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"outsides" poems
A sea of nettles and nails that scream their injustice at you People who seem like they've shaken off their prickly outsides and their hatred Turning to congratulate them Embrace them Before you find the truth beneath their pillowy covering Nails can be blunted and nettles can be softened but they remain below your surface, Waiting for the right moment to be sharpened and grow back their stings I see your injustice and I raise you my peace It hurts to tear out your nails and to burn off those nettles But oh god does it hurt more to walk your tender, soft body through that forest of pain
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Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 3:36 PM UTC
Injustice
I feel my outsides crack. "Please-" I beg. "I take it back." A set of white teeth glisten. Bad words, mad words, I still listen. With your fingers you paint me purple and blue. Each spot a slightly different hue. Then in front of others I wear a mask. "I'm clumsy" - I tell those who ask. You are all bark- yet you bite. I shiver in fright. You tell me I'm small. What am I to you, a nut? Mr. Nutcracker.
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Mar 31, 2016
Mar 31, 2016 at 3:17 PM UTC
Nutcracker
He strides up to my desk, beaming like I'm the winning lotto ticket he wants to rub off in his truck-- "Well, aren't you as cute as a button." Puke creeps up my throat while his creased eyes clearly try to conjure the image of my naked **** I thought I cleverly disguised by a collared grandma blouse. "Is there anything else I can help you with, sir?" Heart racing from the effort to keep my mouth shut and my cheeks pale, I see other people whisper, widen their eyes at his use of "cutie" and "dearest" while he winks repeatedly-- apparently a Morse code for I'd-do-you-baby. I practically feel the slime slipping down my outsides, but I give him a smile. -because I have to-
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Sep 21, 2015
Sep 21, 2015 at 6:06 PM UTC
Job Market Killed the Feminist Me
Breathe in, breathe out, there, you have just successfully converted oxygen into carbon dioxide, you have been productive, you have done enough today to give the trees a job, like a tired mother, they go around un-doing everything you've worked so hard on, In, out, muscles relaxing, tension releasing, carbon dioxide expelled, diluted by the oxygen, in, out, lungs burning, legs aching, quick, sharp, inoutinoutinout, hands on hips, bent at the waist, a long red ribbon laying broken at your feet, inoutin out in out in out, calming, slowing until it is normal again, in, o-, your breathe catches, heart beating faster, eyes locked, a great love epic in the making, the carbon dioxide sitting in your lungs waiting for you to remember to release it, screaming lungs silenced by a pounding heart, insides so loud, outsides completely silent. OUT, in, out, lungs comforted, heart calmed by the brain, continue walking, normal, in, out, the trees following behind you, fixing all the air you have ruined, and giving it back to you, once again.
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Oct 31, 2012
Oct 31, 2012 at 10:34 AM UTC
Oxygen
Burn your skin. Burn your throat   With a cup of gin,   Don't pretend that you prevent   A red glow searing in.   In your soul no control,   Through the skin and through the vein,   The edge of pain can drown it all,   And gin cuts the pain.   Cold as blade, then searing hot,   The words so soft and nice:   A carefree home, no lighting rod,   Before you struck it twice Burn your soul Because the wounds on the outsides Are unlike the ones on the inside: They will always heal.
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Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 12:25 AM UTC
Burn (revised)
well, I'm a foreign dialect, and musically uninclined, I'm the exoticism fetishized by old white men who want a Greek-Italian- Latina-Persian harem. I am the the voice that doesn't match the body, the long-limbed and quiet. My insides are not my outsides, my tenderness with them won't be afforded to you, not just yet. And I lick the wrapper on every dark chocolate bar, my O-mouth on every milkshake straw, knowing I am being watched
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May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 9:14 PM UTC
me
Only friendship. You made yourself clear - clear as glass - that it could never be more. But as I too am glass, a small shard of me broke off and shattered. And why did it ignite my spirit to be in your presence, to be enfolded in your warmth Why, why did it set my heart aflame, burn me with such flammable, incendiary envy To see you lust after another, to want far beyond friendship with them Why did that melt me I was already committed to another, no matter if it was a dry, barren whisper of once-existing love or a forest of endless rain It was commitment Yet in spite of this, I continued to melt Melting, right down to my core Where I am just sand Vulnerable, exposed, walked-on sand that could, at any second, be picked up by the wind and taken to another pit of uncertainty But you You dropped the empty attempts And you began giving me your time You showed me the naïveté that I am, and you took my hand and led me through a dark room It was cold, and I was afraid And you could not tell me that "everything would be okay" Because this was real, unfiltered life you were motioning to before me And though it was not a fully comfortable realisation, The cold slowly thawed, from the outsides into my core, my sand And as I thawed, as you too made yourself more vulnerable, I at last began to take shape Perhaps I have a calling Beyond this fragile shell I consistently run back to for shelter, return to when it yearns back for my unearthed body to be protected again But I knew better, That when you molt from your armour, Its purpose has been used up, and it is now just an empty shell, and it is time for that shell to be discarded. And now, in my infantile flesh, I trust that you can be my protector until my new shell can learn to harden I am still unsure today if it has solidified, Because I am focused elsewhere Focused on you My heart's every beat feels light at the remembrance of you My mind's every thought a whirlwind From the dissonance of reaching for you and being tempted to go back under the comfort of my old shell, from the knowledge that these two cannot coexist But my soul, my soul is nearing soundness at last Because with you here, I feel that my honest identity is at last coming to life With you here, Your breezes blow, but I do not fear that I will be carried away Your shore arrives, but I do not fear that I am going to wash away Though it was you who dared grind me down to my initial state of innocent sand, You have sculpted me, even with the uselessness that I've felt I am Shown me my potential And made me a flourishing seashore.
