"becus" poems
Daniel,
Waktu panorama nyata cerah merona
Aku termenung dungu
Malu, cemas tak pernah begini
Atau entah pernah namun kulupa
Kala aku berlari menuju hilang
Cerah itu muncul, kupikir selesai semua
Berpapasan sosokmu, membelai pipimu
Ku tak becus
Yang terasa dijiwa makin bermakna
yang ada dihati makin berarti
Tak harap lebih berjumpa denganmu
Dimimpiku
Dipelaminan
Atau dirumah kita nanti
Rasa cintamu sudah cukup
Sungguh,
Terima kasih
Buatmu, 2017.
Sep 18, 2017
Sep 18, 2017 at 12:15 PM UTC
I just wanna see if I got it in me
if I can keep going and going
becus I've been surprising myself
With the new things I keep finding out
thought I knew all of me
some things I knew I was capable of
like love with my all
haven't did that since
well we won't speak of what's gone
but that's the whole point
I'm here, and understanding me
*** we're all lost souls
Til we find our way
I'm some hippie hopeless romantic
made of many galaxies
and there's nothing but star dust being blown off my unventured planets
Just keep shocking myself
and I thought I was finished loving myself
but there's more to love than ever before
and I couldn't be so thankful
for the mistakes I've made in my life
*** they've all brought me to this point
With still many years to come
Jan 22, 2014
Jan 22, 2014 at 11:00 AM UTC
what is lft
of th towring giants
metal skletons tht have
grwn brittle
wth age
but we cnnot retire thm
tke them dwn nd let them
rst in peace
becus we are sure
tht as long as the rmaining piecs
stay stnding
ther is smthing tht can
nvr die
Nov 3, 2012
Nov 3, 2012 at 3:07 PM UTC
Far out, and beyond, and within, the Diamond Jubilee is the Diamond Sutra.
The Diamond Sutra.
There were so many moments, back whenever it was, when I would stop and listen to the nothing that corrected itself thru my earbuds-- bloodflow, cloth-blank losers in a wanna-wantnot trance.
It was eons in the making. And so am I.
What is it you wish to do with your life? Find a happy little wife or a burly, gunsling husband, something to get married to so-as to reinforce the stereotypes? (becus stereotypes are the comfiest thought-houses to live in, hm!)
Do you wish for money money and a jobby job with Bishnu arms to paint the 'bigger picture' at quadruple the speed only two hands ever could?
I wish for tears! Tears and frustration and suicidal thoughts, with reprieve to mind-explosions every time I see or hear of something beautiful. Something aching and ***** little silver fish crawling in the soup I made with the blood and sweat of all my friends' indifference.
Apr 13, 2015
Apr 13, 2015 at 10:44 PM UTC
Let me set you down
Show why you why I've been a bad girl now.
Hormones chemically imbalanced
But extremely high in one area
I need some focus
Some concentration set on me
I'mma be all the way selfish
I just want you
To physically feel your
Hands, glide smoothly down my sides
Push open my thighs
Make my throbs cry.
Eyes, glued to pink flesh
Let me feed you, give you this plate
Smoother your mouth into it
Remind you how it tastes.
Supple ******* ready for your tongue dance
This is all that's in my thoughts.
Linked to every neuron, bring me euphoria.
Engulfed by my walls, every stroke is deeper
I'm your light, you're literally my dark
Kiss me hard and squeeze my ***
Oh God, **** me like I'm your last
Don't put any thinking into it
Just do it.
If you need to act to make it way
I don't care
Becus I'm being selfish anyways
Mar 4, 2016
Mar 4, 2016 at 5:02 PM UTC
aku kembali gagal-
mungkin manusia sepertiku tidak layak merasakan cinta,
bagaimana bisa harapan indah hilang begitu saja?
aku kembali gagal-
layaknya ditampar,
oh tuhan! apakah anda tidak ingin aku memiliki cinta?
aku kembali gagal-
pergilah katanya,
memang sepertinya hamba tidak cukup becus untuk merasakan cinta.
May 7, 2022
May 7, 2022 at 11:02 AM UTC