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396 · Jun 2013
Saying Goodbye
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
Saying goodbye isn’t the hard part.

The hard part is the after affect
where I finally realize that they’re gone,
out of my presence.

The hardest part is when I keep
wondering if they miss me as much as I
do and then I suddenly convince
myself that they don’t
because nobody
ever cares as much as I do
and I wish and hope that one day
someone will.

Oh, I really do hope
someday someone will…
395 · May 2014
My conscience
Vivienne Luong May 2014
Its funny because you get bothered
by people who only focus on the
negative things you do rather than your success.
They pick apart everything but when you do
something right, a word is never mentioned.
But see darling,  you need to stop
being a hypocrite, because you do the same.
You dont realize it but you do. You beat yourself up
but never commend yourself when you should.
Note to self
392 · Feb 2014
Punch the punching bag
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
Hands hurting, shaking.
Punch. Punch. Punch.
Don't cry anymore.
You're strong ******.
Just punch.
385 · Oct 2013
Tell Me
Vivienne Luong Oct 2013
Tell me writing is not a talent
and I will show you what it's
like to read exactly how you
feel but could not express it.

Tell me poetry is boring
and I will captivate you with
words that will get you hooked
more than drugs ever will.

Tell me quotes aren't important
and I will write quotes that
will make you re evaluate your
life in a better way.

Tell me writing is a waste of time
and I will show you all the people
who have been
touched or inspired.
382 · Jun 2013
How?
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
When he was first born his
parents looked at him like the
most precious human being, because he
was in their eyes.

When he was five he didn’t like to play
with cars instead he liked fashion.
His parents just thought it was because
he had sisters so, they just brushed it off.

When he was ten he had a
friend his name was Tom.
His parents were relieved he made a
friend since he was alone most of the time
and didn’t like to associate with other people.

Now, standing at the age of seventeen
he told his parent he liked men
and was dating Tom.
He was hoping they would be happy
for them; instead
they looked at him no longer precious
but disgusted.

They blamed him, and asked how he could
do this to their family.

How?

How could a parent blame their child for something they can’t control?
381 · Aug 2014
Here we go again
Vivienne Luong Aug 2014
And here we go again crossing paths.
We leave and somehow always meet again.
I believe that there's some kind of message,
but you can't seem to read it.
380 · Mar 2015
What I keep telling myself
Vivienne Luong Mar 2015
So I guess this year is really
just about letting go.
Friendships, they just eventually go.
It's sad, it is but if they can't last, they can't.
That's just how life is.
Fight temptation because it's a waste of energy.
370 · Jul 2013
Vanished
Vivienne Luong Jul 2013
Forgetting is scary
One day you remember everything,
favorite memories
people
books
music
and you try so hard not to forget
these things and people that mean so much
but then they just vanish from your mind , like they never existed
when it was once so cherished
and sometimes its not even your fault
and that's the most scariest thing.
You can read this just about forgetting but this is also about Alzheimer Disease.
363 · Nov 2014
"I promise"
Vivienne Luong Nov 2014
"I promise" is something
I never say because it is nothing
That I am sure of.
Circumstances change, things change,
Feelings change.
These things I have no control over,
so if you ever ask me to promise you something,
I'm sorry but I can't.
361 · Aug 2013
Home
Vivienne Luong Aug 2013
I think once we grow up we start to
hate how are family is.
We love certain people in it but
family as a whole is so dysfunctional.
So broken so empty.
Instead of wanting to go
home we want to run away.
355 · Jul 2014
Strangers
Vivienne Luong Jul 2014
If I knew that this was how
we were going to end up
I wouldn't have wasted so much
time believing that we were
meant to be in each other's lives.
Instead, you walked out as if
we have never met.
346 · Dec 2013
Unconditional
Vivienne Luong Dec 2013
Unconditional meaning
never ending, always,
no matter what.

Never ending love

Always caring

No matter what came
to us

So when you betrayed
my trust
And gave me no reason
to forgive,
I still loved you
Still cared, no matter what.
342 · May 2013
Stupid Girl
Vivienne Luong May 2013
Oh, stupid, stupid girl.
How you believed that boy changed.
With his sweet words, you fell for him again.

But he didn’t change, he lied, and you
believed that he wanted you
but after he left, he put you in misery,
making you over think.
And that’s exactly what he wanted.
Stupid, stupid girl, how he had you fooled.
333 · Feb 2014
If you don't like that
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
I see things realistically,
and if you don't like that,
I'm not sorry that you're
living in a dream full of lies.

I say things the way they should be said,
And if you don't like that,
I'm not sorry that I'm the only person
who doesn't sugar coat and
tell things the way you want to hear them.

