after that it started to rain.
So I left my window open at night
to wait
every night: because
how well I knew you when you mumured
under the veil fog
and slid into my bed, after
I would fall asleep

when I closed my eyes and the cold dark came through
to fill my room
I asked you to come back.
in my little voice I saved up words
for you,
and waited

the drops were very quiet invasions into my head
but they screamed
so loud, that,
they weren't you
they weren't you
laughing, of course you hadn't
left me alone
as you promised, you never would.
they were screams
the sick made me I was sick and pale
moments
to rise too fast, and
fall -
that was when I lost the grids laid out in my head
and was inbetween and
I knew where you were, and I knew where I
wasn't

- love
I haven't heard from you in weeks now
and your birthday is past
I just want to say happy birthday
this suspension is stretching out my fingers
I can't cry tears
anymore, so
blood has begun to run down my face.

the stars at night are burning you bright
sentences
into my face
I can't
get them
away
from my
face

I miss you
are stupid words
to say in the dark