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Commitment issues This again? Yes but this time these are my words Not the labels thrown at me by exes Like arrows attempting to pierce me into place I thought it was meant to trap me But I think they just wanted me to stop To think To really evaluate myself To see the truth Im afraid of commitment. When I've been told this in the past I read it with the understanding that Commitment issues meant I Just couldn't have or didn't want a relationship And that just couldn't be true I mean just check my track record No, see My having commitment issues Is rooted deeply within my past These problems originate in an exciting mix of Trust issues Abandonment issues And a variety of other traumas I am not afraid to enter relationships And I do not avoid love Actually, I am obsessed with finding love With being loved All the while trying to love another Thinking I'm succeeding While subtly sabotaging myself in the process When I was small I did not receive the respect and care Needed to show I was loved Though my parent said they cared They didn't protect me the way they should have I had to take care of myself Look out for myself Because I was the only one I could trust Anytime I got close to someone They'd either decide to leave Or get ripped away by outside forces I was alone a lot And not great at making friends With the abuse happening at one house And some solace found at the other I was constantly fluctuating between Hellhole and liberation All while trying to have a childhood And survive adolescence So when they say I have commitment issues They're probably right But not for the reasons they think Not because I'm polyamorous Not because I don't want to commit Not because I don't love and Not because of who I am as a person My issues come from a long line of Different abuses by people who Were supposed to protect me But didn't So if you think to judge me For the trouble I have with trusting you And trusting you won't hurt me Or decide to leave when I'm "too much" Understand that I did not choose to be like this I didn't choose the pain that led me to love In such a haphazard way But I am choosing to do something about it
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Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 8:48 AM UTC
Issues with "Commitment"
Commitment issues This again? Yes but this time these are my words Not the labels thrown at me by exes Like arrows attempting to pierce me into place I thought it was meant to trap me But I think they just wanted me to stop To think To really evaluate myself To see the truth Im afraid of commitment. When I've been told this in the past I read it with the understanding that Commitment issues meant I Just couldn't have or didn't want a relationship And that just couldn't be true I mean just check my track record No, see My having commitment issues Is rooted deeply within my past These problems originate in an exciting mix of Trust issues Abandonment issues And a variety of other traumas I am not afraid to enter relationships And I do not avoid love Actually, I am obsessed with finding love With being loved All the while trying to love another Thinking I'm succeeding While subtly sabotaging myself in the process When I was small I did not receive the respect and care Needed to show I was loved Though my parent said they cared They didn't protect me the way they should have I had to take care of myself Look out for myself Because I was the only one I could trust Anytime I got close to someone They'd either decide to leave Or get ripped away by outside forces I was alone a lot And not great at making friends With the abuse happening at one house And some solace found at the other I was constantly fluctuating between Hellhole and liberation All while trying to have a childhood And survive adolescence So when they say I have commitment issues They're probably right But not for the reasons they think Not because I'm polyamorous Not because I don't want to commit Not because I don't love and Not because of who I am as a person My issues come from a long line of Different abuses by people who Were supposed to protect me But didn't So if you think to judge me For the trouble I have with trusting you And trusting you won't hurt me Or decide to leave when I'm "too much" Understand that I did not choose to be like this I didn't choose the pain that led me to love In such a haphazard way But I am choosing to do something about it
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I feel so trapped and I can’t escape. I really am stuck in this godforsaken place. The walls are closing in, pushing me down and holding me back. I could scream for hours, but no one would ever hear me. The lid of this box is taped shut and I’m suffocating in here. The pain bites into my arm, criss-crossed streets painted crimson red. I can’t handle living in this hellhole anymore. Is this what you wanted? Did you want something more? Even in this moment of weakness I will never live up to your high expectations. You are a fly that gets stuck in my head, yelling out insults while my subconscious shudders. I’m worthless and pathetic? Are you talking to the mirror again? Take a long hard look at the girl you destroyed. While she’s standing there bleeding, you still demand so much more. “You deserve everything that’s happened, you’re an ungrateful, useless ***** Just shout your obscenities one more time. Where will you be without your emotional punching bag? You are nothing without your words. A big hulk of a man with darkness behind your eyes. Just hit me one more time, I relish in that instant pain. This agony preferred over your emotional slurs. You are nothing but a poor excuse for a father.
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Oct 16, 2012
Oct 16, 2012 at 9:48 PM UTC
Laceration
True Stories #1 This is the first of what will be a series of little vignettes. When I was fourteen, I was the alienate hipster rebel In a private school hellhole. Hair long, tie knot never pushed up, Unbuttoned button-down shirts, Camus lover, Siddhartha disciple, Small acts of disdain, Expressions of teenage hell-pain. One day, the principal Threw me out to get a haircut. Went to the nearby barbershop, Which was in the underground, Subway stop. Returned to school where It was Pronounced unacceptable. Twice more this charade-escapade, Went on, till the barber cried and would not Charge me anymore. Shorn like a lamb, My mother roared like a lion. The next day, the man in charge, Who would marry my second son, Three decades later, Called me in and sort-of-apologized. From that day, I never respected authority, Only learned to fear tyranny. See photo of my latest protest!