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Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 10:39 AM UTC
Sand under a shell.
Only friendship. You made yourself clear - clear as glass - that it could never be more. But as I too am glass, a small shard of me broke off and shattered. And why did it ignite my spirit to be in your presence, to be enfolded in your warmth Why, why did it set my heart aflame, burn me with such flammable, incendiary envy To see you lust after another, to want far beyond friendship with them Why did that melt me I was already committed to another, no matter if it was a dry, barren whisper of once-existing love or a forest of endless rain It was commitment Yet in spite of this, I continued to melt Melting, right down to my core Where I am just sand Vulnerable, exposed, walked-on sand that could, at any second, be picked up by the wind and taken to another pit of uncertainty But you You dropped the empty attempts And you began giving me your time You showed me the naïveté that I am, and you took my hand and led me through a dark room It was cold, and I was afraid And you could not tell me that "everything would be okay" Because this was real, unfiltered life you were motioning to before me And though it was not a fully comfortable realisation, The cold slowly thawed, from the outsides into my core, my sand And as I thawed, as you too made yourself more vulnerable, I at last began to take shape Perhaps I have a calling Beyond this fragile shell I consistently run back to for shelter, return to when it yearns back for my unearthed body to be protected again But I knew better, That when you molt from your armour, Its purpose has been used up, and it is now just an empty shell, and it is time for that shell to be discarded. And now, in my infantile flesh, I trust that you can be my protector until my new shell can learn to harden I am still unsure today if it has solidified, Because I am focused elsewhere Focused on you My heart's every beat feels light at the remembrance of you My mind's every thought a whirlwind From the dissonance of reaching for you and being tempted to go back under the comfort of my old shell, from the knowledge that these two cannot coexist But my soul, my soul is nearing soundness at last Because with you here, I feel that my honest identity is at last coming to life With you here, Your breezes blow, but I do not fear that I will be carried away Your shore arrives, but I do not fear that I am going to wash away Though it was you who dared grind me down to my initial state of innocent sand, You have sculpted me, even with the uselessness that I've felt I am Shown me my potential And made me a flourishing seashore.
