Even with a heart of gold
There's turmoil that gets old
Drag me back to holy ground
For a moment it felt alright to burn
What a slow burn, I guess December chills really do know us that well

Your mother's love and fathers care
Never teach you that the real monsters
Aren't under your bed, they're lying in it
Next to you
Unspoken blood oaths
Secrets carved into each others skin
Both in pain, but one to blame
Scott free and carefree
I wonder why only one of us
Got stuck being the demon in the dark
But, even demons have truthful lights

I really hope my mind doesn’t lose its way
So, which way are you going?

:::Insane:::

Oh, those moon filled nights
Trying to make it to tomorrow
I want to represent those lost in the dark
These words are just a form of art
Derived from confessions of my heart

If I asked so sweetly, would you pack up all your stuff and get out of here?
Tell all our friends and family we might just come back next year
Run to the end of the oceans, where space and time collide, when they finally figure out we're never coming home and our names are finally forgotten and we've all, but disappeared

To the other
What about you is so much bettter than I?
Why were you deemed worthy?
To get to see sides of her I was suppose too
And all you have to do is be you
A repetition of drug induced self dissections
For love is a hell of a drug
And my souls closest love must be the scalpel

Dear lord taking your name in vain
All these sins in life that I've made
Just another heart, feel myself go insane
Caught in negotiations with my devils I can't seem to dissuade

Waiting till she admits she loves me
Loving me must have some difficulty
Yet, she makes it seem so impossibly easy
As with these words, I've announced my love with divine decree

Dark hair like the long summer nights
Gorgeous smile like the glistening ocean tides
Green eyes just like the never trembling winter pines
Skin as soft as freshly landed snow
Lace and tied my world together
With her never ending laughs
She's the sum of what I believe is love

Thinkin' I might flip and fill my brain with lead
Wander through the dead
With you caught up in my head
You're a lot more pretty when you show your scars
A beauty that longs to be amongst the stars
Cause that piano sound
Brings some love that can't be found
And you know what I think about
Lyrical lies and beautiful eyes
Always fill me with doubt

These attempts will only be that of a drop in a limitless ocean
But what is an ocean, but a multitude of drops
Hold me close tonight
Until we both know the truth
Let me shut my lips
Before you spill your heart and soul to me
I'm still trying to figure it out, in what you saw
This silence burns me up
I'd rather turn back and run away
Then face the way we're suppose to feel
You whispered in my ear to take a breath so you know it's real
You knew you were there for me
You were loving me carefully
Still saying "Stay quiet, be my love."

My voice got lost
In the echoes of your betrayals
Or were they mine?
Somewhere along the lines we committed crimes
Now you're just showing off love
I guess I was teasing first
Connect us and were a terrifying cyclopean dread
Powerful enough to tear the world asunder
Tear us a part and we'll always search for each other
Soul mates it is what we are
In the echoes of their betrayals
I do not have a voice
If all you hear is silence
Then know that I am still searching for you dear

This eclipse is proof
That the light will shine
Beneath the blackened skies
So, pretty girl
Shine bright
For the dark is only here, but for a moment

It's about time we address the elephant in the room
It's standing in plain view
Everyone can see
That it looks just like me

Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity
So, tell me what's the remedy
There's things that they don't teach
Things so out of reach
That gods and devils envy us
For when our bones have turn to dust
And, love transcends all natural bounds
That's when true peace is found

A wise woman told me to let go of the poet
That life's ******, but it's not some tragedy line
In the fourth stanza of an endless summer
And her daughter showed me some love
Igniting winter's fires
Under cracked thrones of proverbial highs

You two reached an impasse
For just tonight
Except peace is always empheral
And tomorrow a heart shall be broken
But, who’s shall it be?

I’m alright
That’s just a lie
So, please stay for the night
Cause’ nothing’s right when you’re gone
Don’t want the world to know what makes me weak
Afraid the world might see that side of me
Cause the worlds so monochrome
Yet, let me tell you why
I wouldn’t mind to be wrong
Cause’ she brings all the coloring around
You either know or you don’t
I can’t even trace where this love line begins
Dancing hand in hand with me
Sometimes I forget to breathe
Somewhere along the line I got poisoned
My thoughts we’re cursed
Oh, lover how your words
Became my cure
For if this is the world I’m given
With your love I’m sure
I shall endure

I get this feelin' that I'm losing it
I'm out of my head, can't you see, can't ya see me?
My bloods turned to wine, and I taste just fine
I'm climbing what's left just to see what in this world I need
Snow capped hills and mountain sides
Frostbit and lips bit
My blood taste just fine, aged perfectly red wine
A top of the world, a quest, a conquest
Treasured and traded
Learning to take it
Climbed all this way to find
I was wrong the entire time, but I swear I tried
I'm just so out of my head
Threw a prayer way up high and swing to miss it
I'm not quite sure what his answer will be
Climbed so **** high, just to find, what I need
It's at the bottom of my eyes
You'll be at the summit

The violent churning of oceans
Crashing about in her eyes
Was intoxicating enough
That I didn't notice
Our ship was crashing
And soon we'd be drowning
Deep in the black mass
Hidden from the sun

There's something about falling asleep
With the windows open
In the middle of fall
Hearing the breeze rushing through the crackling of leaves
As they soar so high and flow so low to the grounds beneath
Flowing like memories gone and past
How could you think this would be better for me?
Every now and then, I fear this voice inside my head
It tells me all the lies and says to let go
Then again, there's some nights I hear this voice inside my head
It tells me it's alright and I should hold you close
Uncountable times, forgiving you just to keep you by my side
Unsure why we waste our time
Spending all these gorgeous nights in this life
On and on and on, there's this thing it seems to me
That the leaves will grow back when the time is right
And walking away from what isn't right
Seems to be the only peace
I can get at night

One day we're young, then we're dead in the grave
We love and laugh, just to decay
Heads in the clouds cause it feels so safe
Hell's never closed, so we're leaving today
Chanting on the way down, "Oh, God made us this way."
Admit we're addicted to the reflection of who we think we are
But what we claim to be, it always seems so far away

Bring your heart
And I’ll bring my soul
Careful now
Let’s venture into the great unknown
Not that anyone would notice
For moonlit madness catches me
And tonight I don’t think
The light will come fast enough
To save me from myself

It's hard forgetting you
When you don't see the wrong you do
Moving on seems impossible to do
When the person you want moves faster than you

There's a certain simplicity
In taking five minutes
Just five simple minutes of solitude
To think back on all the good the world has to offer
To be humbled by your failures for the day
That the patter of rain or the sun coming up brings about a gentle peace
I've come to learn that the best medicine is to laugh and enjoy the moment
For she is in this moment undeniably life warming
With a fever rush smile
And eyes that smile brighter
Happiness temporary for sure
But, with her around, it seems to be more common than ever

She knew
A storm was coming
She smiled bright anyways

My dear,
It is going to be hard letting you go
The ultimate sacrifice
To become completely selfless
We must accept the fact that when we love someone
We shall put their happiness before our own
So, run and run fast darling
Find yourself, when you don't think you can
This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do
I shall do it regardless though, because of the love I have for you

Trying to make something timeless
Begging to stay tireless
In the hour of devastations
Words and self representations
Fed up and I'm tired
Book isn't finished and I'm thinking of retiring
As I'm not sure when to stop and what you demand of me
Is my soul and mind the fee for you to be complete?
How far are we gonna go? There's only so many sides to me
So, dear reader which side do you wish to see?