I can't force it anymore
it's like standing at a closed door
waiting for more
always wanting you more

miles keep our souls apart
but they can't keep your promises for
you
you're constantly breaking my heart
when we're making love we're making art

never got to see how ours
would look running around
but we ran our mouths
until the words ran out

and the hurt poured out
like a water spout
and now my heart's full of doubt
it's like our love fell to drought

overcomplicated something that should've been so straightforward
love should've been the only thing that kept us going
it's only you I still crave on a day-to-day basis
but our daydreams never fully made it

you were never one to confess to
you were never one to express to
your reactions made me too stressed to
so I expected less and less from you
til there wasn't much left to do
except admit that we weren't one but two

even when I'm happy, I'm sad
because my subconscious somehow knows how your absence leaves me physically cold
and so even on eight consecutive good days,
there's always underlying depression because you're not the reason
and I know that if you were,
the level of joy wouldn't even compare
because it would be so much more

every season has a different excuse
for why i should be happy
and makes me feel guilty if im not.
i have the same reason year-round to be sad.
but then again,
you're my reason for everything.

I hope you know
I'm going to drop acid
as an attempt to drop my love for you.
I was just wondering:
what did you do with my heart now that we're done?
I hope you know
I'm going to **** meaninglessly
to try to forget what you taste like.
I was just wondering:  
am I just a part of your past now?      
I hope you know
I'm going to swallow my sobs with pills
and wash them down with colorful poisons.
I was just wondering:
do you really think I'm making it without you?
I hope you know
my head will always be filled with smoke
to fog out the scenes of us on the beach.
I was just wondering:
if you ever compare them to me?
I hope you know
I'm going to ruthlessly create chaos in other men's spirits
and from now on I'm going to be the one that loves less
because broken hearts break hearts
to try to gain what they lost.

I hope you know
you're the only one who can stop me.

one day I'm going to wake up
and realize that trying to live life without you is pointless
because I'm immune to the pretty sedatives and toxic liquids now
I'll give up completely
and do something you'll regret
but it will be too late for you to realize
I will walk the 300 miles to your house
I will follow you into battle
I will wait the four years for you in loneliness
I will promise you my soul
I will **** myself for you
and now I have killed myself because of you

Lonely star,
You used to shine so bright,
Now you merely exist-
A sad flicker in a dark sky.
Your holy garments
That saturated your soul,
Faded and blurred away from the core
Have now been rendered and torn
And left you with only tears.
What happened to your galaxy glory?
Your darling broke your heart
And took your sparkle for his journey.
And now you are nothing but a lonely star.