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There was a certain comfort in the time I spent Sitting against a wall outside in the cold They don’t tell you what its like to freeze to death But here’s what wishing you would is like The trees sway with another chilling breeze There’s a little stinging pain in my toes Its been about 20 minutes out here My feet are the only things cold I'm thinking Way too much about how the frost feels My hands become red a little icy itch not quite numbing my fingers Another 20 minutes go by and I can feel the cold travel I have no intention of leaving I don’t want to Maybe i’ll stay all night An hour in my feet are cold on the outsides My ankle is freezing I adjust my earbud and look up to the sky My breath can be seen in the air I think about my mother finding my body Bitten blue with winter 2 hours in and my feet are starting to ache Its an interesting feeling Almost like I’ve broken a bone but can’t quite feel it I don’t want to be here anymore Not outside, id love to stay in the icy air all night But here, in front of my so called home Filled with my so-called family I’d like to be staying somewhere else Somewhere where they aren’t Somewhere where the people who care about me Are all far far away And if I die, they know in a few days Not right away If I’m sick they’ll send a gift card And call so many times I’ll have to turn off the phone So maybe I’ll just sit here And let nature have its way with me Because I'm not ready to go back in And live in a “family”
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Apr 26, 2022
Apr 26, 2022 at 12:46 PM UTC
A Certain Chilling Feeling
There was a certain comfort in the time I spent Sitting against a wall outside in the cold They don’t tell you what its like to freeze to death But here’s what wishing you would is like The trees sway with another chilling breeze There’s a little stinging pain in my toes Its been about 20 minutes out here My feet are the only things cold I'm thinking Way too much about how the frost feels My hands become red a little icy itch not quite numbing my fingers Another 20 minutes go by and I can feel the cold travel I have no intention of leaving I don’t want to Maybe i’ll stay all night An hour in my feet are cold on the outsides My ankle is freezing I adjust my earbud and look up to the sky My breath can be seen in the air I think about my mother finding my body Bitten blue with winter 2 hours in and my feet are starting to ache Its an interesting feeling Almost like I’ve broken a bone but can’t quite feel it I don’t want to be here anymore Not outside, id love to stay in the icy air all night But here, in front of my so called home Filled with my so-called family I’d like to be staying somewhere else Somewhere where they aren’t Somewhere where the people who care about me Are all far far away And if I die, they know in a few days Not right away If I’m sick they’ll send a gift card And call so many times I’ll have to turn off the phone So maybe I’ll just sit here And let nature have its way with me Because I'm not ready to go back in And live in a “family”
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You asked me to write a poem that killed all the parts of you that make you love yourself less. But darling, I don't know if anyone's told you: The things that make you afraid to show yourself make me love you all the more. And you may talk about how much you hate the bumps and ridges splashed across your skin, but you also talk about how much you love the mountains in Colorado. Do you think that the earth has ever cared that it has drier parts or areas with a little more texture? Do you think that Nature ever wanted to cover up the parts of her that weren't perfectly smooth? If the water stayed still, and never rose or fell the oceans wouldnt be quite so breathtaking because waves would never crash. And you might think you're covered in tsunamis, disaster zones left in the debris of your disease, but don't ever tell me that a home in that aftermath isn't still a home. Because with or without the water damage, the part that makes it important is the things on the inside— and no, I'm not referring to things in a home anymore. Now I mean your heart, now I mean your passions and your past and ever single word written in the story of you. So darling, you might tell me that you hate the bumps on your skin, but there is something amazing spelled out in Braille written on just the outside cover of one of the greatest stories I will ever know. The thing about Braille like yours is that it can open the eyes of a blind man without even needing any magic. And the thing about book covers is that you'll never really know how much you love a book based on the words on the outsides of it. But darling. I need you know know I've read you cover to cover and I absolutely think your story is one of the most beautiful ones I know. With or without the tsunamis or Braille.
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Feb 15, 2014
Feb 15, 2014 at 11:15 AM UTC
Psoriasis
You asked me to write a poem that killed all the parts of you that make you love yourself less. But darling, I don't know if anyone's told you: The things that make you afraid to show yourself make me love you all the more. And you may talk about how much you hate the bumps and ridges splashed across your skin, but you also talk about how much you love the mountains in Colorado. Do you think that the earth has ever cared that it has drier parts or areas with a little more texture? Do you think that Nature ever wanted to cover up the parts of her that weren't perfectly smooth? If the water stayed still, and never rose or fell the oceans wouldnt be quite so breathtaking because waves would never crash. And you might think you're covered in tsunamis, disaster zones left in the debris of your disease, but don't ever tell me that a home in that aftermath isn't still a home. Because with or without the water damage, the part that makes it important is the things on the inside— and no, I'm not referring to things in a home anymore. Now I mean your heart, now I mean your passions and your past and ever single word written in the story of you. So darling, you might tell me that you hate the bumps on your skin, but there is something amazing spelled out in Braille written on just the outside cover of one of the greatest stories I will ever know. The thing about Braille like yours is that it can open the eyes of a blind man without even needing any magic. And the thing about book covers is that you'll never really know how much you love a book based on the words on the outsides of it. But darling. I need you know know I've read you cover to cover and I absolutely think your story is one of the most beautiful ones I know. With or without the tsunamis or Braille.
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let's take a moment to peel back our skins, and open up our muscles and crack our bones, and see if our insides are as ****** up as our outsides.
