sometimes
i get a new notebook
and i feel like
i have to get to know it
before i can write in it
properly

sometimes
i just see a notebook
and i want to
pour my heart out
onto its pages

i don't know why.

it's just a gut feeling

do you ever get that feeling
where you want something
to happen
so bad
that it hurts?

it's terrible.

and it happens to me
every day.

not because it's hot,
because the air feels really thick.

i don't like it.

i feel like i am
drowning
very very slowly.

i don't know how
i can
physically deal
with how hot
you are

i thought
i would have
melted
by now

physical weight
emotional weight

it's all something significant

sometimes
things just happen
out of the blue.

you never see them coming,
never know how to react.

i hadn't seen you
for a while

so when i saw you last week
it hit me all over again

how ******* adorable you are
how charming you are
how you space your words
in the most delightful way
imaginable


how i can never quite tell
whether you like me or not