No matter
How many battles
Are waged
Between
My heart and mind
No matter
How many
Thoughts are cut short
And feelings felled
Before they're expressed,
There seems to be
No clear winner,
My mind tries tactics
To block my heart
Rockets
And my heart
Strategizes subliminal
Torpedoes
Of impulses
One step backward
One step forward
Sometimes sideways
The only one moving
On the dance floor
To an internal song
Of conflict
Love and hate
About what I feel
For the likes of you
Never ending war...
APAD13 - 079 © okpoet

I don’t think I’m anyone’s first choice
I never have been
They pick me last in everything
For as long as i remember I’ve been following people in hope they’ll like me

My mind strategizes
My heart screams
There’s blood on the cold floor
When did I end up here?

I’m not anyone’s favorite person
I watch everyone around me instinctively go to their person
I stand here alone in the void
Carefully waiting
The scars on my arm counting the days
They can tell me that they care and I mean a lot to them, but I know they will always choose someone else over me