This is me, and if you don't like
it, leave.
Simple as that.
331 · May 2013
Untitled
Vivienne Luong May 2013
You are like a Piano,
you can be loud yet quite,
but if I sat down and learned
your language I would know that
you are beautiful both ways.
Loud but powerful and captivating,
quite yet intriguing and peaceful.
You speak with beautiful words,
people don’t know that
you’re shadowing those beautiful words with your pain.
kinda eh, about this. Tell me what you think?
330 · Jun 2013
Still
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
People always leave
yet here I am
still getting attached
still surprised
still disappointed
and still haven't learned.
328 · Feb 2014
I'm trying
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
I have good intentions,
I swear I didn't mean to mess things up,
I'm sorry.

But you've heard it so many
times it sounds like lies,
like I'm wearing
a disguise but you
need to realize
that I'm trying.

I'm trying.

But that isn't enough
because it's tough
to forgive someone
who has broken your trust.
324 · Apr 2014
Simple yet catastrophic.
Vivienne Luong Apr 2014
Seeing past acquaintances and I smile
but it quickly washes always
when I realize that they don't even
acknowledge me anymore.
Or even worse we make eye contact
And you look away.

See, I know change happens all the time,
but I can't seem to accept it.
Simple things shouldn't change, it's
what gives me sanity and hope
but when they change, things are
unbalanced.
321 · Oct 2013
Future
Vivienne Luong Oct 2013
Things never go as planned
yet we are told to plan this future
that may or may not work out.

We are told to do certain things
that will help in the future
but we’re not even sure what the
future is.

Things never go as planned
but maybe it leads to
something better.
321 · Nov 2014
Rough drafts
Vivienne Luong Nov 2014
All our life, we were rough drafts
editing all mistakes throughout the
process hoping that by the day we die,
our story was remembered.
315 · Jan 2014
2013
Vivienne Luong Jan 2014
If there's one thing
I learned this year it would be
that even though my family is
dysfunctional and  I question
their actions sometimes
I wouldn't grow without them.
Each and every one of them continue
teaching me to be a better person,
to be more caring and more selfless.

They are the reason why I laughed so
much in 2013.
Last poem of 2013. Enjoy! HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE!
314 · Dec 2013
Sadly
Vivienne Luong Dec 2013
One of the worst things
is wanting someone in your life
but the both of you
are too different
that it's just impossible
to keep them in it.
313 · Apr 2014
Originality
Vivienne Luong Apr 2014
Have you ever realized that
we are not really original.
We are all shaped by the people
in our lives.
The day we were born, we lost who
we actually were because the people
who raised us put their opinions into us.
313 · Sep 2013
Pure
Vivienne Luong Sep 2013
Sometimes she wished she
was less pure,
less secure from innocence,
more experienced.
312 · May 2013
Two Writers
Vivienne Luong May 2013
Two writers fell in love,
their book was their love and the words written
were how they expressed it.
The commas were there to show that
no sentence would ever be long
enough to say how much they truly
cared for and loved each other.

The semicolons were there from
time to time because sometimes
it seemed like their love was ending
but they managed to keep it going.

The paragraphs were there to show
that even if they’ve been together
for a long time, there were still things
they could talk about.

The chapters were there for them to
look back on memories that they
wanted to relive and remind them
the past should not be repeated.

Their book was a love story.
305 · Feb 2014
Humans
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
Humans are the only species
that care about
time
money
and self image
and with all of this
we seem to have everything but
happiness.
304 · Jan 2014
Bluntly true
Vivienne Luong Jan 2014
Your goodbyes are
as empty
as your
soul.
304 · Feb 2014
Mess
Vivienne Luong Feb 2014
Things are sometimes better quiet
because my heads a mess
and I need some silence,
but when you speak it's like a lullaby
and I feel as if I'm a kid again
and for a while it's not a mess anymore.
302 · Jul 2013
Too Different
Vivienne Luong Jul 2013
It ***** that sometimes
no matter how much two
people try to sustain a relationship
whether they’re friends, family
or a couple
it will not work
because they’re too different
or they have different dreams
or they’re just tired of trying.

The excuses
that seem reasonable won and
it took over the relationship.

What’s sad is that two people
with so many memories together
just act like they have no memory at all,
like their relationship meant nothing..
299 · Mar 2014
Advice
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
If you want me to listen, I will listen
but don't think I won't say how I feel,
because I will, and I won't be sorry.
I'm only trying to help, and if you're
used to sugarcoat answers then be my
guest at living a life full of avoiding
truths instead of accepting them.
293 · May 2014
Insane
Vivienne Luong May 2014
You know you're at a point
of insanity
when you're so overwhelmed
you start laughing like a madman.
When nothing's funny but you still
keep laughing.
You're going insane,
and there's no way to stop it.
293 · Mar 2014
I made it
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
Throughout high school I have
had a 3.0 GPA average and I
thought that was the greatest I could do.