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Sep 23, 2013
Sep 23, 2013 at 5:29 PM UTC
****** up
***** feet ***** of them ache they're dry all dried out, moisture to face and digestive tract make little difference but comfort a little sort of; maybe subdue to replenishing skip the pain with a drink fucken, fucken drink fucken dust lingers in the brain, it swirls a cloud of ground envelops the shape of u u become covered u have a layer, salty, and dry and 'organic' (surely bio (though im not sure what is or why are)) full city boy, suburban boy, not particularly gritty boy along side hippies and volunteers all tripppy and unwashed, and un plastic yet forcefully hemped drunk of micro beer and burnt brown and blotchy red and wire-y and dry and matted as if nothing really matters except for principles misguided and randomly enforced feel like a husk; peanut shell insides swallowed by the mouth of the party embodied a monsterous sweaty man tanned and thickly bearded and beered fat dreads fall around and surround u; a forest of hair a circle encroaching of fuzzy pillars in fibres entrapped inside them; feel their lingering time matted hold a wealth of effort to become unkempt; they are bars they are walls and the FACE! ………………………   ………………………………… oh looming down, wafts of armpit vapour cloud; a looming puft that surrounds engorged by the scent as it circles u, the mouth that lowered onto u chews u and spills bits of u chomp chomp protein for vegetarians; u; ur rigour ur vigour ur guts    eaten in a flurry of chomps and slurps and it crunches and it grates like the rocks on the ***** of ur feet it grates u are digested and reused as they would like but for them; for a collective u dived into for fun 2 days to peddle ur wares to progress ( admittedly through some days of regression…) for all humans, and Humans; for fun on monday we will repent for the damages waged on the inside of the body and the outsides too for some gain i guess on this which we settle for always for display for fun
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Mar 12, 2013
Mar 12, 2013 at 2:10 AM UTC
festivals
***** feet ***** of them ache they're dry all dried out, moisture to face and digestive tract make little difference but comfort a little sort of; maybe subdue to replenishing skip the pain with a drink fucken, fucken drink fucken dust lingers in the brain, it swirls a cloud of ground envelops the shape of u u become covered u have a layer, salty, and dry and 'organic' (surely bio (though im not sure what is or why are)) full city boy, suburban boy, not particularly gritty boy along side hippies and volunteers all tripppy and unwashed, and un plastic yet forcefully hemped drunk of micro beer and burnt brown and blotchy red and wire-y and dry and matted as if nothing really matters except for principles misguided and randomly enforced feel like a husk; peanut shell insides swallowed by the mouth of the party embodied a monsterous sweaty man tanned and thickly bearded and beered fat dreads fall around and surround u; a forest of hair a circle encroaching of fuzzy pillars in fibres entrapped inside them; feel their lingering time matted hold a wealth of effort to become unkempt; they are bars they are walls and the FACE! ………………………   ………………………………… oh looming down, wafts of armpit vapour cloud; a looming puft that surrounds engorged by the scent as it circles u, the mouth that lowered onto u chews u and spills bits of u chomp chomp protein for vegetarians; u; ur rigour ur vigour ur guts    eaten in a flurry of chomps and slurps and it crunches and it grates like the rocks on the ***** of ur feet it grates u are digested and reused as they would like but for them; for a collective u dived into for fun 2 days to peddle ur wares to progress ( admittedly through some days of regression…) for all humans, and Humans; for fun on monday we will repent for the damages waged on the inside of the body and the outsides too for some gain i guess on this which we settle for always for display for fun
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Ever since my early days of youth I've been questioning All the hidden secrets of life And exactly what it means So imagine my excitement When I climbed the mountain top And asked the man of wisdom Just what it is he thought Where he said... Life is like a toaster With people dropping in and popping out Some may stay in the heat of life for too long And find themselves burned out Life is like a toaster If you're kept down long enough The heat that's applied to your outsides Only strengthens your inner crust Life is like a toaster Some people are shiny on the outside But lift them up and what you see Are the crumbs they leave behind After all these years of searching I climbed high enough to learn the truth With the meaning of life now by my side I knew just what I had to do I went straight back home to my people The ones that I could help the most I started at the local breakfast diner Where I ordered up some toast
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Nov 23, 2013
Nov 23, 2013 at 9:22 PM UTC
Life Is Like A Toaster
Why does my heart still race when I see you? I saw you walking today, with your friend, and all I could think was "Wow. Is this what a heart attack feels like?" Because I can't believe it, I was done. I was OVER you. And instead my heart goes "Beep... Beep... Beep. Beep. Beep. BEEP. BEEP. BEEPBEEEPBEEEPBEEEPBEEEP," every single time you come around, like a freakin radar. I am not a submarine. I do not NEED for every single cell in my body to alert me when you're within 20 feet of me because, like I said before, I WAS DONE. No! Don't you dare smile at me with your crooked mouth and shining eyes. Because then I feel gross. I DON'T LIKE THE THOUGHT OF BUTTERFLIES FLYING AROUND IN MY STOMACH. That is disturbing and physically impossible. My stomach acids would've killed them on contact. Don't try to make this crush cute. So please, for the love of a Jesus Christ Super Toaster, don't do THAT anymore. And by "THAT" I mean, don't make me love you anymore. I can't stand it and I won't for any longer. In church I was taught that having idols was bad, but that's exactly what you are to me. A forbidden fruit So I am praying to God that you are a mango because I hate mangos. Their insides are too thick and outsides way too thin. Which is exactly like you because you are a haywire of emotions, but I can easily peel you away to see who you really are. Maybe I do like mangos...