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Oct 5, 2013
Oct 5, 2013 at 7:40 AM UTC
True Stories #1
My questions go unanswered. My words ignored. My presence overlooked. Myself invisible to the eyes of others. In a sty of stench. In her own ***** she is drenched. The reason I crossed two states borders. Pack rat hoarder. Without organization of order. Out lived my heart hesitated. My life dictated. By a **** "mom" who dominates. Controlling with my child as leverage. She holds us hostage. In her cobwebbed hellhole of dust. Mold, ***** stench, mildew, & rust. She is no one to ever trust. I have alot to complain about & fuss. Neglected, unprotected,& disrespected. Taken for granted & unappreciated. Unknown but senselessly hated. For love or friendship I waited. No one ever asked me to be dated. My life I lived & created.
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Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 2:39 PM UTC
Disrespected
What makes you want to be with trash pond **** who can't make you, but he sure comes fast Who made his mind up about life too quick What about adventure and the risk of it? I've seen your moves they **** me every time Hip ****** and **** bumps encircle and enthral my mind You are far to beautiful to be with that creep he probably snores and won't let you sleep If I kept you up with a bubbling nose I'd ask you to wake me and we'd plow till close I don't mind a snuggle up tight With you in my arms is a desirable, and significant fight Does he ever marvel by the beauty of your eyes? Does he ever tell you he could never compromise? With you and the world it is your pretty life to choose the hands who delicately caress you With your support and all my work we'll run this hellhole turn it heaven on earth
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Feb 8, 2011
Feb 8, 2011 at 4:50 AM UTC
Want Trash Talk?
From the depths of hell Where I slowly fell A deal made with the devil As I started tossing pennies in a well But the angels came and broke my fall Saved me from sinking, down this hellhole The life I sold is more precious than gold That my friend is what I saw,life is now more clearer and bold But after all upon throwing them all Before the saving and breaking of my fall I drowned in fame,money and *** for 7 years I ruled the world as it rise to an apex But then downfall and recollection came tormenting my soul Hellhounds came gnarling,scratching and waiting at my bedroom door Regrets starts falling alone with my tears as I prayed for salvation Never thought God listened, As the angels descent ended my damnation The devil is a salesman and you're a valued costumer Starts thinking 7 times before you go and starts to barter For your soul is more precious than what you think you'll be having God gave me a second chance never thought my soul is worth saving
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Jan 28, 2014
Jan 28, 2014 at 3:15 AM UTC
The Devil Is A Salesman And You're A Valued Costumer
Millay Has Her Way with a Vassar Professor by Michael R. Burch After a night of hard drinking and spreading her legs, Millay hits the dorm, where the Vassar don begs: “Please act more chastely, more discretely, more seemly!” (His name, let’s assume, was, er ... Percival Queemly.) “Expel me! Expel me!”—She flashes her eyes. “Oh! Please! No! I couldn’t! That wouldn’t be wise, for a great banished Shelley would tarnish my name ... Eek! My game will be lame if I can’t milque your fame!” “Continue to live here—carouse as you please!” the beleaguered don sighs as he sags to his knees. Millay grinds her crotch half an inch from his nose: “I can live in your hellhole, strange man, I suppose ... but the price is your firstborn, whom I’ll sacrifice to Moloch.” (Which explains what became of pale Percy’s son, Enoch.) Originally published by Lucid Rhythms. This poem is based on an account of Edna St. Vincent Millay being confronted by a male Vassar authority about her rogue behavior. However, there is a some poetic license involved, for the sake of humor. It was actually Vassar President Henry Noble MacCracken who mentioned Shelley. Here is his account in a response to a question about Millay cutting classes: "She cut everything. I once called her in and told her, 'I want you to know that you couldn't break any rule that would make me vote for your expulsion. I don't want to have any dead Shelleys on my doorstep, and I don't care what you do.' She went to the window and looked out and she said, 'Well on those terms I think I can continue to live in this hellhole.'" The stuff about Enoch and Moloch is, of course, pure fabrication on my part. Keywords/Tags: Millay, dead, Shelley, Vassar, dorm, hellhole, drinking, partying, *** cutting classes
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Apr 17, 2020
Apr 17, 2020 at 12:32 AM UTC
Millay Has Her Way with a Vassar Professor
Millay Has Her Way with a Vassar Professor by Michael R. Burch After a night of hard drinking and spreading her legs, Millay hits the dorm, where the Vassar don begs: “Please act more chastely, more discretely, more seemly!” (His name, let’s assume, was, er ... Percival Queemly.) “Expel me! Expel me!”—She flashes her eyes. “Oh! Please! No! I couldn’t! That wouldn’t be wise, for a great banished Shelley would tarnish my name ... Eek! My game will be lame if I can’t milque your fame!” “Continue to live here—carouse as you please!” the beleaguered don sighs as he sags to his knees. Millay grinds her crotch half an inch from his nose: “I can live in your hellhole, strange man, I suppose ... but the price is your firstborn, whom I’ll sacrifice to Moloch.” (Which explains what became of pale Percy’s son, Enoch.) Originally published by Lucid Rhythms. This poem is based on an account of Edna St. Vincent Millay being confronted by a male Vassar authority about her rogue behavior. However, there is a some poetic license involved, for the sake of humor. It was actually Vassar President Henry Noble MacCracken who mentioned Shelley. Here is his account in a response to a question about Millay cutting classes: "She cut everything. I once called her in and told her, 'I want you to know that you couldn't break any rule that would make me vote for your expulsion. I don't want to have any dead Shelleys on my doorstep, and I don't care what you do.' She went to the window and looked out and she said, 'Well on those terms I think I can continue to live in this hellhole.'" The stuff about Enoch and Moloch is, of course, pure fabrication on my part. Keywords/Tags: Millay, dead, Shelley, Vassar, dorm, hellhole, drinking, partying, *** cutting classes
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***** Jersey You are unworthy From the infamous Jersey shore To the depths of Bergen county You hound me Thank god sandy got rid of that cesspool by the way Anyone ever hear of Lodi? No?, ok... Moving on, New Jersey, the ideal place for parents who have small children Once they are teenagers They will rip their parents apart for condemning them to a suburban hellhole For sentencing them to an infernal purgatory, where if you have no car, you are stuck at home, and unless you walk to a bus stop and take the bus somewhere else, you have no job So you find your best friend... Marijuana And then you start selling it and you now have a job Drug dealer. Find a pill counter who works at Walgreens pharmacy and you have now expanded your market Oh ***** Jerz, for grey-ish skies For sewage waves of stain, for unemployed and worker slaves, all for minimum wage.
