With life’s experiences and my resilience to relationships as my own defense.
I can't help but ponder out a space so numb, I'm surprised that I feel at all!
Listening of things said in others relationships and worst of all the feeble lies told!
My ******* meter or shitemeter goes of the charts!
With much regret and a skin crawling decision of staying out of others business!
I realise!
Yes the hurtfull lies can damage!
But that be not for that they have any strength!
It is only the narrow sightedness of those who allow themselves to be that weak! To trust and believe what people say! Having said that certain people should be by default trust worthy! And excuses will be just that excuses!
Lies fashioned to mascarade as reasons for their actoins! Well mostly id say these are just scape goats they use to avoid the truth and not take ownership of their actions!
And they wont, and mostly the person on the receiving end of this is either bad mouthed and most likely even convinced that its all their fault or doing!  (deflection)
Yeah one word comes to mind, whimps!
Yes ***** spineless whimps that would rather emotionally scar or abuse a kind persons generosity or many other scenarios they they use to get themselves ahead, well at least they think, ahead!
Their words are as their hearts, frail and soon to wither away!

WELL!
You can slander my name to all!
Say hurtfull things to me!
Or of me!

But without any substance it will hold no weight!
So I get to take one thing away from this all.

THERE IS NOTHING STRONGER THAN THE TRUTH!
NOR WEAKER THAN A LIE!
Happy not just a state of mind, for it be a place
Oh so much so it’s a place, a time, a destination and a goal
It be where we should reside

When you walk into my home I want you to feel it!
When you look at me my heart will show it! For happy is where my heart resides!

Happy I need for me first!
If those that hearts are set in unhappiness they need know it remains their choice!

My Happiness is mine! no one else can steal it or navigate it!
I am the captain of this ship!

Oh happiness is mine!
I own it’s title deed

As a lush garden I aim to keep it in bloom!
So who ever should visit even a fleeting moment in my life! Should know happiness be mine!
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Jesus shines through You!

It is in your smile!
Or the way you just are!
As a dad, I see what a mom truly is!
But not just a mom, You are!
No a Mom who has Jesus!

God Gave You beauty!
Beyond any to compare!
This be not only apearence!
No a small role that would play!
No a Mom who has Jesus!
Be radiantly aglow!

Thank you Lord Jesus for Moms
Be it  their loving touch
Or the kindness they bear
A raginging lioness to shelter her children from any dispair!
Her lifes second purpose be her little darlings with the most loving care!
But first she seeks Jesus

His footsteps she follows
For no other as selfless
As our King Jesus Christ !
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Stress ticks over inside of me, as if mechanically part of me!
And these shacking hands be that of a chronometer!
How many times have i heard,
“It will all be ok!”
I think much kinder words have been spoken!
As if they hold no part of this drastic itinerary!
Then!
Mindfully i say!
COPE!

BREATHE
Smell take it all in!
Its not all decay!
There are roses too!

Listen
Oh, hear the beautifull song as the sparrow gayly chirps, his thanks to life!

Sight!
Open my eyes!
Drink in all its beauty!

Touch!
Feel the world with all my senses!
As air rushes over me!

Its all alive!

And I’m part of this great creation!

Im alive!

Oh

Thank you Jesus!
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A struggle! so just keeping it together!
Flustered and torn!
Lonely if I don’t reach out!
Emotions run through me like riptides in a vicious squall!
Not sure whether to run or hide!
Or what or where to next!
First thing everyone has always said just breathe!
Yeah if I did that from the start!
Wouldn’t burn to do just that, just breathe!
Reality kicks in, no worries I squander my soul on! can change the outcome of others choices!
Besides
I need to take ownership of my actions and face the consequences!
That needn’t render me powerless though!
For i still, have prayer!
And i am a great person!
And aim to be so much more!
I just need to show everyone i remember how to be me!
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A country singer strums his guitar as his lyrics leave me swallowing lumps!

“ Sitting in the dark all night fighting shadows,
And the urge to call you up hits me like an arrow.
It ain't the whiskey talking or the loneliness I'm feeling.
It's the memories, all the little things, that keep me from healing.
I'd give up all the days I got left on this earth,
'Cause without you I don't know what they're worth; no.
I'd give it all for you, if you'd let me.
This heart don't have a home without you in it; no.
I'd stand before you, as a man who's been broken.
Truer words never spoken.”

Yeah as if from my pen and only him singing!
I said it before but I can’t help this feeling!
But love you!
I always will!
Happy not just a state of mind, for it be a place
Oh so much so it’s a place, a time, a destination and a goal
It be where we should reside

When you walk into my home I want you to feel it!
When you look at me my heart will show it! For happy is where my heart resides!

Happy I need for me first!
If those that hearts are set in unhappiness they need know it remains their choice!

My Happiness is mine! no one else can steal it or navigate it!
I am the captain of this ship!

Oh happiness is mine!
I own it’s title deed

As a lush garden I aim to keep it in bloom!
So who ever should visit even a fleeting moment in my life! Should know happiness be mine!
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