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May 23, 2013
May 23, 2013 at 11:52 PM UTC
I wish you were a mango
My List of inspirations: The sun that shines on me it rises and sets creating inspiring colors of the unknown. The flowers that grow, bloom, share joy, and sadly die away. The Birds that sing, and fly in the wide open sky making people want to sit and enjoy the outsides. Music that surrounds me with joy beyond belief and picks me up whenever I pick up my guitar. Stories and Books written so descriptively the variety is never ending. Horses and when they graze such a calming soft sound and when Horses whinny when they see you and push up against you as if to say,"Oh, it's nice to see you again" People and their strange ways, looks, and personalities, no one is exactly the same an inspiration for sure. Family and Friends and their love for you standing next to you even if the world isn't. The ocean with it's waves and foreign creatures so much more than land and so much more unique. Dolphins and their kind eyes and playful ways twirling out of the water making their exotic language. Mantarays and Sting rays and the graceful flow in the other ocean creatures. Beaches and the sand so smooth getting everywhere it's in your hair, food, and all over your towel. Summer even though it is short it is beautiful and lively. Warm air and soft breeze. Leaves, fall and summer they are still beautiful with their colors. Learning, history has our success and our mistakes and people who are important. Art, beauty in the eye of the beholder. The artist has the paintbrush the creativeness creates strokes. Wisdom, it is whatever you believe it to be. Wisdom comes in many shapes, sizes, and ages. Peace, one thing the world has not held on to...yet. Love, when there is love in the air all is well. Love is expressed in many different ways. Imagination, Dreams, and Creativeness a land that is yet to be discovered more. Teachers, they something more than just school work. They teach you how to survive life. Poets on this site, I have learned so much from all of you. Smiling and all who dare to share this joy! The most contagious thing known to humans! This List will be ongoing and I will write something more when I find more inspirations.
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Apr 16, 2010
Apr 16, 2010 at 7:56 AM UTC
My list of Inspirations
My List of inspirations: The sun that shines on me it rises and sets creating inspiring colors of the unknown. The flowers that grow, bloom, share joy, and sadly die away. The Birds that sing, and fly in the wide open sky making people want to sit and enjoy the outsides. Music that surrounds me with joy beyond belief and picks me up whenever I pick up my guitar. Stories and Books written so descriptively the variety is never ending. Horses and when they graze such a calming soft sound and when Horses whinny when they see you and push up against you as if to say,"Oh, it's nice to see you again" People and their strange ways, looks, and personalities, no one is exactly the same an inspiration for sure. Family and Friends and their love for you standing next to you even if the world isn't. The ocean with it's waves and foreign creatures so much more than land and so much more unique. Dolphins and their kind eyes and playful ways twirling out of the water making their exotic language. Mantarays and Sting rays and the graceful flow in the other ocean creatures. Beaches and the sand so smooth getting everywhere it's in your hair, food, and all over your towel. Summer even though it is short it is beautiful and lively. Warm air and soft breeze. Leaves, fall and summer they are still beautiful with their colors. Learning, history has our success and our mistakes and people who are important. Art, beauty in the eye of the beholder. The artist has the paintbrush the creativeness creates strokes. Wisdom, it is whatever you believe it to be. Wisdom comes in many shapes, sizes, and ages. Peace, one thing the world has not held on to...yet. Love, when there is love in the air all is well. Love is expressed in many different ways. Imagination, Dreams, and Creativeness a land that is yet to be discovered more. Teachers, they something more than just school work. They teach you how to survive life. Poets on this site, I have learned so much from all of you. Smiling and all who dare to share this joy! The most contagious thing known to humans! This List will be ongoing and I will write something more when I find more inspirations.
