To my Beautiful treasures, I don't deserve!
My Three princesses, you are flawless next to me!
So pure and true!
For you, I carry on through life with all its let downs!
I have to persevere!  
God gave me three blessings I don't deserve!
Many a letdown Dad I've been!
A feeble dad I know!
But I resound my love to you!
For the only love im allowed to keep!
Every time I enter relationships, I only land up hurting! Either myself or the other person!
So to you and my God, I’ll have forever!
Please forgive my somewhat hopeless attempts at times, but if not for you my heart is spent!
Love you with all my heart as feeble as it may be!
As simple as I might act and not do enough!
Call enough or even be enough!
I love you!
Beyond my selfish pain!
And I’ll do my utmost to hurt you never again!

Oh!
You might find them feeble!
You might see a lie!
Yet more true words never spoken!
Oh yes!
My life without you is like an arid lifeless desert!
Where once a beautiful Paradise thrived!
Now only tumbleweed to blow on by!
They be the people I put this mask on each day to portray a person!
Who be somewhat normal!
However!
I be not a person anymore!
No!
All that be left this lifeless shell
Yes, no more an empty shell of longing!
Longing for what was once the only happiness I’d want for!
Yes you might see it as feeble!
But ill love you till the day I die!
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I am now spent to my core with no way out or no way forward or wherever,
Cant say whats next, but is there a next?
Cant see it!
Tried to find it!
Dont know how to look!
Do i even want to look!
Do even want a next!
Next what breath?
Humiliation?
Emotion?
Meal?
I cant want for any!
Dont want to anymore!

From one of our greatest writers of all time, a extremely real quote of the heart brings me to pen.
Time is very slow for those who wait.
Very fast for those who are scared.
Very long for those who lament.
Very short for those who celebrate.
But for those who Love time is eternal!
”William Shakespeare”

Wow my hearts aglow in thoughts of you!
For i know to my last breath i will love you with all my heart and soul!
To think Eternal Wow it needn't cease there at my mere mortality!
Wow no i can say i will love you forever!
Mean and its not flawed!
My love for you is True!
Is pure!
Is forever learning!
Is selfless!
Is unique!
Is exclusive!
Wow and now i get to promise legendary!

It’s Time!
Time to stand up stop wallowing in this grief!
Stand fast in Faith asking Gods hand to make me the better man!
The one she’ll see as whom she can rely!
She can Trust!
Believe in!
Look up to!
See honor in!
Find strength in!
(Although such a strong person hardly needed)
I know my greatest strength lies within my faith!
For through Gods work, my heart will be to a honest compass!
So now I dedicate this day and many to come to You my Daddy, oh steer my life!
Help me be the the humble servant you need of your child!
I pray my Lord my soul to keep!
As I take my direction from being trapped in earthly ways!
Teach me Jesus I pray !

Sorry
Think i lost this one hopelesly
The fight be done!
Yes you sad insipid strugle im done with you!
Oh but only missery to spew!
Damaged i cant recover!
I cant fix this thing!
Oh was it ever mine to have !
Sorry
Not as it be said but for who actually depend and rely on me!
My true failure!
Not going to be there!
Not much to depend on anyhow!
Sorry!
Comfortably Numb

Wish I was more!
Wish I could have wowed her so that no fight could be to much!
Wish I made that much more of a difference in her life that I’d be the one!
I wish that a misunderstood truth was explained in detail! And not me seen as a liar!
I wish i didt even have this insignificant past ro be questioned!
Oh if only i wish!  
I wish I wish I wish
Hmmm obviously time has proven I am not anyone’s person that valuable! For wishes like these!
A reality I’ll have to somehow learn to live with!
Sadly i hope somehow there is hope but that seems to be just my silly wishfulness alone!
i wish i wish i wish