I'm scared
I can feel it in every tremor of my hand
And every whimper and shallow breath from my throat
For the first time in my life
I don't know what to do
My thoughts are useless and they tell me lies
I could scream but it wouldn't matter
I can see you in every tear in my eye
This might mean goodbye
Should I t-tell h-?
Cutting my breath off with a choked sob
This is the first real risk I've taken
And I can't do it
I've always told myself I am fearless
But you are terrifing
And I'm shaking and crying
Not tonight, not tonight
*Tonight. . . tonight. . .

Keep me in the dark,
I dont want to see your true self.
Never mind me asking,
But why did you needed my help?

You called me a princess,
You said i changed your life!
But all this time you were waiting for me to open up to you.
So you could beat your ''wife''.

Sometimes i sit in the dark,
Its the only place my mind can go free
The only place without any burdens
The only place with terrifing memories.

To not be able to come out of the dark,
and just step into the light.
It aint that easy to lower your walls down
and keep my head up with pride

Because what pride would i have left?
When my experiences with men are unpleasent.
If i were to go back
and let him hit me

Again with the bruises,
again with the pain
I cant take it no more,
need morphine to ease my pain

I TRUSTED YOU
you betrayed me
you knocked me to the floor
while swearing it was to save me.