I figured we’d happen upon a conflict
and figure to grow independently shared
in interdependence, because we seemed
to puzzle, you know? But maybe
                             I start seeing
                      y’re probably a faerie
                the way like gossamer
               the filament image shift
               and how you waved it away
              and I looked to see it
                  wondering.


         you could be writing this, I do believe
            and I cried, just not at present
           definitely later
         it’s strange to probe
          unlock my yearn, mast assuredly
         symbol my consort, in equal means
             and y’re painted in perspective
             and if I don’t shove to make you
                        inside by hopes
                          or desires that crawl
                       responsibilities to fold unto

          There’ll be other answers
        falling apart to the turning
        machines driving, fine tuned
            to rubbage materials
           hoping to find it, silly Mr.
         you fellow humble arrogantor

this isn't really livin'
spiraling out of existence
tryna hold on to whatever could be strong enough
to keep me still for a minute
tired of the tornado
of being tossed around and being unable
to do anything about it because my
life feels out of my control
i don't even notice my descent
till i'm forced upon their normal lives and friends
makes me realize that i've missed so much
and i'm not sure i'll trust anyone ever again
terrified of dying alone because i'm just too damaged
they don't even realize their advantage
if their world comes crashing down
some will be there to handle the wreckage
if i die in my storm i'm lost to this earth
buried in rubbage and choking on words
tears stinging as i accept my fate
once again my everything hurts