I'm scared
I can feel it in every tremor of my hand
And every whimper and shallow breath from my throat
For the first time in my life
I don't know what to do
My thoughts are useless and they tell me lies
I could scream but it wouldn't matter
I can see you in every tear in my eye
This might mean goodbye
Should I t-tell h-?
Cutting my breath off with a choked sob
This is the first real risk I've taken
And I can't do it
I've always told myself I am fearless
But you are terrifing
And I'm shaking and crying
Not tonight, not tonight
*Tonight. . . tonight. . .

These blocks are thick

I cannot see through

Tip o' the tongue

Far from the eye



Oh! But then begins
flourishing thoughts
like a...
             like a...
                          like a...

That's all there is.

Empty bottles. Cigarette butts.
Invisible stains of passion
And the scent of you
all over my body
to remind me
Of one night-
and that's all there is.

Pink and blue
laced with memories of you
coming full circle
to where we were
but everything is so
Different from what I remember.
Warm earth turns to cold, gunmetal steel
the boy I once knew
Is a new man
that I'm trying to know again.
that boy on the shore
has grown up.

And I guess I've been
chasing memories all this time
and this would be the last time
I would bleed for them.

It really takes losing everything
you've ever wanted
to be finally free.

Soreness in my limbs.
That's all there is.
fleeting as it is, a memory
waiting to be wrought anew.
It is enough for now.
And maybe enough for the nights to come.
One night was all there was.
One night that is only,
truly ours.