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Dec 10, 2012
Dec 10, 2012 at 10:15 AM UTC
***** Jersey
Hoobler Hobbler: He brings only fatigue. He is but just annoying, He rarely does intrigue. Even my brothers are Extremely irritated so, For they cannot do anything Since he really cannot go For even a strongman like old Mal He cannot move this hefty tonne, Both Adsel and Luke alike Their words like an empty gun Frank cannot do anything, He just perches there to watch; Mike and Blake hide in their hole And Rooney's but a blotch Oh this fascinating team For once they really can't control; This heavy weighted sleepyhead Has just worsened this hellhole Hoobler Hobbler: It's not just the fatigue, He also brings along chaos But still doesn't intrigue
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Sep 11, 2013
Sep 11, 2013 at 11:08 AM UTC
Hoobler the Immovable
when you pulled my trigger, did you smile, lioness? ricochet, ricochet. did i want you? for security i suppose. when you kiss him, will you think of me? i doubt it. feed my self-loathing machine. it's hungry. all the nights are all mine. all the girls, they got no time. all the nights will find you in his arms. all the girls will conspire against me, alright? manufacture fine ******* feelings, smile quazi-sincere, i never, you never, i never meant anything. i fell for you fast, lioness. that is always a turn-off. i should have been an ******* that's your type. ******** i kissed you. but it didn't matter. your breath went heavy, but it doesn't matter. i ended a relationship for you, but it doesn't matter. it's a fashionable game, i fronted as a washed up bukowski-type, and when you found out i was nice you disowned me, understandable move. copingstrategies.copingstrategies.copingstrategies. bring on the vultures. i'll make them songs, coffee, and friendly emotions. pick me apart, promise i can watch. pick me apart, promise i can watch. let the beautiful boy tame you, lioness. your hundreds of miles away, anyhow. let me turn to vapor. don't talk to me. don't ask around about me. answers will frighten. answers will anger. i am barely alive. you were selfish. i am barely alive. you were selfish. you never paid me a compliment only talked of all the other lovers. you never cared what i had to say only talked of your own experience each day. i thought you were different in your own way. your different in the same way. turn to grey. **** him and your pain away. i ended everything to begin again. i ended everything and nothing started. i ended and found myself in the abyss. hellhole, hope you aren't happy. i'm malaise. i'm the wasp nest. if you ask to rekindle. i'll douse myself, and set myself to flame before you ever get near. don't anybody touch the remnants of me. i want to die this way. i want to die everyday. i miss the comfort of everything. i don't have the energy to start again, nor do i have the self-esteem to move my feet, i was wrong, no dancing at my end times, just knives, fevers, and cobwebs. i laughed out of irony. i laughed out of spite for me. goodnight everything.
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Sep 10, 2010
Sep 10, 2010 at 11:31 PM UTC
haha
when you pulled my trigger, did you smile, lioness? ricochet, ricochet. did i want you? for security i suppose. when you kiss him, will you think of me? i doubt it. feed my self-loathing machine. it's hungry. all the nights are all mine. all the girls, they got no time. all the nights will find you in his arms. all the girls will conspire against me, alright? manufacture fine ******* feelings, smile quazi-sincere, i never, you never, i never meant anything. i fell for you fast, lioness. that is always a turn-off. i should have been an ******* that's your type. ******** i kissed you. but it didn't matter. your breath went heavy, but it doesn't matter. i ended a relationship for you, but it doesn't matter. it's a fashionable game, i fronted as a washed up bukowski-type, and when you found out i was nice you disowned me, understandable move. copingstrategies.copingstrategies.copingstrategies. bring on the vultures. i'll make them songs, coffee, and friendly emotions. pick me apart, promise i can watch. pick me apart, promise i can watch. let the beautiful boy tame you, lioness. your hundreds of miles away, anyhow. let me turn to vapor. don't talk to me. don't ask around about me. answers will frighten. answers will anger. i am barely alive. you were selfish. i am barely alive. you were selfish. you never paid me a compliment only talked of all the other lovers. you never cared what i had to say only talked of your own experience each day. i thought you were different in your own way. your different in the same way. turn to grey. **** him and your pain away. i ended everything to begin again. i ended everything and nothing started. i ended and found myself in the abyss. hellhole, hope you aren't happy. i'm malaise. i'm the wasp nest. if you ask to rekindle. i'll douse myself, and set myself to flame before you ever get near. don't anybody touch the remnants of me. i want to die this way. i want to die everyday. i miss the comfort of everything. i don't have the energy to start again, nor do i have the self-esteem to move my feet, i was wrong, no dancing at my end times, just knives, fevers, and cobwebs. i laughed out of irony. i laughed out of spite for me. goodnight everything.
