I miss you, again

Though there is space in between

I always loved my friends best

Held them highest

Like young stars

Against the black of a thousand year old sky

Is this why

We are so low now

Perhaps I should not speak for you

I, am so low now

I pray, winter treats you kind

As, it has robbed me of all my kindness

Each snowflake is different, they say

This one is melting away

Before spring

May spring

Come to you again

There is sweetness
In the honeycomb caverns of my heart

How does one
Unburden the body of sins

Sadness, like hunger
Always returns

The wolf of yesterday
Coming to feast
On today's warm carcass

We
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down
           d
             o
               w
                  n

back to our first beginning

   we were little more than f l i g h t l e s s birds then

so utterly humble
so infamously bleak
so lost in shambles
so unbearably weak

               did you name me then
with paper and ink words

               did you find joy sparking
in the solitude you heard

              are we no longer secrets
              sealed with the stamp of burdens
              we call names
              bringing each other up
              from the depths of ourselves
              that remain unfathomed

              why do you recoil at a certain name

     as if, when you you hear it, you've touched

                             a
                          l    m
      an open  f           e

     as if, when you say it,
     it's the first you've experienced shame

If I cannot write
I think I am broken
How terrible the plight
Of a flightless bird
This is my solemn resolution
Against the quiet of my mind
Where will my anger go now
How will I find peace
My lips unable to soldier on
Without words to mark their feats