"godsister" poems
hidden secrets or beautiful lies
you write in me like I'm your notebook that's kept under lock and key.
it seems like you were doing all of this, just to humor me.
telling me not tell
because these are your deepest darkest secrets
but in reality your just
yelling stay with me.
I look at you
& I see you drowning
or maybe falling off a cliff
I know your reading this and saying
she must be psychologically insane or the godsister of Cain
but you have to understand my point of view.
you're writing all these things instilling them inside me
showing me that you value every single page
you say your done hurting people
& that's why you won't leave her
you know that's not where you want to be .
your heart isn't there -
your heart is with me -
I should've been more transparent with my feelings -
I admit that -
causing confusion
& feelings of mixed emotions
was never my intention
I can't let you go
they're right about that.
so quick to mention my flaws an all - a - that
but they're wrong
I'm sorry
I don't show love like all these other females out here
always all up under their man -
& holding their hands
that's not me
I show love through my gestures
my voice
my eyes
my poetry
& that's not something I can or want to change about myself
& I'm sorry that I needed space
& you had to be alone from time to time
denying what my heart has been screaming out
but I keep feelings like this to myself because I'm my own notebook
with my heart under lock & key
hidden secrets or beautiful lies
you use to write in me like I'm your notebook
but now that lock is broken
and I threw away the key .
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 11:13 PM UTC
My first baby boo Zekara and my unborn kid
My other love after Lelei
My boy Hamburger
My boy Bruce
My Granny in Law Miss Gummy
My Uncle Ken
My Uncle Red
My grandfather & grandmother
My great grandfather & grandmother
My Uncle Pops recently
My boy Garcia
((((((To my fallen comrades in the battlefield))))))))
Too many to name
My Aunt Betty
My Aunt Jackie
My Uncle Leonard
My Godsister Marsai
My Uncle Doug
My boy Duvleek
My Uncle Herb
My Cousin Hank
My Uncle Calvin
My gospel teacher Miss Gloria
My boy Black
My cousin Ray
And all others I I forget known
And unknown
Just know ill soon be home
Peace out family
Jul 12, 2021
Jul 12, 2021 at 3:40 AM UTC