How do I balance
school, exercise, family
and friends all at once?

Eating less and less,
exercising with no rest,
is this happiness?

still as 4am
on a night I actually slept
soundless but loud
a kind of silence that no one's ears should bare

above is an empty, open, breathful space
and
under is a life-filled, pressured tank

you are a lot like the under surface
like the sea
full of life
undiscovered, deep, independent thoughts

I am the above surface
all is dead
nothingness is empty
a black space, my love for darkness

I used to be scared of the dark
in the closet
outside
during a power outage
they were all different

now they are my comfort zone
my favorite places
my shadows

but i'm scared of the sea
I guess because it's a lot like you.

I look into myself and see only an accumulation
of lost objects
Piles of beautiful, forgotten documents
unusable
but loved for what they are
I am the words on a tea-stained music sheet
that mean nothing
and yet
you turn them over eternally in your mind
because there's something about that
sequence of syllables
that makes them
irresistible.
Look at my shelves and see my soul
Repeat my words and learn my essence,
Home is knowing who you are.