They're laughing,
I'm crying,
They're pretty,
I'm ugly,
They're laughing,
I'm bleeding.

I can never love someone else,
my heart is stuck on you,
i know you'll never be mine,
i hardly to forget,
but..
it seems doesn't work,
if the "abracadabra" really works,
i really want to use it to delete you out of mind.

i can't easily fall in love with someone,
once i did,
i am really in trouble,
there has nothing can help me out,
i have been trapped,
by my own heart because in love with wrong person.

if one fine day comes,
which you are already mine,
i really have to slap my face to awake
that it might be happens in dream.

i don't know,
which is worst,
either you,
or my uncontrollable heart,
nothing is more miserable than feel this way
i still don't know when and how is it going to be end.

i'm so sad that i can't stop writing,
nobody knows
how it kills me inside,
they will say that they're understand,
while they're not truly understand
what '****' that i'm having right now,
give me strength God,
this is so heartbreaking...
my heart beating so fast,
like there's no way to make it stop.

Still waiting for that day,
patiently be faithful to you,
naturally happens,
i never asked for this feeling.

i like you,
i don't know how to confess it,
our friendship means whole world to me,
sometimes, i want it more
but sometimes, it's an adequate,

i wish,
i love him more than he loves her,
no other than him,
he such a good guy
that i have ever met,
i should forget about him,
i am so flattered to be his friend,
i really appreciated it,
and its enough.

I still remember
The look on your face,
When we first met,
And the glances you gave,
Made me hard to breathe.
Those beautiful eyes
Are like a prose,
And everything about you
Is like a poetry,
make me lost,
And drown in the sea.

Sometimes ,
i forgot how to smile.
There's only pseudo smile,
If i could buy the most beautiful
and sincere smiles i would rather buy it
than the other stuff,
Sometimes i didn't actually tell what i am feel
and i didn't tell what i want
Unspoken feelings that nobody would even knows or understand,
i just let it keep inside.

you know
when it comes to love,
you want to do a lot of things to approach her
that you're asking a lot of question,
because you think that,
you must to do that
you must to do this
just to show how much you love her

but

have you ever know ?
we think..
that it'd be mean a whole world for us
for you to understand us,
notice every silly things about us,
yes ! it might take time
but if you willing to show how much you love us,
you would never care to looking forward.
we think its a good thing to for you to know,
how good or bad we are by yourself.

little things that you know
would surprised us
we feel appreciated.

to approach a girl
it's okay to start it as a friend,
there's nothing wrong.

when you started to be with someone else,
he's coming back,
when you started to forget everything,
all memory appeared,
when you're ready to love back,
he's with someone else,
and maybe,
when you're die,
he still doesn't appears.

you know
when it comes to love,
you want to do a lot of things to approach her
that you're asking a lot of question,
because you think that,
you must to do that
you must to do this
just to show how much you love her

but

have you ever know ?
we think..
that it'd be mean a whole world for us
for you to understand us,
notice every silly things about us,
yes ! it might take time
but if you willing to show how much you love us,
you would never care to looking forward.
we think its a good thing to for you to know,
how good or bad we are by yourself.

little things that you know
would surprised us
we feel appreciated.

to approach a girl
it's okay to start it as a friend,
there's nothing wrong.

I told him that i like him
He ran away quickly
Like a child had a bad dream
I laughed and smiling
Try to be brave
And keep moving
Dont want anybody
Notices im sad
And lonely
Try to act cool
When I'm actually dying.
These 2 months are beautiful
You gave me butterfly
When my tummy is full
Try to figure out
What should i do
Not seeing your eyes
For today or soon
I hope
Everything is coming back
just like that first time
You smiled and said thank you.

the moment when you're sitting alone,
listen to slow songs,
and appear this couple,
laughing,fighting,staring each other
and do silly things in front of you,
You were just put on fake smiles,
like you're really happy to see their happiness,

On that time,
all you want to do is
lock up yourself in the dark room
and crying silent tears and asking yourself,
"where on earth the day that you have been waited for?"

leave me roses on bed
kisses on forehead
maybe im not rad
but that night
i was so sad