the other me
the other you
so natural || parallel grazing... like soft kisses under cool sheets
never have touched, yet can tickle so much, again, again, experience the other explicable and envigorating, so much that the _ just can't be contained/pressed/expressed truly in simple written words.
goosebumps, held breath, who would have thought simple presence could see & show & feel so much
so nervous, so anxious, so amazed, so curious, yum - it builds - this tension
such T.O... even if this other us will never meet on this side of the reflection, it's okay.
there's no off-switch it seems... and i love all that it is and i love All that it is.

the things to do to say to feel, so unreal and so-su-re-al
if there is such thing as an un-provable-un-disprovable bond/natural affinities/of us;
no motive, no agenda, yet muted from any role other than to Be...  impossibly, but possibly
the other you
the other me

3:02 AM 9/23/2011
10/06/2012

Climbing up a mountain
Reaching the peak
Of success
Exhilarating and envigorating
But, once the mission is complete
What comes next? Another one.
Success is a wheel that runs off of desire
So when it stops turning, what comes next?

When I was younger, I had a bright future planned
Sipping margaritas by the ocean while my skin tanned
The love of my life holding my hand..

But in this moment, nothing is what I expected
My passions and my heart, neglected
I know I have a lot to be grateful for
I have people in my life whom give me their endless support
But I'm not satisfied
And I'm not motivated

Feeling unworthy and unappreciated

So many people
So many stories unknown
Sometimes I can't face them
So I dwell with my demons at home

Hating myself for hindering
Hindering out of fear
Choking down potential
Wishing someone.. anyone.. would dry my tears

I'm failing
Failing at this heartache,
This beautiful, envigorating tradjedy we call life
I don't understand why we make it so hard
Maybe I just haven't found the one to help make it right.