I WONDER IF DRINKING COULD CURE DEPRESSION. MAYBE ERASE ALL THE MEMORIES. CAUSE WERE ALL CHEWED UP AND SPIT OUT.  SITTING IN THE TUB AT 7:30 PM CLOTHES HEAVY HANGING ONTO MY BODY CLINGING TO ME LIKE ILL DISINAGRATE I WISH ID DISINAGRATE CAUSE THIS WATER ISNT HOT ENOUGH EVEN THOUGH MY SKIN IS RED IT CAN DROWND MY BODY BUT THE WORDS FLOAT ON THE SURFACE. PULLING ME BACK UP BACK UP BACK UP. JUST LET ME SLEEP IN THIS HELLISH OASIS, OASIS I LIKE THAT WORD. SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING A GIRL AND A GUY USE WHEN SPEAKING OF TRUE LOVE. I LET OUT A SOFT GIGGLE IT COMES OUT AS BUBBLES REACHING THE TOP FLEEING MY MOUTH. Hallelujah what is love hallelujah what is love hallelujah what is love?

I will yearn for you like the sun yearns for the moon everyday,
I will need you like the ocean needs the moon when the tide is low,
And if in this moment you all of you were to be lost like a light in the shadow,  I will have your memory...
It will not grow old bitter or cold,
It will not disinagrate or crumble,
If in fact you do leave me the memory of you will be plenty,
I will not replace you with another memory or even have you sold,
Your touch, the way you laugh the way you sang,
I will have you even if just a memory until the day I die,
It will glicen like the fall autum leaves in October and never will it change with the winter breez.