Wake up screaming in the night,
Constantly terrified by my own creation.
My brain knows exactly how to hurt me.

Shoot your words through me
make me quiver
please
take me down
and make me feel again.
Show me what it is to
burn in love.
I haven't felt in so long
it's an unbearable drone
a lifeless sensation as though
I'm just piloting a shell
of a body.
I don't remember the last
time it was that I itched with
passion
when  I was filled with emotion
and creativity that erupts from the hands
and the mouth
and the mind
and the soul.
It's been too long since I've felt
and now
I've got nothing left to
myself.
It has been much too long
since I've felt a thing.
Hurt me please.
Break me.
**** me.
I've got nothing left to
say.
I can't do this anymore.
I need inspiration.

I want you and me
out on my porch
wrapped up in a blanket
drinking hot chocolate
while we watch our breath
drift off in
the icy
air

It doesn't matter how far
it is that you may be

I want to see your
little quirks as
you sip at your cocoa
while I melt into
the way you speak

Then I begin to wonder
how soft your lips are
and if I dare to find out


Let's kiss until our lips are chapped
and our fingers are numb
and our eyes sting from
the oncoming chill

I dare to find out
only if you dare let me

I want to put on that old record
and have it scratch and pop
slowly and warmly through
the night

Let's dance
and hold each other close
keeping one another's heart
in the dim light of the evening

You take off my glasses
and I reach for you
in that darkness of
shapes

You grab me
and let me know
it's okay
as we stumble to the
couch
and you pull me close

Where we stay up until dawn
because I want you to know
that it's not just a dream
and I won't lose you

As you press your lips to my ear
and tell me that
you can hear my every word

We lay here in the dark; face to face, half asleep, completely alive. There is no sound besides our breathing, nothing exists except our bodies entangled together. Your fingertips knead the bottom of my back and I trace my fingers across the path of your spine. We wait and wait and wait and it happens. Your lips find mine the same moment mine find yours. We become lost in each other, our mouths connecting until we feel our minds, our hearts, our souls connecting. You pull me on top of your body and we hold each other there, continuing to kiss until our lungs are full. Your breathing is heavy and longing and it sounds like music in my ears and I kiss your neck gently as a silent thank you, as a silent 'I love you'. You roll me effortlessly on to my back and you tower over me. You delicately brush the hair out of my face and look at me like I am beautiful and in this moment I feel beautiful. You press your lips to mine once again, a sense of urgency in the way you move, a sense of desperation. You begin gently kissing my throat and I throw my head back and in this moment I know that I have given myself to you and I am yours and it's the best thing that's ever happened to me. In this moment I know that I love you with all I have.