At this point i want to be hit by a bus, i want to be hit by those terrible diseases that make you lose your mind and i mean literally lose your mind!
I want to forget you. How you look, what you do, how you smell,  all i know is that i must forget you!

It seems amnesia is my only solution because if i hear one more song that reminds me of you, i swear i will go but **** crazy!  You've ruined chocolate for me and now the sight of it makes me want to rip out your poor pathetic heart! trust me i will!

I cant stand the sight of happy people or things because they just remind me of what we were! you have turned me into a cynical psychotic *****! so if i remember one more thing about you, i will turn 50 shades of Leilah on you!

I am only afraid of three things in this world, God, The Russians and Jail! seeing that am ready to turn ****** ****** on your ***, pray i get amnesia!

Why am I here? I ask myself constantly
All of this superficiality is slowly consuming me
Caught up in the hair and the nails,
But blind to the fact that that is a living hell
They sit back and they laugh at something on their Iphones
But I simply sit back and watch and stay in my android zone.
 So why am I here? I ask myself once more
As I watch them walk into a very expensive store
Knowing that I don't wear Gucci and Calvin Klein
I sit back to myself with my own humble mind
Why am I here? I ask myself while I'm sitting alone
I don't even really know, so I guess I'll go home

                                  ~Leilah E. Isaacs

"hi!! how are you guys today?"
i turned towards my friends, leilah and lillie

my momma always tells me to "let them go" but i dont understand.
the doctors say its a way for me to cope, but i dont know what theyre talking about.

my momma always jokes around and tells me that leilah and lillie are dead, but i dont think it's a very good joke. she also says that i need to "own up" and "stop pretending" but i dont get the punchline.

everyone tells me that im the one that killed them, and i should stop acting like they're still here but i just dont get it.

they're right there. i can see them. we even play together everyday!!

there's no way they're dead.

everyone's just in on some big unfunny joke.

thank you to my mum for giving birth to me
best mum in the world there could ever be
all i could ever wish for  shes a mum come true
on this special day mummy i love you

i will love you always  for ever and a day
and my love for you forever it will stay
i am only one but as the years go by
the love i have  you will never ever die

love you mum ***
leilah