be        au      tifu           lu      ng              ra              teful              talent­e
dd       iff      icult          lo       vi              ng              messy           suppo
 rti       ve     spitef         ul       w             arm            jealous          caring
  cr      az     ychar          m      in              gs               martd           epress
 ing   br    av      et         **     ug            htle             ss     ge          ne
   ro  us     inc     on       sid     er             ate              ad    ap          ta
   ble m     oo       dy      co      m             pass            io      na         te
    stub      bo        rn      af       fe             ctio             na      te         cr
    itica      lp          ra      ct       ic            al  ar            gu     m         en
    tati       ve           w     itt       y            un  pr           ed     ict        ablec
    our      ag            eo    us      to     ­      uc   hy          friendl          yrese
     ntf      ul             he    lp      fu           li      m          patien           tflirty
      sa       rc            as     tic      in          te      re          sting             boastf
      ul       cu           rio    us      in          fle     xi           bl    er          el
      ia        bl            e      cl     ­   in         gy     cre         at     ive        ta
      ct         les         s       **      ne         st     emo        tio     na       ld
      isc         ipl       ine    d        fo         rcefulsex         yse    ns       iti
      ve          su       lle      n        m        od         es        tf        ru      st
      ra            tin   ge         n  thus         ia           st        ic         hy    po
      cr             iticalp          lucky          cl            um     sy        am   usingp
      os             essiv            ecalm         in            g        sn         ide   friendl
       y              pom             pous         ad            ve      nt          ur    ousch      
      ar     ­          ism              atic           br             ok     en          and perfect

To be a Light
Means to draw moths to you
You draw them
and appreciate
each powder and fur

But lights cannot shine forever
So the moths lie in wait
Patiently
Until they can dance in the light
once more.

My friend, my comrade, come with me
صديقي، رفيقي، تأتي معي
sadiqi, rafiqi, tati m

To the seas of green, the land of coconuts
إلى البحار الخضراء، أرض جوز الهند
'iilaa albahhar alkhudara'i, 'ard jawz alhind

grab your arms, proclaim your freedom
انتزاع ذراعيك، وتعلن حريتك
aintizae dharaeik, watuelin huriyatak

Sawdust rains from your wrists
نشارة الخشب المطري من المعصمين
nshart alkhashab almitarii min almuesimin

                                            عليا
صديقي، رفيقي، تأتي معي
إلى البحار الخضراء، أرض جوز الهند
انتزاع ذراعيك، وتعلن حريتك
نشارة الخشب المطري من المعصمين

there was a spider in my bathroom
the kind little girls usually scream over.
and since I never fully grew up, I screamed too, some fears never grow up,only shift their shape.

i went to “him”, my “dad”. he came once.
and that was it.Absence is his habit.

but i think of tati. how he would’ve stopped it all to **** the spider, to see what his little girl is screaming about. how he would’ve joked about it, until i forgot it was there and told me whatever happens, come to him first.

“Tata,  can you please **** the spider in my bathroom?” But he doesn’t hear me. He’s not here. He probably isn’t even thinking of me right now. He’s with his other baby, that doesn’t need to ask twice.

“Tata, please come home.” But he’s still not hearing me, the spider’s getting to me,closing in.
But the spider doesn’t attack me it just scatters away, but was it really the spider I was scared of, or the fact that he wouldn’t come, not even for this, not even for me.