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Vivienne Luong Jan 2014
If there's one thing
I learned this year it would be
that even though my family is
dysfunctional and  I question
their actions sometimes
I wouldn't grow without them.
Each and every one of them continue
teaching me to be a better person,
to be more caring and more selfless.

They are the reason why I laughed so
much in 2013.
Last poem of 2013. Enjoy! HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE!
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
If you want me to listen, I will listen
but don't think I won't say how I feel,
because I will, and I won't be sorry.
I'm only trying to help, and if you're
used to sugarcoat answers then be my
guest at living a life full of avoiding
truths instead of accepting them.
Vivienne Luong Sep 2014
A month ago we started to distant, and around that
time, the picture of us fell down.
I never really thought much of it, but as days
passed by it kept falling, whereas the other pictures stayed .
As our friendship just kept getting more distant
it fell for the last time, and I decided to put it
away in my memory box, because you're just a memory now,
And I'm not trying to keep our friendship going anymore.
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
Not getting attached is all
part of an act,
it's hard to keep up, and
kind of scary
to think that one day it
won't be an
act anymore, it'll just be my mind
thinking that
this is how I'm supposed
to be.
Vivienne Luong Jan 2014
She knows that he is
bad yet she only wants to
see the good in him.
Haiku!
Vivienne Luong Jan 2014
Your goodbyes are
as empty
as your
soul.
Vivienne Luong Apr 2014
I care and
love people
more than
they deserve
and more
than they
realize.
But I
won't stop
because it's
not in
my nature
and I
can't tell
whether that's
a good
or bad
thing.
Vivienne Luong May 2014
Just like pictures
the way we see things
isn't how they're captured.
Vivienne Luong Jan 2014
Can we
both have
another chance?
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
I still remember parts of
you that nobody knows
anymore
They were what made
you, you.
And that's the sad thing
about growing is that people change,
good or bad.
Idk if that made any sense but here ya go!
Vivienne Luong Nov 2013
Don't you dare
tell me people
can't change because
they do, good
or bad.
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
Just stop talking.
I don't understand.
Your words are just
mumbling in my head.
Nothing makes sense right now.
Leave me alone.
Nothing you say will
help just give me space.
Vivienne Luong Sep 2013
Losing sleep.
Losing our minds.
The positivity and optimism, gone.

But the one thing that stays is
the insanity in our heads.

We lose ourselves everyday
but the one thing that doesn’t
change is the thing that replaced us.
Vivienne Luong Dec 2013
Cold skin
Cold lips
Untouchable
Cold eyes
Cold heart
Unlovable
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
Being content is the such a
relieving feeling because
I'm no longer unhappy, but actually
okay with how things are.
And I don't feel stuck,
I feel free.
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
People only lie when
they're guilty.

And you just lied.
To everyone, you're
someone who is
never at fault.
To me,
you're a **** coward,
too afraid to admit the
truth.
Vivienne Luong May 2013
She was daydreaming again,
and that was the most dangerous
thing she could do, but she
couldn’t help but be happy for
a minute or a two, she was desperate,
desperate to leave this so called
life of hers.

She daydreamed about the
noise in her house full of her
parents laughter instead of
angry voices, or silence because they
had nothing to say instead of
silence with tension.

She daydreamed about her sister
living past June because the doctors
say she will die soon.

She daydreamed that her brother would
stop drinking every night to numb the
the pain away because alcohol
doesn’t drain it away, it stays and drowns
you until you can’t breathe.

She daydreamed that she could leave
this so called life of hers.
Vivienne Luong Dec 2014
One by one death is putting people to "peace"
and those close, in pain.
Although I'm usually not close to some one
who passes away, I'm always in disbelief and confused.
I fear that someone close will soon pass,
and I will lose control.
and there's a certain time in everyone's life where
they're expected to except death, but why should I?
death gives me nothing but thought that will never be solved.
Vivienne Luong Jul 2013
It's as if people have already found
their destination,
and I’m here still trying to
figure out the map.
Vivienne Luong Nov 2013
I'm too passionate,
and quite honestly it *****.
Vivienne Luong Jul 2013
You think that people
are against you and you blame
them but yourself.
Haiku 2
Vivienne Luong Sep 2013
Barely anyone is happy anymore.
It's like smiles and laughters don't exist,
they have become extinct.
And this loneliness and unhappiness is overpopulating.
Vivienne Luong Jul 2013
They say that the eyes
show through the soul
but when I look into yours
there’s nothing,
just an emotionless human being.

