I kiss you in your dreams
& you don't feel a thing,
it's painless for you
& a nitemare for me,
this thing called loneliness.

Woke up ,my heart beats rapidily .
My eyes casing my surroundings.
     Unsure of my location I sit in a state of  disalusion ,but just for a brief moment or two ,then I come to, to reality And now Im aware of me just awaken from having a nightmare. Now hesitatent of going back to sleep so I lay awake . And in the morning when I rise the memory of what I dreamnt last night is vague and dense but the feeling  remains strong. Nightmares real enough to scare the hell out of you.

Our President assassinated
Beale Airforce base obliterated
This was the main radar station for western
States United
A plague released
Not from nature
It was engineered
and developed
Star force a joke?
It was designed to keep our
Satellites protected.
Yet computer viruse pulled
Them from orbits projected
Now leaderless no communication
I could here jets and bombs go off
At the nearest military installation
Water shut off
Electricity gone
The cities began to devour themselves
No need for a bomb
I hoped my daughter could get home
Just to be safe with me and mom
I had a gun.
Would I use it?
To protect my family
I would save them and not
Lose it
Locals begin to cannibalize other houses and
Resources
when you only have one gun
You learn to hide and use gorilla warfare
Courses
We managed many did not
We wander a bit to keep our enemies
From finding us out.
Boy I wish I hadn't been naive
I would **** for fresh water
And a bit of cheese
We have become like RATS

What do think of baby
when you sleep alone,
when you toss and you turn,
when you end up fetal
in a stack of crumbled sheets?

Are you thinking of me,
are you going to places
deep in your sensuous mind,
are you riding me
in a fantasy world?

And do you feel me honey,
do you ******* breath
& do you get fulfilled?
Or are you,
are you having
just another nitemare
called loneliness?

Im going home, it's all I can do.
You took me away from there.
I'm walking away from you.
From this God awful nitemare.
From your anger & lack of Gratitude.
From your constant criticizing stare.
From your condescending attitude.
From every head game you play.
From your constant ridicule.
From every hurtful thing you say.
This was never mutually beneficial.
Your idea of love brought me so low.
What did I ever think  was so special?
So, I'm walking home alone, I gotta go.