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Or afterlife I can't remember *Let's take a trip Just go for a stroll Down this hellhole Old ravaged soul Fear not my friend, For lo and behold You've been here before Time after time, Spent breaking the mold Value of life cajoled Blindfolded by fool's gold Then a jolt of electricity jots down your spinal chord Now you're on the threshold About to enter a portal of some sorts, No? Only to discover You're living the life of another And the sum of every misgiving makes you suffer in discomfort Living the dream To wake and repeat Routinely existing One day at a time Feel it yes shudder Over your head pull the covers Dream of a place elsewhere But beware your worst nightmares As a slaughter is awakening Pharm entrapment for mass brainwashing It's one global chess-game While pawns are laid to waste Archons duplicate an assumed fate Deception whispers into the hearts of the wicked For certain they're rendered by men lurking shadily behind curtains unspoken of I'm ashamed Prayers fall on deaf ears when a reckoning is ravenous Assuredly glimmering in extravagance Whilst you traipse about like savages Poisoning our brains Tainting the terrain Reign supreme putrid filth For bloodstained money & Squandered wealth Lengthening our debts Molesting children Who'd like to place their highest bet? Just stay conditioned For the daily grind The hustle and bustle Stick with consistence And reminisce of better times You're dead inside Is the end just contingent? Why won't society just crumble Keep living the lie Greener pastures lay just beyond the hillside Am I right?*
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Oct 29, 2015
Oct 29, 2015 at 9:37 AM UTC
Welcome to the other side.
Or afterlife I can't remember *Let's take a trip Just go for a stroll Down this hellhole Old ravaged soul Fear not my friend, For lo and behold You've been here before Time after time, Spent breaking the mold Value of life cajoled Blindfolded by fool's gold Then a jolt of electricity jots down your spinal chord Now you're on the threshold About to enter a portal of some sorts, No? Only to discover You're living the life of another And the sum of every misgiving makes you suffer in discomfort Living the dream To wake and repeat Routinely existing One day at a time Feel it yes shudder Over your head pull the covers Dream of a place elsewhere But beware your worst nightmares As a slaughter is awakening Pharm entrapment for mass brainwashing It's one global chess-game While pawns are laid to waste Archons duplicate an assumed fate Deception whispers into the hearts of the wicked For certain they're rendered by men lurking shadily behind curtains unspoken of I'm ashamed Prayers fall on deaf ears when a reckoning is ravenous Assuredly glimmering in extravagance Whilst you traipse about like savages Poisoning our brains Tainting the terrain Reign supreme putrid filth For bloodstained money & Squandered wealth Lengthening our debts Molesting children Who'd like to place their highest bet? Just stay conditioned For the daily grind The hustle and bustle Stick with consistence And reminisce of better times You're dead inside Is the end just contingent? Why won't society just crumble Keep living the lie Greener pastures lay just beyond the hillside Am I right?*
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I always knew I was going to hell. But I never knew I'd get there while I was still alive. ↠mndi
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Aug 16, 2014
Aug 16, 2014 at 4:33 PM UTC
Hellhole Homemaker
The Lemur is enthroned on the heights of an island In a luxurious villa, complete with a sauna and a pool The Dormouse holds, modestly, a small pharmacy Where people can buy necklaces, gemstones and pretty threads. Every Monday morning the lemur fixes His hair with a delicate ivory comb Asks about the stock market in overflow Swallowing a pure white powder in a row His orange eyes threaten to explode So he sits down, eats lobster and sated, He doesn’t have a care in the world as descends the evening His paw resting on a black jade cane stolen from the dormouse Monday morning, the lemur, operational Goes fast, pick and pickaxe at the mine Extracting, sweaty, some beautiful spinel specimens Hoping that one day at the Lemurian’s he would dine For a trifle, the latter bought him His most beautiful crystals and this without paying taxes He became the leader of the island thanks to his kinsmen The exotic animals knew something was wrong… His only friends were the rich and the bohos Under the yoke of this monkey, the island was a hellhole Their chef was addicted to coconut powder Whoever dared to say it was put in irons When finally, an evening he overdosed Nobody buried him among his friends The Dormouse humbly undertook to do so At the hole where he dug, he found a stone The moral of the fable, listen to it then, Who shows compassion exists with reason Do not judge too fast, because we're leaving too early Nature often rewards us in her own way. September 11, 2019 Nancy, translated on November 17, 2019
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Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 9:40 AM UTC
The Dormouse and the Lemur
The Lemur is enthroned on the heights of an island In a luxurious villa, complete with a sauna and a pool The Dormouse holds, modestly, a small pharmacy Where people can buy necklaces, gemstones and pretty threads. Every Monday morning the lemur fixes His hair with a delicate ivory comb Asks about the stock market in overflow Swallowing a pure white powder in a row His orange eyes threaten to explode So he sits down, eats lobster and sated, He doesn’t have a care in the world as descends the evening His paw resting on a black jade cane stolen from the dormouse Monday morning, the lemur, operational Goes fast, pick and pickaxe at the mine Extracting, sweaty, some beautiful spinel specimens Hoping that one day at the Lemurian’s he would dine For a trifle, the latter bought him His most beautiful crystals and this without paying taxes He became the leader of the island thanks to his kinsmen The exotic animals knew something was wrong… His only friends were the rich and the bohos Under the yoke of this monkey, the island was a hellhole Their chef was addicted to coconut powder Whoever dared to say it was put in irons When finally, an evening he overdosed Nobody buried him among his friends The Dormouse humbly undertook to do so At the hole where he dug, he found a stone The moral of the fable, listen to it then, Who shows compassion exists with reason Do not judge too fast, because we're leaving too early Nature often rewards us in her own way. September 11, 2019 Nancy, translated on November 17, 2019
