but
my blankets are so cozy and warm
and the world out there is so harsh and cold

i don't want to get up.

wool socks
fuzzy pj pants
too-big sweater
scarf
messy bun
notebook
music

this is my favorite sort of night

noises don't come through properly
when you aren't quite awake

muffled grumbles and mumbles
that's all you can hear

hopefully you can block them out
and sleep those extra few minutes

fuzzy

that's how it feels

like the static on an old tv

a sort of
cshhhh noise
and
black and white pixels
moving all around

that's what it feels like

past the point of just plain tired
past stupidity
past being hyper
past crashing

now it's just a general looming feeling
hanging over you

it doesn't go away.

you can tell by their eyes.
the way they look at you.

even if it is just a passing glance from
a stranger on the street

you can tell.

i've had fluttery things in my stomach
all day
because of you

i get so nervous.
everyone else, i can deal with.
easily.
so easily.

but you,
you're different

i get that feeling
whenever you say so much as
say a word to me

nevermind
talking to me in the hallway
then texting me after school
and keeping it going
for hours

i don't know what to do
i can't deal with this
what am i supposed to do?