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Susan Hunt Apr 2012
I NOW FEEL HATE  (03-01-10)

How can I feel so much hate?
For someone I love so much?
Why do I now hate myself,
for not being someone that isn’t me?
How does she control my fear
by a simple sound in her voice?
Her annoyance with me is complete.
I am cast into a chasm of shame.
How do I disappoint her so easily?
When I’m trying so hard to please her?
How can I fix my bad behavior?
How can I break from this tyranny?
How can I mold myself into what she wants?
What does she desire that I don’t provide?
Again my frustration makes me want to die.
I am sick and tired of asking why.

Why am I pacing back and forth?
Why am I’m gritting my teeth?
Why am I trying to keep the word
“YouF#ckingB%tch” from spitting out of my mouth?
I DON”T CARE ANYMORE
I am standing on the edge of a very steep *****
I am utterly at the end of my rope.
My rope of hope slips through my hands.
I can’t relate, I don’t understand.
She tells me I must let go of the rope.
It’s frayed, like me; I have come to its end.
I am desperate for her to pull me up again
She says my rope of hope is broke.
Then I realize as I fall away
down the cliff to sure unhappiness.
My rope of hope has given way.
I look into her eyes as I tumble down.
From what I see, it’s bad for me
I see the glint; she is holding the knife
She has spliced my rope to humanity.
She was successful.
I now feel hate.
From my gut to my bones,
I tell myself
I will never love again.
Tayana Jorgensen Feb 2015
Monsters

I think the moment you discover that the dark isn't scary, is the moment that you realize monsters live in the light as well. And as you realize that this is all true, you also realize that monsters come in the form of humans too.

You have been raised to fear bears, or sharks, and even the invisible non-existent monsters such as the boogie-man, demons, and vampires. But the most common, most lethal monster that you always seem to forget is yourself.

You walk the streets and roads everyday. You walk in field of flowers and weeds. You rise above others, competing for affection or wealth. You start wars, to cover your own flaws and mistakes. You fights wars go keep up appearances. You laugh at others -and make fun- to appear stronger than them. You make games of others emotions, and you play with their minds, make them bend. You laugh and you poke and you **** at them.

Therere is a moment when you realize that the dark isn't scary, it isn't full of all of the monsters we fear any more than the light is. It doesn't add any weakness to you, it doesn't add any advantages to them.

You will become free, your soul reaches up from the pit of youf humanity, and into the sky. It grabs onto the clouds and brings them down to you. The purest of rain, will fall upon your head. the water will be warm, and it will cleanse the monster from within you.

The rain isn't real, and there isn't a legitamate little monster subsiding inside of you, let's just say our humanity limits you. It takes what you need and puts it before what you want. It's an instinct it can't be helped, but when you realize said thing is a monster is the day that the rain from God will touch your head and there in that moment, you will see that the dark and the light co-exist inside of you, and that's how it was meant to be.

The monster is supposed to be there.

The want to rid is as well.

The fear of it, and what it can do is there too.

And the need, no want, for something more;

Something not mundane,

Something powerful yet gentle,

Strong yet serene.

Beautiful but not vain,

Something timeless, yet childish.

Wise and intelligent.

Old and young.

Something completely...

...not human.

Because humanity is where all monster originate.
jeffrey robin Sep 2014
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Song !

Our life together !

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                                    ( crying because of    Love !! )



You loved him

You think he loved you but he didn't

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So

ALL THE TIME !!

It was YOUR LOVE  made you happy

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Out on the street

Lonely child !

LOVE HIM !



Lonely people

LOVE THEM !



YOUF LOVE  !          YOUR HAPPINESS !

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Really !

Why is every body so insane ?
jeffrey robin Sep 2015
that the whole world
Is ****** up  

& that YOU are ****** up

Just cause you're here

You will be misdirected down some

Lonely road

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We are all here

Yes. ! Look  !

Here we are !




If you got something to say ... (?)

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SPEAK NOW

OR FOREVER HOLD YOUF PEACE

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