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This silence is too eerie, this emptiness is too vast. I thought I've finally escaped this "hellhole". I thought that I've escaped into the embracing arms of Camelot. But little did I know, Camelot is an evil place brimming with demons from over the world. Shush, they're coming for me. Don't make a sound now, or else I'll flip. I hear them breathing noisily thought their nostrils, congested with slimy mucus. I see them now! Blood overflowing from their mouths, unable to satiate their undying wants for human minds. Help! I'm gripped tightly around the fingertips of fear, "they'll never let me go" I thought to myself. As quietly as I could, I tiptoed into the most outstanding room of this beautiful castle. I locked the door, double bolt, and triple bolted it. Oh, foolish me. What have I just done? This room has no windows at all. Those cannibals are scraping the door. They've smelt my scent, they've smelt my sweat. They've realized my presence and now I can never outrun them anymore. I dug my hands into my pocket, hoping to find something that I can use to fight them off. I thought my pockets were empty, but thank God for hope. I felt something metal, I felt something sharp. I pulled it out. Guess what I've found! Upon sight of that metal blade, I chuckled to myself. I am elated. "There's a way out of this after all." I really couldn't have asked for more. With this blade I'd win, I'd be triumphant. So as the wooden door slowly split into two upon the clawing of those disgusting creatures, I've dug the metal blade DEEP. DEEP into my ulnar first, then my jugular. "HA HA HA HA", I cried out loud as I breathed my final breathe to show that I'VE WON, YOU CAN NEVER GET ME NOW. (C.C)
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Oct 28, 2013
Oct 28, 2013 at 8:07 AM UTC
Shush, they're coming for me.
This silence is too eerie, this emptiness is too vast. I thought I've finally escaped this "hellhole". I thought that I've escaped into the embracing arms of Camelot. But little did I know, Camelot is an evil place brimming with demons from over the world. Shush, they're coming for me. Don't make a sound now, or else I'll flip. I hear them breathing noisily thought their nostrils, congested with slimy mucus. I see them now! Blood overflowing from their mouths, unable to satiate their undying wants for human minds. Help! I'm gripped tightly around the fingertips of fear, "they'll never let me go" I thought to myself. As quietly as I could, I tiptoed into the most outstanding room of this beautiful castle. I locked the door, double bolt, and triple bolted it. Oh, foolish me. What have I just done? This room has no windows at all. Those cannibals are scraping the door. They've smelt my scent, they've smelt my sweat. They've realized my presence and now I can never outrun them anymore. I dug my hands into my pocket, hoping to find something that I can use to fight them off. I thought my pockets were empty, but thank God for hope. I felt something metal, I felt something sharp. I pulled it out. Guess what I've found! Upon sight of that metal blade, I chuckled to myself. I am elated. "There's a way out of this after all." I really couldn't have asked for more. With this blade I'd win, I'd be triumphant. So as the wooden door slowly split into two upon the clawing of those disgusting creatures, I've dug the metal blade DEEP. DEEP into my ulnar first, then my jugular. "HA HA HA HA", I cried out loud as I breathed my final breathe to show that I'VE WON, YOU CAN NEVER GET ME NOW. (C.C)
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We are not pens, ourselves, red ink is not inside of us. But we do have sensitive blood that is discolored, same as that utensil. Difference is: it poisons us, gives us rashes and thoughts that we are not worthy to have. It wrecks our minds with ancient tools that were once unaccepted. Silly poppies can not Ruin us like that. I know what can. The things that worry us, teenagers and babies, parents and pedophiles; Cease your worries. I pity you, teens. "It is fun, it is fun." I know I know. But is it worth the risk? Cease your worries parents. You don't need to stalk your own children. They learn from their mistakes. They cry for a while and then get stronger. Like I did, why I kept my mouth shut for so long, I was better. Until you began to read. I couldn't go to you specifically for that reason, Tightening your hold on me, mother. I am already a prisoner in my own mind. I don't need another warden. A century long breakthrough gave me something,an understanding that not all children accept Their parents. I don't feel at home there. It is not one. Just a house that I stay in, people I live with. They are family, by blood only. ****** ink: my savior. My hero, love, is you. You inspired me to digitalize, write with graphite. But I am still contaminated, mind wandering, History repeating, sounds piercing, a test is too much when I did not study. Help me. The trials this has put me through are unfair. Give me my pen to sign a contract, but I Poison myself instead. Only okay after after a needle enters my streams and takes it out. A mechanical vampire, I prefer you to bit me instead of metal fangs. And now I dream. . . . . . Or maybe I am not. We have lived as such long enough. But, still, Write about it. Tell me how you feel. But be careful not to poison yourself. I have experience with that. The pen has a hidden blade. It cuts you with every word you Lay in front of you. May I be a word? Scratch my love into your skin? I will not intoxicate you as it would. I will give you something else entirely. But my dream ends. Reality steps on me and takes my breath from me, I am suffocating in this Hellhole. Give me a firehouse so I can put it out and drink away my parched lips. They need to be soft so I can speak, but first... I need to Sew my lips shut. If they are dry, they will rip and open. We don't want that. Keep them shut, don't tear open and bleed; you would give ink poison to Mockingbirds if you do. They mock me, copy me. They tell me they are jealous. But why? They don't know they've been poisoned. It is a cycle. Everyone will die of it in the end.