I was wrong. Junior year, "the hardest year."
I agree. But here I am proudly saying
I got a 3.7. I worked my *** off to get to this
point.
I almost just want to cry.  I always thought I'd
be a failure.
279 · May 2013
Waiting
Vivienne Luong May 2013
Why do we always wait?
We just sit and do nothing
We always just debate,
if we should do something.
278 · Feb 2015
"Sorry"
Vivienne Luong Feb 2015
You kept saying you were sorry.
You kept saying you were sorry I felt the way I did.
You kept saying sorry for how things  turned out.
I just wanted you to stop.
to stop saying sorry.
You weren't sorry, I knew that.
I guess you didn't know me as much as I thought to know I could handle a solid truth.
An explanation.
I deserved that much. Just that much.
278 · Jul 2013
Let Go
Vivienne Luong Jul 2013
Just sitting there helpless
what could I do?
I wanted to be selfless
and give my heart to you.

You laid there weak
with those sad eyes
how could I sleep
knowing you could die?

The pressure from your hand
suddenly wasn’t as strong,
the touch disappearing like sand
I wanted you to stay for so long.

You have suffered enough,
now it’s my turn to be tough.
Old.
Vivienne Luong Dec 2013
I’m fully aware I push
people away, and although
it’s bad, I don’t really mind,
but then I realize that one day
I’m going to end up being alone.
I don’t allow anyone to
make me happy for a long time,
I distant myself that they slowly
just walk away
which is my fault,
no one else’s
and that’s what eats me up
every time I push someone away
because I do nothing about it,
I just watch them leave.
273 · Apr 2014
Let go
Vivienne Luong Apr 2014
Letting go is one of the
hardest things to do
and such an undescribable
feeling.
Being separated by something
that won't feel right doing
but need to, to keep the sanity
that is just about to disappear.
269 · Mar 2014
Stranger
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
To act like you know someone,
talking to them and showing them
that you care, but then once
you get your life together
you act as if they were
never in it.

How cruel can you be to do that?
Do you understand how much it hurts?
268 · Mar 2014
No mind
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
People are so easily manipulated,
no mind of their own
just doing what others tell them
to do.

I don't know whether I should pity
them  or be in disgust.
268 · Jun 2013
I'm not
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
When people ask how I am
I usually reply truthfully.
But lately I realized I blurt that
I am good, I’m doing fine when
honestly I’m not doing okay.
I’m constantly so angry, so doubtful,
so impatient.
I just want to scream.
Yell
Punch
It makes me mad
that I’m lying to myself telling
people I’m “good”
because I’m not.
259 · Mar 2014
Regret
Vivienne Luong Mar 2014
There probably would have been
so many good relationships I  could
have been in, but no, I push people
away until they find someone better.
And I have no one else to blame
but myself.
259 · Jun 2014
Want/Need
Vivienne Luong Jun 2014
There's a difference between wanting
and needing
     You want him to walk away.
      You want him to hate you.
But that's not what you need.
    You need him to stay.
Stay, even at those moments where he
does hate you, just a little bit but can't imagine
anything without you.
259 · Nov 2013
Changing
Vivienne Luong Nov 2013
Don't you dare
tell me people
can't change because
they do, good
or bad.
254 · Dec 2013
Time to go
Vivienne Luong Dec 2013
"I love you" may be true
but it's not a good enough
reason to stay.
252 · Apr 2014
Preference
Vivienne Luong Apr 2014
No one is good
and no one is bad.
everything is really in
the opinion of our preference.
251 · Jun 2013
Just lies
Vivienne Luong Jun 2013
She seemed okay
until she entered her shower
where she crawled up in a
ball and just cried
because it was where
no one would hear
no one would know.

She exits with bloodshot
eyes and her parents just
think she got shampoo
in them, because that's
what she told them.

But those were just lies.
250 · Jan 2014
Bad/good
Vivienne Luong Jan 2014
She knows that he is
bad yet she only wants to
see the good in him.
Haiku!
249 · Dec 2013
Love is extinct
Vivienne Luong Dec 2013
I'm sorry.
That's all I can say because
I can't describe this
feeling anymore

I'm not numb
nor empty, but it's
like I have no emotion
for love anymore.

Although it seems as if
I do,
don't be fooled.

I'm sorry.
242 · Apr 2014
To: H
Vivienne Luong Apr 2014
You're so young yet
you get that although
sometimes
I have bad ways at going
at things, my good
intentions stick out to you more.
You don't know how relieved
it is to know that someone
agrees with me just a little.
241 · Jul 2013
You grew up
Vivienne Luong Jul 2013
You were once happy.
That smile so bright, priceless.
Faded as you grew.
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