Iam the one completed my graduation

Joined in unemployment youth

Now staying alone
Day and day everyday..!
Now and still searching for a job
Pass and faill return test’s
Facing face to face interviews
Day and everyday  fighting with me
For the mission
After the graduation I think I will live like free bird
It’s wrong and wrong and purely
wrong
Every imagination not become real
Empty pockets not have value
The real value have only one thing
Money and money and money
Yet somehow I will be crazy
Hopeful on brain full to win something...!

Sometimes your only escape is sitting in a room of darkness. Even with the different color paints you have no motivation to become an artist. So you sit cradeled into a ball brawling because there's no other response. Nothing about you or the things surrounding you shows acts of noncholance. And that's when you faill into a trail of despair. You see  yourself walking in the tears shed in the air. It must be black and an open invitation to run away. You can't think rationally and there's to many options to weigh.
In your hand you see a substance dripping pure black. In this substance you visualize everything you lack. You can see your soul burning into a ashes. There in your eye you can see constant flashes. This is your comfort state.
A Neverland of madness.
Here everything is okay there's even ending in your sadness. A Neverland  where your words are curses. And In your last existance you hear the venom versus.

Everytime you leave
Fear creeps up
Is this the last time
It consumes my thoughts
I feel powerless agains my emotions
A stampeed i face
I love you
I miss my family
I fear loosing you
I fear
Words faill to express
You fail to comprehend
My fault for doubting
Just how much you know me
You study me constantly
You understand
We feel the same
Old lovers
From past lived lifes
Wanting longing and founding each other
I will endure only a short while
Just a few months
I keep telling myself
Trying to drown the pain
Why do i miss you so much
To extend it becomes pain
Then it builds into depression
Your my cure
My disease
My bad habit
My drug
My fix
How did i get to this mess
I hate that i love you so