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Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 3:23 PM UTC
Ink Poison
We are not pens, ourselves, red ink is not inside of us. But we do have sensitive blood that is discolored, same as that utensil. Difference is: it poisons us, gives us rashes and thoughts that we are not worthy to have. It wrecks our minds with ancient tools that were once unaccepted. Silly poppies can not Ruin us like that. I know what can. The things that worry us, teenagers and babies, parents and pedophiles; Cease your worries. I pity you, teens. "It is fun, it is fun." I know I know. But is it worth the risk? Cease your worries parents. You don't need to stalk your own children. They learn from their mistakes. They cry for a while and then get stronger. Like I did, why I kept my mouth shut for so long, I was better. Until you began to read. I couldn't go to you specifically for that reason, Tightening your hold on me, mother. I am already a prisoner in my own mind. I don't need another warden. A century long breakthrough gave me something,an understanding that not all children accept Their parents. I don't feel at home there. It is not one. Just a house that I stay in, people I live with. They are family, by blood only. ****** ink: my savior. My hero, love, is you. You inspired me to digitalize, write with graphite. But I am still contaminated, mind wandering, History repeating, sounds piercing, a test is too much when I did not study. Help me. The trials this has put me through are unfair. Give me my pen to sign a contract, but I Poison myself instead. Only okay after after a needle enters my streams and takes it out. A mechanical vampire, I prefer you to bit me instead of metal fangs. And now I dream. . . . . . Or maybe I am not. We have lived as such long enough. But, still, Write about it. Tell me how you feel. But be careful not to poison yourself. I have experience with that. The pen has a hidden blade. It cuts you with every word you Lay in front of you. May I be a word? Scratch my love into your skin? I will not intoxicate you as it would. I will give you something else entirely. But my dream ends. Reality steps on me and takes my breath from me, I am suffocating in this Hellhole. Give me a firehouse so I can put it out and drink away my parched lips. They need to be soft so I can speak, but first... I need to Sew my lips shut. If they are dry, they will rip and open. We don't want that. Keep them shut, don't tear open and bleed; you would give ink poison to Mockingbirds if you do. They mock me, copy me. They tell me they are jealous. But why? They don't know they've been poisoned. It is a cycle. Everyone will die of it in the end.
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I don’t care you know, just make me up but I suppose if I don’t do basic character designing first, you’d have nothing substantial to play with opened the character settings page then gave up oh well you can just fantasize about this hollow husk just physical, for starters I’d still be honoured you ask me how I’m doing I laugh so loud the ceiling shakes and neighbours come out of their houses I started losing my footing since I stepped into this hellhole you know, my vision is blurred just take advantage of me I won’t even retaliate I might even play along hey, the me from pre-quicksand I miss you please come home this house is something like a hollow husk I can’t see clearly anymore I should probably get some glasses even then I’d still let them play with me I always levelled up my combat but neglected other skills for self-preservation cooking, crafting, farming, hunting, etc. is the person in the mirror the same as the person in the photos ****** doppelgängers I’m quite the expert at investing in things I shouldn’t and subtly letting people down hey, the me from pre-quicksand I think you should come home so I feel more myself so maybe I can once again be kind(er) and a little more wise to see with unclouded eyes and stop wandering off unarmed into the great unknown when you’re back, pass me the ****** glasses hey, idiot in the quicksand can you at least try to ask for help instead of struggling there like a ***** you’re sinking deeper so I’m hollering and screaming at the top of my lungs frightened faces peer out from windows opposite forget it I’ll make a home of the quicksand when I was still in control of the game I should’ve trained some skill to get me out of this ******** or at least deal with it better because now someone else is playing me to some stranger I passed the reins, saying “I don’t care you know, just make me up” I’m in chin-deep just launch me into battle without ammunition I’ll simply die, then respawn, then die, then respawn, then die, then respawn again and again oh well I guess this isn’t so bad by the time the me from pre-quicksand comes back there might not be a need for her anymore nor for ******* glasses
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Jun 26, 2015
Jun 26, 2015 at 9:44 AM UTC
character in a role-playing game
