Vivian

Vivian Dec 2012

Tears of gin
Stream down my face
Pine needles scratch
My throat's embrace
On the words I once
Knew how to say
I'm hopelessly trying to
Reiterate.

Tuck me in
Lay me down
In the bed
I'll slowly drown
Your words are weak
They pass me by
I'm so so sorry
Liquor, I cry

Morning next
Mascaraed face
Turns to look
At her weathered mate
Thank you baby
I'm sorry I
Had too much to drink-
It's fine
*sigh

Vivian Dec 2012

How's Montreal?

Summer means smoking
in your car
with Paul
A couple guys and I
A couple guys, that's all.

In the studio
we sat
while I helped you with tap
and you needed the help
but repayed me back
so heavily you did
with your words
and your wis-
dom
high wisdom at that

Oh Devin,
I miss you-
How's Montreal?
I bet you're doing great
I hear it's beautiful in the fall

Kings of Leon
Gogol Bordello
and a little bit of Fun.
This music is your voice
a slight breeze and summer sun

Sometimes I take a listen
and reminisce
Eating ice cream on the Quay
a stoner's bliss

You always said I was special
"Not so sixteen"
Had a mind that had aged
like good cheddar cheese

God,
I hope you were right, Devin.
Cause I always fall too deep.
You know I felt like dying.
I long for eternal sleep.
I think of you sometimes,
you really do help me.
Bringing it back to this summer
when I actually felt healthy.

Vivian Nov 2012

a quest

Freezing
*******
Cold
is nothing
chanced or brought to discussion?

I'd rather clear the air
with this
Unwanted and uncalled for
Disruption

I'm a teenaged mess
convoluted
a quest
extremely hard to follow

I'm hollow at best
until you get me undressed
then you know I'm the kind of girl
that'd swallow

Vivian Nov 2012

Still Life

Pots and
Planters and
Rubber boots
Flowers
Cans
and biscuits

Drawing still life
in this rushed life
area
chalk full up
of misfits

Out of place
but in view
a girl sits with an easel

an easel that holds her focus

It would seem hard to do
but her composure is true
Concentrated
Full
of virtues

Vivian Nov 2012

Strawberry Rhubarb Pies

The light hits your hand
And my mouth hits the floor
It's the way you touch my neck
And your eyes that tell me "more"

This is divine
sublime
it's a crime
I'd suppose
To feel so earthed
And so high-
Slipping down the *****
of the bridge of your nose

Those naked
sacred
puppy dog eyes
Strawberry rhubarb pies
and warm wool

I don't know how you do it
if only I knew it
I feel like you know me so well

Vivian Nov 2012

Well

Slide your hand
down my back
your fingertips
are bound to crack
the code my skin
presents to you
I feel as though I fall for you.

snap

And it's all gone
My mind is taking
Over now
This horrible place
Holds me still
Captive in here
Beyond my will

but your love remains strong
and you don't let go
and I grab the rope
you've throw down this well
and it's a hard climb up
but it's worth the work

You'll never know how much you're worth

Vivian Nov 2012

Shooting star

walking home
drunk

in our bellies
and our lungs
lie my vices
we roll the
dice is this
strange heaven
or the bottom
-
maybe below?

walking home
stumble

through the
streets of
Charlottetown
with a joint
that has
no filter
in the cold air
I drown

walking home
high

a shooting star
passed us by
and you ask
what's a wish
and I say
not a thing-

cause your
open arms
and your
candid laugh
are all I'll ever need.