dear efni,
an unbreakable pit from
the fruit of my imagination
took root in our world
though strong, it was gentle
safe and small but intricate
investigating yet teaching me
a manifestation of peace
penetrating a life at war
within and between itself
a sudden emergence of empathy
veins of your branch oozing
loyalty, kindness, friendship
another extension appears
carrying the elegance of
honesty and intelligence
then arises pure expression
the joy of raw creativity,
coupled with laughter
you bear flawless fruit that
have the colours of the present
in focus and perfect existence
the embodiment of being alive
true freedom and eternal growth
aesthetic and alone yet never so
you are connected
the trees, the stars, the moon
the wind, the sky, my imagination
the music of my laughter and
the roll of my tears; our tears
you are beyond me
and have become me
let me become you
love, efni ❤
25.09.20
in recognition of my birthday (today) i wanted to finally share what "efni " means and what it means to me.
it is an Icelandic word which translates to content; a state of peaceful happiness.
i evolved the concept of efni over years. it is mostly inexplicable.
a symbol, a state, an embodiment, an idea, a mentor and a friend
it is a source of comfort and a method of coping with my pain
it has also become a goal and has been a blessing to my life
it's a way for me to feel connected to peace itself
and all the symbols of it in my life: nature, music, poetry etc.
a way to be a part of something so i have a home outside my own depressed mind.
my previous name, and what most know me as was, "almostefni" but i recently changed it to "efni" in order to appreciate my growth and to allow myself to learn how to walk in the embodiment of all that efni means to me.
