I have spent too much time
Crying over what can not be
I have wasted my life away
just hoping you would see

Looking back over the years
Thinking of all that I've done
Yet still on this day...
Its as if we've just begun

I did everything that I could
to prove my worth to you.
And this is how you repay me?
This is what you do?!

I kept on thinking to myself
One day I'll get what I deserve
And yet, here we are...
You've really got some nerve...

You treat me like I'm trash
Then tell me to "get over it"
You fill me with disgust
Now I'm here to say "I quit..."

I'm so done being here
And as I move on I know
In the near future you'll regret it.
You'll wish you never let me go.

For quite a lot of time now
I’ve had this little dream
That the world would come together
And all work as a team

Imagine how much we could fix
If we all just helped each other
If we could learn to trust a stranger
And greet him as a brother

Imagine the tragedies that we could end
Homelessness, hunger, and war
If we all just took a minute
To help those who are poor

If we just tried to understand
Those who have a different view
Its possible we’ll be enlightened
And learn things we never knew

I’ve seen first hand what can happen
When people work as one
It brings joy and happiness
And we can get anything done

So I will dedicate myself
To doing lots of good
To make a difference in this life
And do what others should

I might just be one person
But I have the heart of three
I’m going to change the world
Just you wait and see

My heart has never felt this way
For anyone but you
I had given up on the idea of love
Until into my life you flew

You came into my life
Like a burning fire storm
Your energy was intoxicating
And your touch was always warm

So easily I fell in love
With your light that burned so bright
But it made it so I was blind to see
That something wasn’t right

Things were not as perfect
As I had let myself believe
But I’d caught a glimpse of a happy future
That I’d sacrifice anything to achieve

I constantly made the choice
Between loosing you or who I am
I let you burn away what made me me
And you still didn’t give a ****

Because you were doing the same
Burning away pieces of who you were
Doing whatever you could to impress
The new person you’d grown to prefer

I thought that you loved me too
But I guess I was naive
Cuz within a year of our last kiss
You’d be packing bags to leave

With your head up in the clouds
You flew off to live your new dream
You had found a new partner in crime
And I was once again a one man team.

Now there’s something I need to confess
I loved you more than you ever knew
But I will not cry for you anymore my love
Because you took my heart with you

So if you see me shed a tear
Its not over the severed ties
‘Cuz now the flames have all burnt out
And the smoke is in my eyes

I am sick of this plague
That haunts my mind
I'm tired of this fear
Which keeps me confined

For as long as I can remember
My self esteem has been low
I've had this fear of failure
That I just couldn't let go

It held me back for so long
The constant doubts in my head
I hid inside myself forever
And I started to feel dead

So afraid that I would fail
I never even tried
With no hopes of success
I set my dreams aside

But tonight I am done
I'm saying "***** you fear"
I'm following my dreams
The hiding ends here

So what if I mess up
Ill never know till I try
Today I suspend my doubt
I spread my wings and fly.

Everyone has a someone
That's like their other half
Someone they can be with
A person to make them laugh

Everyone has a someone
Who can make them feel good
When they've had bad days
Or felt misunderstood

Everyone has a person
With which, they share their life
For some its a best friend
For others its their wife

Whenever I look around
It is all that I can see
People with their someone
As happy as can be

But here I sit alone
Feeling lost at sea
Everyone has a someone
Everyone but me.

With every move I make
It's dieing to break free
It's trying to find a way
To take over me

As it rushes through me
I feel it take control
It has some sort of grip on me
Like I'm its little doll

I try to fight it back
With happy thoughts and ideas
But it is all no use
I am trapped by my fears.

I've stopped living for myself
I've stopped trying to be me
I don't know who I am
Or even who I should be

My opinions aren't my own
Just words drilled in my head
Always present, always there
Always filling me with dread

I sometimes wish I could go back
To how things used to be
But I know how these people are
And they've never liked me for me

I guess there's no turning back now
And I'll just have to move on
And just hope that some day
I'll find where I belong.

Whenever something happens
Whether its good or its sad
My first thought is still to call you
But that would probably be bad

I cant help but wonder though
What you would do
If I picked up the phone
While I was thinking about you

Would you answer and be happy
Would we work everything out
Would we sit there and wonder
What our fight was even about

Would you answer and be angry
Would we yell...would we shout...
When we hung up the phone
Would I be left without any doubt

If I picked up the phone
Would you just ignore my call
Would you leave me to cry
Would you not care at all

Has it been too long
Since all those things were said
Would it just be pointless
Should I put this from my head

I still have to wonder
If I should just try
Could I possibly make it worse
Than the day we said goodbye?

Today is the day
I abandoned my hope
Today I stopped climbing
This unbeaten *****

It was silly to think
that I might be successful
'Cuz this rigged competition
is nothing but stressful

All of my dreams
And all my desires
They've all been abandoned
Thrown into the fires

What point is there in fighting
When the war is already lost
While the other side is celebrating
And I'm left here in the frost

I lost my grip on the hill
And I quickly started to fall
I tried to cry out for help
But no one heard my call

Now I'm stuck at the bottom
Of some deep and dark well
Trying to tread water
At the icy mouth of hell

Slowly
                   *Sinking