As if someone took your soul
and masked it with a black curtain
so no one can see through you.

Maybe that’s a good thing, because
if some people knew what was behind
it, they would be frightened by the truth and
their ignorance
which is…
you’re
not
perfect.
Vivienne Luong Apr 2014
I want to hug her and protect her
but the truth is the world is an
evil place and even the people we
hold close to our hearts will hurt us
and make us weak.

That word "fat" she gets called everyday
will destroy her mentally and all I can do
is tell her it's not true and hope that she's trusts me.

I've been in those shoes, I still am and for a ****
8 year old to be going through this is so disturbing to me.

She acted like she didn't care when I brought it
up, but once I showed her i genuinely care, she opened up.
No one should be called names on their body, no one.
Yet everyone does it.
Kind of all over the place but personal.
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
Eyes are my weakness
so when you tell me you're
sorry and that you love me
do me a favor and
don't force me to look up into
them because I will fall for
you again, causing me to have
a broken heart who still think there's
truth in your apology.
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
She used to be so fearless
even the thought of rejection
didn't scare her.
The thought of embarrassment
was just whatever to her.

But now everything's different.
When did everything change and why?
Vivienne Luong Aug 2013
Thank you for staying this long.
You don't realize how good it feels
For these words to leave my mouth.
You sure are something special.
Sorry I haven't written in a long time!
Vivienne Luong Oct 2013
Things never go as planned
yet we are told to plan this future
that may or may not work out.

We are told to do certain things
that will help in the future
but we’re not even sure what the
future is.

Things never go as planned
but maybe it leads to
something better.
Vivienne Luong May 2014
When glass falls it makes
this sharp yet beautiful sound
But then look at the ground
and it's all shattered and broken,
no longer whole.
No longer useful.
Vivienne Luong May 2014
Hands are so genuine.
Think about it, exam it.
They're like eyes, they show emotion
without having to say anything.

Hand holding, grabbing,
Pushing, caressing,
Lingering.

These all have different meanings,
Caring, ******, anger, tempting, and desperation.
Vivienne Luong Nov 2013
Hush they say.
Dang, why are you so harsh they ask?
Why are you so blunt?
How come you don’t have a filter?

Why do I speak up?
I’ve lived with sugar coats
Been around “white lies”
Seen a lot of miscommunication.

I was ******* tired of it.

The truth hurts but it doesn’t hurt as
much as figuring out why you weren’t
important enough for the truth.
The truth hurts but sometimes
its what people need to hear.
personal.
Vivienne Luong Aug 2014
And here we go again crossing paths.
We leave and somehow always meet again.
I believe that there's some kind of message,
but you can't seem to read it.
Vivienne Luong May 2013
When I was younger and I got hurt,
a kiss from my parents would
make the pain go away.
Now when I get hurt,
nothing can fix the aches
and pains in my heart.
No kiss can repair the damage
because emotional pain is
far worse than physical pain.
No kiss can repair the damage
because his kiss was the one
that made me fall
and break to pieces.
Vivienne Luong Aug 2013
I think once we grow up we start to
hate how are family is.
We love certain people in it but
family as a whole is so dysfunctional.
So broken so empty.
Instead of wanting to go
home we want to run away.
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
When he was first born his
parents looked at him like the
most precious human being, because he
was in their eyes.

When he was five he didn’t like to play
with cars instead he liked fashion.
His parents just thought it was because
he had sisters so, they just brushed it off.

When he was ten he had a
friend his name was Tom.
His parents were relieved he made a
friend since he was alone most of the time
and didn’t like to associate with other people.