I don’t care you know, just make me up but I suppose if I don’t do basic character designing first, you’d have nothing substantial to play with opened the character settings page then gave up oh well you can just fantasize about this hollow husk just physical, for starters I’d still be honoured you ask me how I’m doing I laugh so loud the ceiling shakes and neighbours come out of their houses I started losing my footing since I stepped into this hellhole you know, my vision is blurred just take advantage of me I won’t even retaliate I might even play along hey, the me from pre-quicksand I miss you please come home this house is something like a hollow husk I can’t see clearly anymore I should probably get some glasses even then I’d still let them play with me I always levelled up my combat but neglected other skills for self-preservation cooking, crafting, farming, hunting, etc. is the person in the mirror the same as the person in the photos ****** doppelgängers I’m quite the expert at investing in things I shouldn’t and subtly letting people down hey, the me from pre-quicksand I think you should come home so I feel more myself so maybe I can once again be kind(er) and a little more wise to see with unclouded eyes and stop wandering off unarmed into the great unknown when you’re back, pass me the ****** glasses hey, idiot in the quicksand can you at least try to ask for help instead of struggling there like a ***** you’re sinking deeper so I’m hollering and screaming at the top of my lungs frightened faces peer out from windows opposite forget it I’ll make a home of the quicksand when I was still in control of the game I should’ve trained some skill to get me out of this ******** or at least deal with it better because now someone else is playing me to some stranger I passed the reins, saying “I don’t care you know, just make me up” I’m in chin-deep just launch me into battle without ammunition I’ll simply die, then respawn, then die, then respawn, then die, then respawn again and again oh well I guess this isn’t so bad by the time the me from pre-quicksand comes back there might not be a need for her anymore nor for ******* glasses
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Don’t send me to the hospital I just left without a cure Don’t feed me the drugs My over-dosing habits are not pure Don’t leave me suffering Alone as you walk past Just take me to the sea Where I can float into infinity Haunting these hallways I surround friends with joy Faking my way of life So no one pulls me outside Not like I’m filled inside And it seems I like to criticize All those girls for being fake. While I know it’s true, I can’t be too hypocritical When I look at myself As unrealistic projections Of a happy adolescent If you couldn’t tell, Then I must be doing well As my walls are built higher And my skin grows a little tighter I still get sick Of going back every day With all the ****** up acts People commit inside the hellhole I’m sworn to go to Until my legal childhood dies Most days, I’m scared to go back When the treatment is this bad And the punches are dealt the same When the words leave the their mouths And leave me hanging to on the edge Suffering with more blood from razors The past 12 years seem to merge Into a big blurb of complete crap I thought by now, we’d grow taller and mature From the childish **** of the past They’re still satisfied with producing slurs Just because I’m not at their ‘perfect stature’ That’s when I wonder what’s going to change Am I ever going to take a jump away And find some way to escape While a month and a half seems so short Being told you’re a **** up every day Makes the days a little bit longer What if I didn’t come back tomorrow Or all the days after that What if I said oh ***** it And left the world in a snap What will they say, when someone tells them It was their faults from their words and their actions And as every day continues To be another fight for a healthy mental state I just lay down at night thinking Sometimes I wish I could die.
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May 3, 2012
May 3, 2012 at 3:09 PM UTC
(Title-less)
Don’t send me to the hospital I just left without a cure Don’t feed me the drugs My over-dosing habits are not pure Don’t leave me suffering Alone as you walk past Just take me to the sea Where I can float into infinity Haunting these hallways I surround friends with joy Faking my way of life So no one pulls me outside Not like I’m filled inside And it seems I like to criticize All those girls for being fake. While I know it’s true, I can’t be too hypocritical When I look at myself As unrealistic projections Of a happy adolescent If you couldn’t tell, Then I must be doing well As my walls are built higher And my skin grows a little tighter I still get sick Of going back every day With all the ****** up acts People commit inside the hellhole I’m sworn to go to Until my legal childhood dies Most days, I’m scared to go back When the treatment is this bad And the punches are dealt the same When the words leave the their mouths And leave me hanging to on the edge Suffering with more blood from razors The past 12 years seem to merge Into a big blurb of complete crap I thought by now, we’d grow taller and mature From the childish **** of the past They’re still satisfied with producing slurs Just because I’m not at their ‘perfect stature’ That’s when I wonder what’s going to change Am I ever going to take a jump away And find some way to escape While a month and a half seems so short Being told you’re a **** up every day Makes the days a little bit longer What if I didn’t come back tomorrow Or all the days after that What if I said oh ***** it And left the world in a snap What will they say, when someone tells them It was their faults from their words and their actions And as every day continues To be another fight for a healthy mental state I just lay down at night thinking Sometimes I wish I could die.
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Grey is this town, A never ending spiral of hate and violence. Depression is contagious here. Why haven't we been quarantined.