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There's a lot of ugliness in this world. In these four walls alone there's enough to talk about for hours. Everything can turn ugly when you look at it for too long. I started hearing voices in my head tonight. I know it's not me this time because I didn't know what they were going to say next, and I usually do. I'm so scared because each day everything gets more terrible and people become less beautiful than I believed they were. I'm so sick of telling the people I love that everything is going to be okay and I'm even more exhausted of them telling me the same thing. Because we don't really know do we? The demons that arrive tomorrow could make today's seem like a dream. I've seen it, lived it even. I've thought that I could never feel so terrible as I did in that moment and then get proven wrong later on. The worst is, I know what I've been through is not the ultimate worst. I know there will be so many awful times ahead and I can't fathom how I will be able to deal with them. We lose people we love all the time, people move on and don't need you anymore. Sometimes you still need them and that is the most difficult thing to understand. How someone can walk past you, past all your memories and all the love you gave them, are still willing to give, and carry on walking without a second glance. But you will grow out of people too. People that you swore you needed so terribly they were oxygen to you. And it's difficult to know what you stand for and what you believe in at 17. Everything is always changing and nothing is ever permanent. This ugly, ugly world is filled with lies and hurt and darkness. But there are so many lovely things that you have to look for. It's so easy to see the bad but you've made it seventeen years in this place and there are so many beautiful places and people to meet. And sometimes they will turn ugly over time and that just means you have to look for the next beautiful thing. We all need help, some a little more than others. You have to try to not be sorry for being here and only apologize when you hurt someone. You don't always have to be sorry for making the decisions you want to make, you are so beautiful and filled with kindness and love. It truly breaks my heart to see you tear yourself up and see the way you look at yourself. And nobody can make you believe that you are beautiful but you have to understand that you are. And I mean your mind and your heart as well as your outsides. You have to stick around, you have to stay okay? It's difficult and extremely scary but it's going to be worth it. Yes, the hurt that is coming in the future is inevitable. But it's worth it for all the love and wonderful memories and the adventures waiting for you. You are going to be okay. Everything isn't going to be okay, it never will be. But I love you and you can do it okay?
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Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 4:02 PM UTC
Dear 17 year old me
There's a lot of ugliness in this world. In these four walls alone there's enough to talk about for hours. Everything can turn ugly when you look at it for too long. I started hearing voices in my head tonight. I know it's not me this time because I didn't know what they were going to say next, and I usually do. I'm so scared because each day everything gets more terrible and people become less beautiful than I believed they were. I'm so sick of telling the people I love that everything is going to be okay and I'm even more exhausted of them telling me the same thing. Because we don't really know do we? The demons that arrive tomorrow could make today's seem like a dream. I've seen it, lived it even. I've thought that I could never feel so terrible as I did in that moment and then get proven wrong later on. The worst is, I know what I've been through is not the ultimate worst. I know there will be so many awful times ahead and I can't fathom how I will be able to deal with them. We lose people we love all the time, people move on and don't need you anymore. Sometimes you still need them and that is the most difficult thing to understand. How someone can walk past you, past all your memories and all the love you gave them, are still willing to give, and carry on walking without a second glance. But you will grow out of people too. People that you swore you needed so terribly they were oxygen to you. And it's difficult to know what you stand for and what you believe in at 17. Everything is always changing and nothing is ever permanent. This ugly, ugly world is filled with lies and hurt and darkness. But there are so many lovely things that you have to look for. It's so easy to see the bad but you've made it seventeen years in this place and there are so many beautiful places and people to meet. And sometimes they will turn ugly over time and that just means you have to look for the next beautiful thing. We all need help, some a little more than others. You have to try to not be sorry for being here and only apologize when you hurt someone. You don't always have to be sorry for making the decisions you want to make, you are so beautiful and filled with kindness and love. It truly breaks my heart to see you tear yourself up and see the way you look at yourself. And nobody can make you believe that you are beautiful but you have to understand that you are. And I mean your mind and your heart as well as your outsides. You have to stick around, you have to stay okay? It's difficult and extremely scary but it's going to be worth it. Yes, the hurt that is coming in the future is inevitable. But it's worth it for all the love and wonderful memories and the adventures waiting for you. You are going to be okay. Everything isn't going to be okay, it never will be. But I love you and you can do it okay?
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i don't know if my outsides are cold or inside. this heart always shivers when it hears a name. i am a body which never felt warmth i am someone who controls their wrath. i see the enemy with the coward's heart on their cloth even when i am cold every battle is meant to be fought.