Now, standing at the age of seventeen
he told his parent he liked men
and was dating Tom.
He was hoping they would be happy
for them; instead
they looked at him no longer precious
but disgusted.

They blamed him, and asked how he could
do this to their family.

How?

How could a parent blame their child for something they can’t control?
Vivienne Luong May 2014
Sometimes communication
can be such a hard thing to do.
How do you explain
"I'm sorry, I pushed you away, come back"
How do you explain
that I love you but I can't bring
myself to say it because I'm terrified.
How do you explain
something that you regret
but meant at that exact moment.
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
Humans are the only species
that care about
time
money
and self image
and with all of this
we seem to have everything but
happiness.
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
Once again I'm in this
state of mind that just hates
the way I look.
I just want to yell at myself
for looking like this
and then for acting stupid,
I shouldn't be hating myself.
But I do. And I can't stop.
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
I see things realistically,
and if you don't like that,
I'm not sorry that you're
living in a dream full of lies.

I say things the way they should be said,
And if you don't like that,
I'm not sorry that I'm the only person
who doesn't sugar coat and
tell things the way you want to hear them.

This is me, and if you don't like
it, leave.
Simple as that.
Vivienne Luong Oct 2013
Millions of things she wanted to say.
Millions of things going through her head.

I love you.

I hate you.

Both were true, love was more of
what she felt but she blurted
“I hate you.”
because she would
rather seem strong than vulnerable and
that was terrifying because she
pushed people away just so
people couldn’t see the side she
was too stubborn to show
but people longed to see.
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
Throughout high school I have
had a 3.0 GPA average and I
thought that was the greatest I could do.

I was wrong. Junior year, "the hardest year."
I agree. But here I am proudly saying
I got a 3.7. I worked my *** off to get to this
point.
I almost just want to cry.  I always thought I'd
be a failure.
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
When we were kids some
told us that we were not allowed
to have an imagination, that it wasn’t
realistic.

Some thought differently, that
it was a place to make us
happy, a place to free our minds.

As we grew older we don’t know
who was right because our imaginations
only lead to disappointments.

We imagined we would be happy,
instead we’re more sad, angry
and confused.

We imagined people wouldn’t leave
but they do.

But it’s just our imagination,
It’s not realistic.
ehh, what do you think?
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
When people ask how I am
I usually reply truthfully.
But lately I realized I blurt that
I am good, I’m doing fine when
honestly I’m not doing okay.
I’m constantly so angry, so doubtful,
so impatient.
I just want to scream.
Yell
Punch
It makes me mad
that I’m lying to myself telling
people I’m “good”
because I’m not.
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
I have good intentions,
I swear I didn't mean to mess things up,
I'm sorry.

But you've heard it so many
times it sounds like lies,
like I'm wearing
a disguise but you
need to realize
that I'm trying.

I'm trying.

But that isn't enough
because it's tough
to forgive someone
who has broken your trust.
Vivienne Luong May 2014
You know you're at a point
of insanity
when you're so overwhelmed
you start laughing like a madman.
When nothing's funny but you still
keep laughing.
You're going insane,
and there's no way to stop it.
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
We fight for titles, don't want the labels.
Want the fame but not the troubles
but in the end we're all the same,
dead and underground.

Still with all of that, we strive
to make the best out of it.
Vivienne Luong Nov 2014
"I promise" is something
I never say because it is nothing
That I am sure of.
Circumstances change, things change,
Feelings change.
These things I have no control over,
so if you ever ask me to promise you something,
I'm sorry but I can't.
Vivienne Luong May 2014
I miss a lot of people.
Is it selfish to say that
I hope they miss me too?
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
Maybe we change because that’s
the way it’s supposed to be.

Is it really our fault we change?

I mean we have people who
play with our hearts
and they play with our minds
like they’re games.

We have people who make us
better but leave, so we act
different.

Then we have events in our life
that traumatize us
so I ask again,
is it really our fault?
Vivienne Luong Aug 2014
They judge how you live,
and once you're dead,
they judge how you died.
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