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Nov 9, 2012
Nov 9, 2012 at 2:29 PM UTC
Hellhole
October 31. Halloween A Celebration celebrated worldwide for children and adults to dress as whatever they desire and are free of judgement... of condemnation. A night where the freaks hidden inside every 'normal' person comes out to play either; commando, or a zombie, a damsel in distress or might i add a naughty little schoolgirl.. An open invitation to ask strangers for candy, a game to see who can collect the most...... Halloween is just a game that is just full of surprises aren't they? Oh! Halloween is a night everyone looks forward too..... the dead included We like games too. We, the ones who linger between realms awaiting trial. waiting to be stationed into our eternal home a pick between; a forever scorching, fire blazing hellhole or forever be glistened by the almighty light. On Halloween night, we the dead are free to wonder back into the world we begged to leave whilst upon the stars the judge laughs upon his throne at us, knowing all to well we despise this place. Mockery is a well known game, played by many, deceived so many. Even mortals shamelessly mock the dead and tease us with life irony is they live for this very night to dress up and be someone/something they desire the most..... the things they so often remind thy selves are; abnormal, freaks, an abomination.. For god so loved the world, he gave his only son, to prove that he can and could give and take life as he pleases We 'freaks' learnt that the hard way.. Every Halloween the Gods are at play and so are the humans, but never us. We the ones the mortals fear And the Gods personal entertainment. These humans wonder off into the parade whilst we linger in the depths of the darkness He told us as punishment we are to watch them parade about us and celebrate the day of the dead, He who looks down upon us cursed us. To have a sirens call- to lure them in, sedating them with sweet nothings, BUT only one rule applied to us all: NO touching the one thing we freaks' all lacked; SOULS That's their sick,game to tease us by gifting us to caress the mortals ever so slightly but nothing more.... 'SADISM' is what we call the game in which Hades and the Gods play; and us being the pawns....... Well not anymore. Not this time No! tonight we will purge on whatever comes our way, Sedating them with the curse of a sirens call....... the one that the mighty gods has gifted us with, Tonight we feast on what the humans are celebrating; DEATH. No more hide and seek games, with the humans No more cat and mouse games with the Judges its our turn to give a good scare! Tonight we play our own game, We call it 'PEEK-A-BOO'! 'cause tonight we'll will give them one HELL of a Spooky night, 'cause we're coming for you!!!!!
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Oct 18, 2016
Oct 18, 2016 at 7:44 AM UTC
THE FREAKS ARE OUT TO PLAY
October 31. Halloween A Celebration celebrated worldwide for children and adults to dress as whatever they desire and are free of judgement... of condemnation. A night where the freaks hidden inside every 'normal' person comes out to play either; commando, or a zombie, a damsel in distress or might i add a naughty little schoolgirl.. An open invitation to ask strangers for candy, a game to see who can collect the most...... Halloween is just a game that is just full of surprises aren't they? Oh! Halloween is a night everyone looks forward too..... the dead included We like games too. We, the ones who linger between realms awaiting trial. waiting to be stationed into our eternal home a pick between; a forever scorching, fire blazing hellhole or forever be glistened by the almighty light. On Halloween night, we the dead are free to wonder back into the world we begged to leave whilst upon the stars the judge laughs upon his throne at us, knowing all to well we despise this place. Mockery is a well known game, played by many, deceived so many. Even mortals shamelessly mock the dead and tease us with life irony is they live for this very night to dress up and be someone/something they desire the most..... the things they so often remind thy selves are; abnormal, freaks, an abomination.. For god so loved the world, he gave his only son, to prove that he can and could give and take life as he pleases We 'freaks' learnt that the hard way.. Every Halloween the Gods are at play and so are the humans, but never us. We the ones the mortals fear And the Gods personal entertainment. These humans wonder off into the parade whilst we linger in the depths of the darkness He told us as punishment we are to watch them parade about us and celebrate the day of the dead, He who looks down upon us cursed us. To have a sirens call- to lure them in, sedating them with sweet nothings, BUT only one rule applied to us all: NO touching the one thing we freaks' all lacked; SOULS That's their sick,game to tease us by gifting us to caress the mortals ever so slightly but nothing more.... 'SADISM' is what we call the game in which Hades and the Gods play; and us being the pawns....... Well not anymore. Not this time No! tonight we will purge on whatever comes our way, Sedating them with the curse of a sirens call....... the one that the mighty gods has gifted us with, Tonight we feast on what the humans are celebrating; DEATH. No more hide and seek games, with the humans No more cat and mouse games with the Judges its our turn to give a good scare! Tonight we play our own game, We call it 'PEEK-A-BOO'! 'cause tonight we'll will give them one HELL of a Spooky night, 'cause we're coming for you!!!!!
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We were down in the province of Basra, Iraq For reasons not precisely clear. Our objective that day was a Shia run town; A town named Sari Mi Dyr. The road to the town was a minefield of sorts It was booby-trapped with I.E.D.’s. Still it was the constant sniping that caused the bulk of our casualties. The day was as hot as a woman’s scorn when the last of her tears have dried. I’ll remember this road to Sari Mi Dyr On which so many good friends have died. The day was near spent when command showed some sense; We heard our choppers draw near. They aborted the mission and extracted my men From that hellhole called Sari Mi Dyr. I’m writing my after action report, and trying to hold back a tear; When I think of the good men and women who died On the road to Sari Mi Dyr.
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Dec 7, 2015
Dec 7, 2015 at 6:25 AM UTC
Marching to Absurdistan