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Nov 28, 2014
Nov 28, 2014 at 11:52 AM UTC
cold
aristotle and plato were convinced that the circle was the heavenliest shape in all of creation. it was eternal. but, see, the ellipse is that much better. the oval is the imperfect circle, the imperfect shape that instead of having one heart has two, the sound of an open mouth as you gasp, the shape of fingerprint bruises. the earth moves in an ellipse. all of the planets do. as we spin around the sun, you and i are planets. no wonder when i see you from afar, i can't breathe; we're just in space. you are neptune. you are deep blue and stormy sea clouds that look like sweat and work, but you are mysterious and beautiful and so far away. when you are neptune, i am uranus, being pulled by the way you move. sometimes i am saturn. i am swollen with the dust and dirt that make up my outsides. when i am saturn, you are jupiter: a friend who is bigger than i am. we're space stations and metal, too cold to touch until we get hot from the movement of each other. we're satellites and moons and space-time fabric. aristotle and plato were convinced that the circle was the heavenliest shape in all of creation. i think that they're so wrong. the shape of your hips, your words, your kindness, your taste, your mouth, your body, your creativity, your sweetness all end up tasting like eternity and heaven. my heart beats in circles sometimes. but, when i look at you, my heart beats like you and i and ovals.
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Feb 14, 2013
Feb 14, 2013 at 2:38 PM UTC
planetary motions in love
28 strings hanging from above, teetering and creaking with each of my steps. The wood below feels as if sand seeps into my skin, making the next heavier, and heavier. When did the world decide to become so clever? The marionette is unnamed although the disease is written clearly across the fogged bathroom mirror. I avert my eyes from the truth as though I could never decipher. A slap to the face and a fluid ounce of love is all it took, two floating hands to fix my gaze upon all I could, my own life book. I suddenly could hear the willows whipping and dripping wet in the rain outside the brook, I was no longer deaf to the pain I caused and took. The mental games we play are never far from the outsides the lines of our life's coloring book. Climb to the tallest line of the page with your grappling hook. It only takes one outside and unbiased look and the keys to the castle are unhooked.
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Mar 6, 2017
Mar 6, 2017 at 3:34 PM UTC
The Marionette Master
I wanna spin aroun Until I die See The Sky From the ground up high Live Breathe Die With all that stains my insides Revolts turns Wuntil They are Outsides Live breathe die
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Mar 21, 2010
Mar 21, 2010 at 8:25 AM UTC
Lipstick Lullabies
Hearts made of glass Fragile Bright Translucent Small enough to hold in the palm of our hands The glass is expensive Irreplaceable in fact Each type of heart is crafted Each in different shapes Sizes Curves Carefully crafted and molded From two other glass hearts That became one It is given to us As gifts The twinkle in our eyes Glows as we receive ours The glass hearts react To many different feelings In sadness it takes the coating Of your tears And when it fades it hardens And becomes stronger When anger hits it The glass heart will melt Unable to take the heat In happiness it will twinkle Allowing it to shine through The eyes of others But as we grow older We begin to learn How we care for our hearts Some of us are careful Holding our hearts dearly Cherishing it So that it can be Seen by all Reachable by all Available to view and to see The insides and the outsides Some of us are careless Recklessly lending it to others Throwing it Shaking it Using it for the wrong purposes Until one day it breaks And it needs to be fixed The glass is fixable but It never quite returns to its former translucence The saddest of all though is when We pretend it doesn't exist It's when the glass heart fogs up Not allowing others to see inside The twinkle once there disappears Replaced with something solid The curves still there The size still there But in actuality what made something there Is gone It stays that way Until one day It shatters And cannot be repaired The gift of the glass heart Must be remembered It is fragile Which makes caring for it hard And though we can hate it for its fragility We love it because of its translucent beauty We love it because it makes the eyes on others smile and well as ourselves We love it because it's us And it's us that should never be clouded
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Jul 2, 2013
Jul 2, 2013 at 11:51 PM UTC
The Glass Hearts
Hearts made of glass Fragile Bright Translucent Small enough to hold in the palm of our hands The glass is expensive Irreplaceable in fact Each type of heart is crafted Each in different shapes Sizes Curves Carefully crafted and molded From two other glass hearts That became one It is given to us As gifts The twinkle in our eyes Glows as we receive ours The glass hearts react To many different feelings In sadness it takes the coating Of your tears And when it fades it hardens And becomes stronger When anger hits it The glass heart will melt Unable to take the heat In happiness it will twinkle Allowing it to shine through The eyes of others But as we grow older We begin to learn How we care for our hearts Some of us are careful Holding our hearts dearly Cherishing it So that it can be Seen by all Reachable by all Available to view and to see The insides and the outsides Some of us are careless Recklessly lending it to others Throwing it Shaking it Using it for the wrong purposes Until one day it breaks And it needs to be fixed The glass is fixable but It never quite returns to its former translucence The saddest of all though is when We pretend it doesn't exist It's when the glass heart fogs up Not allowing others to see inside The twinkle once there disappears Replaced with something solid The curves still there The size still there But in actuality what made something there Is gone It stays that way Until one day It shatters And cannot be repaired The gift of the glass heart Must be remembered It is fragile Which makes caring for it hard And though we can hate it for its fragility We love it because of its translucent beauty We love it because it makes the eyes on others smile and well as ourselves We love it because it's us And it's us that should never be clouded
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Once again, I am not only alive; But newborn-alive. Antoine de-Saint Exupery tried to tell us That besides having the solution to every riddle, Snakes can also teach us That we have always been the better creatures For we shed our insides, The only touchable things our souls produce; Instead of our outsides, And they come out of our only way in To another soul, And everytime they do, We run after our breaths Like the first time we learned We actually need it. We will really always meet ourselves here, In this middle darkness where we first saw light And made that womb-to-tomb pact of companionship With what we came with to this world, The same thing we'd leave with Or leave because of, And leave behind to cause a whole lot more Shedding of insides When we finally go the only way, Which, all along, Is back...
