One of the worst things
is wanting someone in your life
but the both of you
are too different
that it's just impossible
to keep them in it.

I don’t know how bad it is
in your mind, and I don’t know
what they do to make you suffer
or “tougher”
I’m just begging the demons
inside of you to give you peace
before you beat them to it.

So the question is,
who really changed
and
who actually grew?

I’m fully aware I push
people away, and although
it’s bad, I don’t really mind,
but then I realize that one day
I’m going to end up being alone.
I don’t allow anyone to
make me happy for a long time,
I distant myself that they slowly
just walk away
which is my fault,
no one else’s
and that’s what eats me up
every time I push someone away
because I do nothing about it,
I just watch them leave.