and he comes over in the afternoon, his wife is pregnant,
she also had an abortion with the love
of her life... and he says i am diseased...
as i once said to a pensioner
in a park: cut words open and feel
less than a sucker's punch,
dis- (negation) of -ease... yes,
i'm bound to being denied a cradling of ease,
your quick syllable punctures are no wit to be
celebrated...
i thought i gave back enough that was
necessary... but this madman of a neighbour complains
that i sometimes laugh in the night:
because i am bound to tomorrow with aeons
toward the future, and aeons toward
Darwinistic falsification of history...
because where is the octopus ontology ****
up to the wall of intestines like a tapeworm,
as what point, exactly?
i sorta forgive that grievance,
even though i'm sitting in the living room,
and he picks up a package that's been left in my house...
because the high-street has suddenly
evaporated... the rich are making the middletons
claustrophobic too... i could never buy the music
or the books i read these days when skimming the annals
of what's worthy of being bought, with the money i earn.
it submerged, not even an anarchist bookshop
takes my fancy... but this **** of a neighbour comes
by and suggests i could ****** my mother,
the same neighbour who ushers in politics of
gardens... a branch fell onto his side of the fence,
he throws it over to my side and crushes
the daffodils without much thought...
there are homeless people out there,
and he complains that i syringed too much life into
my one chance to be here, to have the audacity to
laugh like a fox, to sometimes hum, and to sometimes
sing aloud...
and he complains that it cost him too much money
from moving from the rear bedroom and into the front
bedroom... oh kiddly pauper, how poor you must be,
to have never had the capacity to laugh on your own.
i listen to these Balkan guys angry at Sweden,
i know the language like a Belgian and still that's not
enough... if national pride really bound to
a religiosity of fish & chips on a Friday, and skinhead
chanting at a football match at a London derby?
should i say: sign me up!?
all he had to do is move room...
he didn't have to sleep rough...
what a swarm of ants in the *** that must be...
because one man managed to laugh...
as it always does: concentrates on women...
i must come from Mongolia to be honest,
how i find English women unappealing in terms of
companionship... the ridicule comes when a people
are unearthed and side with Israel...
as the landowning class for a region bound
to Prussia and the Austro-Hungarian chattering maiden:
Jan Sobieski (now a pop *****) and the siege of
Vienna...
we have so much prejudiced history tattooed
into our psyche, lukewarm 100 year old stuff...
and out-of-the-blue, we're expected to bleach all of it,
somehow accept a dialogue that's merchant talk
and a community clarification...
the same neighbour has the same audacity to claim
i have a medical problem, and that his labouring wife
is the most-endearing hope for company...
i just sat there on the sofa while he blah-blahed
his way into receiving the package...
i could have emerged from my slumber and
faced slander to knuckle with piercing eyes...
but i preferred sleeping for 2 hours on the sofa
while words turned into daggers...
it's just that part of me that suggests...
for my knowledge of the English language,
i have no need to debase myself with crude Englishness,
to invest in post-colonial ambition to right-away-the-elder-wrongs...
you know the first time you wear a cotton jumper
and you just itch? it's like that...
i own language, language has no right to own me,
i tell language what to do, language doesn't tell me who
to identify with or as such identifiable with the thus said...
plus... if someone agitated me over an intellectual
problem i might have emerged hearing slander against me,
but as they say: **** stinks, don't touch it.
i once made brother of en Egyptian childhood friend,
every day since he chose olive skin solidarity
i've been heard citing a very pointless mea culpa,
for i too could have been wiser
in not forming childhood friendships - and being a hermit
for 9 years and counting: i don't ever think
to engage in intimacy, other than with Puerto Rican
prostitutes in Amsterdam, or Bulgarian madames in
London... i don't know why they said they were
Romanians... the one word gave them away:
the cyrillic: pizdets! пиздетс!
if he even remotely insinuated a topic
concerning van gogh (v. gou) -
such is the traffic of life passing through my
days... this the fascination
how greeks gave names to their encoded
sounds... and how it took a plastician to recode
what came as
п (p'eh)- -и (ī)- -з (z'eh)- -д (d'eh)- -е (eh)- -т (t'eh)- -с (esse)...
how fascinating that you cut off so much stabilisation
of the alphabet and no wooing vocabulary
before you do away with stabilising letters that are
associated with clear indicative formulation from
alphabet into word...
which goes beyond Heraclitus' лoгoс
and certainly beyond my фoнoс...
as suggested: back into the aлbion ζ
beginning if not simple begging norman sicily's α...
alphabet - zetayod...
and mirrors - of those worth a seven year signature
to yet be mended... and those pristine,
with focus on the doubly mortal, within
a tsunami of time's paraphrased democracy, wherein
autocratic: from Helen of Troy to Kimberley of the Liban...
how then rise from such belittling circumstances,
and enforce the law of abstract?
to come toward the лoгoс
as with due to spot the фoнoс, and as such
auto-instructive diacritical marking of iota should
Lιban be a Ly-ban.... enter the dragon, Bruce?
yep... we have established the лoгoс,
and chained by synonymous banking affairs for
peacocking tongue waggling, i insist upon a return
into how the Greeks left no musicology to
how they named the symbol ι with iota, or ω with
omega... but the Romans left a musicology
that yahweh embraced, and said of a: ah... and said of
m: em, and said of t: tee... and said of p: ***...
because they didn't come up with names for letters,
which is why scientific constants are written
in γρεχκι (grechkι).
if knowing the native tongue is not enough...
i cannot contemplate the natives teaching my
their ****** practices any more than my eagerness to
engage in them... their presumptuous agitation of
trying to "educate" almost everyone...
it's true a Mongolian arrow pierced the throat
of the trumpeter in the tower of the Mariacki Church,
it's just they treat their women
as i wish i could have... the Dutch know love
by spitting on eastern European women...
(because they just had a conversation about their
interests in a pub with another man two seats down)...
and in our age of propaganda: i have not a single
opinion that isn't bound to be but ash scattered in the wind...
i just find it strange to be in "need" of being educated...
given most of these "men" have never had the guts
to visit prostitutes because the girls are playing puritan poker
at home: and Jezebel at an **** in Malaga...
i can't deal with this en masse schizoid conditioning:
as if lying or having a Dorian Gray fantasy could
ever get me off with a hard-on when a girl says:
can you imagine what my daddy would say if he knew
i swallowed you jizzom? well, now that i know what
you're imagining i'm starting to think i need a shrink...
for ****'s sake! why do prostitutes seem
the most sane women out there? saviours!
i could have done better things with my hands...
like moulded a statue, or something,
dating culture killed it for me...
and the whole: women are there to be chased like
cheetahs crying their eyes out at speeds of 100 kilometres
per hour... it was in my best interests
to learn a knowledge of the language...
that was my utmost necessary courtesy of being
part of this society... local customs though?
you know what a smarkatka is?
you really didn't expect for me to blend up to the point
of supporting Millwall and knowing football songs
religiously, did you? it's when you use the language
and still get ridiculed... the locals have been
given it on a platter... i get a "poem"
they get the ease of buying vegetables in a supermarket...
brownnosing yourself in Kentucky
will not help either...
Calcium Steeps of Dover could be equated to that
Hawaiian Pearl in terms of what hand will wash the hand
that puts a thumb in the **** and the index and middle
into the ******.