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Oct 26, 2013
Oct 26, 2013 at 12:07 PM UTC
Boomerang
I like his voice, his laugh, the bravery that he unintentionally coaxes out of me. I like the shape of his mouth and the softness of his lips. I like the way that he walks; hands in his pockets and facing the floor. I like the length of his eyelashes and the freckle on his ear that I once mistook for a piercing. He is beautiful, so beautiful. But the words that tumble from him are twisted and cruel, He is not soft and golden like the hairs on the back of his neck that my fingertips know all too well. The butterflies in my stomach are trapped bats which tear up my insides when he smiles at me. I crave his outsides, as he craves mine. He filled a gap, and now it is time for him to leave.
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Jun 8, 2013
Jun 8, 2013 at 1:27 PM UTC
Lies
I taught her how to handle a Pellet gun tonight. Now her eye is black from the Scope, her fake fingernails chipped From loading, And the pine tree nearly stripped from Cones outside my Livingroom window, where our Jägermeister Cups made little rings on my Brother's Longfellow hardback Copy. The night sky is bright blue this Time of year in Norway. Sun never really sets. I looked up at the brightests spots Beyond the moon, as she took aim And fired with a subtle Psstkh. "So close," she whispered at the Unwounded summer evening, And I smelled her lavender hair And all the warm outsides As I thought of satellites and Discoveries, and how moments Such as this one would Always matter More.
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Jul 17, 2015
Jul 17, 2015 at 5:52 PM UTC
Watching Pluto
sometimes i feel like a citrus lemon, orange, lime, or grapefruit fragrant and flavorful my insides bitter or sweet and my outsides the exact opposite high quantities of acid regardless eat me raw press my juice, i make a great 'ade you may also preserve me in a marmalade sometimes i feel like an apple do not call me a crab tho a globose pome my outside has smooth shiny skin my inside is sweet or **** yet soft my centre contains seeds arranged in a star-like manner i make great pies but i also pair great with cheese my versatility allows me to please sometimes i feel like grape growing from the woody vines my flexibility is far and wide raisins, vinegar, oil, and wines i prefer to remain in a cluster of friends im afraid to venture out because i need them to sustain sometimes i feel like anything other than me i am tired of looking in the mirror i have grown weary of what i see so i pick flora and fauna inanimate objects weather and time space and place to rectify my existence in some way that i can relate at least when i list fruit my belly aches with delight
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Apr 12, 2013
Apr 12, 2013 at 3:37 PM UTC
tooty fruity
I am like a plane I read somewhere or heard somewhere I think on NPR about what it's like to see the world! from a plane window. Imagining is having the sights before you! from a plane window. The clouds and the blue blue blue It's the atmosphere. Dear God! You're actually flying Except you're in a whites only plane. Oh! If only it could be bottled and given to the masses Ms. Marlowe introduced me to Prometheus. To search for a way to have what you imagine in yr dreams and in books and hopes to be before you is a ropebridge. It only snaps in the movies baby! If you're any different and it snaps for you, you got death. Which is what you wanted all along, no? When I was a child my mind was ratchet like a plane in turbulence it is rickety the space between Trinidad and Tobago makes me readjust my insides and outsides Climbing Climbing he shakes and flatlines He becomes a hero he knew all along Modern Medicine can make freed slaves become the mothers and fathers of the rice cripsies
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Dec 8, 2011
Dec 8, 2011 at 5:14 PM UTC
Turbulence