layers
Until we come to center
I’ve got you
Right where I want you
Under my skin
Burrow into my soul
She longs for you
Like a breath of fresh air

I have questions for you
Wondering where you keep
Small fireworks
That jump between our skin
When we are not one

You are not Fourth of July
You are not Christmas
Or birthdays or holiday
You are the first day after a long winter
When I turn my face to the sun
Remembering her warmth
Remembering there is comfort

Keep your name
It is gentle
The way it rolls off my tongue
Soft summer rain on glass
No one will say it like I do
But I will beg them to try

If you knew me once
You will never be lonely again
I am with you
I am part of you
The pieces of you in me
I will keep company
I will speak to them
I will cherish

When our souls danced
It was small magic
Big lights
Burning up the sky
I do not care
That one day
All the stars will fall to the earth
They will not burn as brightly as you and I

I hope
I am not
Perceiving chaos for calmness
Again

We talked about being buried one day
Letting weeping willows grow
From our carcass and ashes
We were summer once
Under the stars
Two bodies terrified of being cold
Pressing themselves into the earth
They will not bury us yet
Though we whisper of our own attempts
We opened our minds under the stars
Our hands intertwined
Constellation thoughts
Milky way minds
I saw you
Though perhaps not as you always appear
The self is a shadow
And you passed across my moon

I am burdened
With a delightful weight
Your expanse covers me
Where I would not be exposed

Like night sky over deep waters
Gentle stars looking past the beyond

I am yoked
Neck and neck
Footsteps in the same direction
Joined as one

Like vines we are intertwined
Until we are buried in the earth

I press both my hands
Against your chest
Pushing you away

I begged for you to stay
I want nothing more

But

I will not part my lips
To ask

If you loved me you would
If you loved

I’m too good for this
I was soft with you
My mistake

I don’t want to be here
To feel this

I don’t want
I only have, to lose
And so I give and I gave
Break myself into little pieces
To fill as much space as possible
In every place I’ve ever been