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i keep saying im fine
that nothing is going on.
i keep saying forget it
nothing's wrong
but no matter how many times i tell myself thaat im fine,
i cant force myself to believe it.
im an emotional wreck
and nothing in the world
can fix me.
an adopted child
an oldest sister
a daughter
a girlfriend
a monster
what the hell is wrong with me
people keep saying that itll be okay
but its not!
and it never has been..
but hey ill play pretend with you
if you promise not to make me tell
a secret.
ill wear the fake smile
that you gave me
and i wont open my heart to you.
ill just be wasted space.
dont mind the blood
dont mind the tears.
theyre a figment of your imagination.
believe in me
when im gone.
i was the one walkimg down the hallway
living in sleeves.
not talking
unless spoken to.
emotionless.
breathless.
but i wont say a word
ill play pretend
but you gotta play fair.
you wont miss me when im gone.
so dont worry
keep a smile
dont cry.
you are my best friend
but im sure you can find another
im no one special
trust me.
its ok.
dont cry
dont shed a tear.
ill be gone
but i wont dissappear
this isnt goodbye
its just until next time....
until next time