He felt he was suffocating
She begged she was drowning
Yet, they don’t part ways
It’s funny what pollution does
In a toxic environment
Give it time
Spring cleaning is almost here

You whispered let’s run away
I just wish we’d stay
These nights never seem to last
Like we’re bound for different paths
Looks like we’re stretched for time
Both claiming our hearts feel just fine
I can’t seem to name, the drug my brains been asking for
And dying seems like such a bore
So, come home my soul craves some more
Let me check something off my list
Cause I’d like to taste those lips
And I don’t wanna go
Livin’ in memories with nothing to show

My father wasn't a great man
Although  I  saw  a  legend
I was his only son
Or  was  I  just  his  legacy
He never thought I was good enough
I  strive  not  for  me
I am the best at everything I do
Not  because  I  want  to  be
I am the best because of fear
The  fear
I do not sleep often
The  Moon  invites  Madness
He is gone and I am relieved
Or  am  I  missing  him
From days on I strive to be the best I can
Not for approval
I strive for the love she has given me
I strive to show the world I am not my father
I strive day to day, because I find it to be my place in this world
This world that seems to have no goal
I strive to prove I have a goal.

I walk alone in the nights of summer
These lights lead me along my path
Their beauty is nearly unmatched
The only thing I can think of that is possibly more glorious is the sun rising
Although maybe they are more beautiful
After all there are millions shining instead of just the one by itself
I have never thought of the Sun's loneliness
It is truly alone while the others come out to play
Alone like me in my walks
Maybe I should walk during the day
That way the Sun wouldn't have to be alone
I wouldn't have to be alone
We could enjoy each other and let the summer stars have their beautiful darkness they hold so dear

Save your breath my friend
I’m not going in
I am no disciple
I’ll choose how I sin
Sprint to distant memories
And previous lives
For I am not ready
And the only thing you can’t change about the face are the eyes
I just don’t feel connected to such holy lies
So, just do me this kindness
And, let me sit on the church stairs
Ponder all my crimes

They say happiness is free
But, I wouldn’t care what it cost me
What an adventure life seems to be
Keeping this hope alive
When the rest of the worlds hearts
Seem to have died
So, pretty girl stay shining
For stars die out
But, suns never fade
And we might just watch the world end

I see the way that you take off your disguise
Drinks and pills what’s your fix to get high?
You just want to feel something to feel fine
You gonna let him swallow up your pride?
Just run away in the night
No ones worth the tears that you cry
It’d be a shame to see you do this till your ******’ numb and gone
Just come with me and take a ride

You keep me swaying
Between being high and sober
Back and forth
Something or nothing
Caught in purgatory
And forever doesn’t seem so far away
Until you get there
Trying to find the best parts of me
Where an angel with black wings
Whispered that it wasn’t going to be free
And I still smell hells smoke on me
I swear it warms what I think
Just might be my soul

Don't tell me our youth is running out
It's a simple foot race and it's only just begun
People are such in a rush
To get from point A to point C
Sometimes it's just more beautiful
To get lost at B

Look at how much can change in a year
You gain love and you lose love
I think never being relevant
Is my number one fear

People change and that's just a small part of life
Love with everything you have and never anticipate the pain
Because today is the day that your whole world could just change

There’s this voice inside my head
It sounds just like me
It’s saying let go of some things
For my own
Even the screaming sun can’t block it out
And so, maybe I need a break
From all that I am
All that I was
Take a breath
Breathe again
Find what to write
Instead of dreaming that these words
Might just make it around some big town
I have fears that I’m a letdown
So, I’m reaching out with these words now
Telling my head that you may never be who you want to be
So, just take a breath and breathe

Let's gather our ghosts round the island flame
Getting lost in the dying sun and your eyes were the only fire
Asking my demons for your name
Pretty intimate so far, so I hoped to light your heart fire
Caught you swimming out so far this time
Getting lost in in your holy fire
If falling for you is my only crime
Take me back to places I feel loved in
Wandering around these cities I feel lost in
Take me back to your embrace where I want to get lost in

No, I don't want to smoke and I don't need a drink
Just tell me how you feel and what you think
Cause' I've been on my own for just a while
And there's not a lot of things I need to make this kid smile
Working on myself with all this time, making sure my minds right in the dead of night
And, I heard somewhere that talk is overrated and it's better to just vibe
Except, I swear it'll always be in my mind that love is underrated and it's not just for one night

You were a lot like the game that day
Sun shining bright almost matches that blonde perfection
Perfectly green cut grass made your eyes look ablaze in emerald
Puffy white clouds and pearly smiles
There's nothing I would've changed
Most days in baseball and a pretty girl
Just seem to be good for the heart

The darkest corners of my mind are tight
I mean, out of sight out of mind, right?
It's getting hard to know if this is worth a fight
As when the sun shines it's just not that bright
I think I might be in love, my heart feels a flight
Bursting with wonderous color and it seems to be killing off my mind blight
A woman, who I can love even if I lost my sight

We'll break the mold and the scheme will fail
Endless midnight car rides and street lamp sunrises
Beautiful rays matching our body glows
As your heart creases and mine unfolds
Lost in each other's technicolor beats
Oh, my dear, if you only knew I have a love for you that even a blind man could see

I want to be alone
Find myself lost out at sea
Knee deep in the black mass
Watch the siren's sing the maddening waves into men's hearts
Where time and the black silver ocean collide
To swim in the kisses of the incarnate
For the sea loves, hates, and weeps
Fervently shackled an...and bound to that which isn't
I feel my lungs collapsing under the pressures of the deep
Where your heart and your desires slumber

Well, I missed Thanksgiving again
That makes three years
Truth be told
I feel more at home when I’m not there
For I have mountains to climb
And views to see
Thankful for the feeling of being so...
Disassociated
Not that I don’t think of them often
I’m just not to my own personal summit yet
Looking forward to coming home
Nothing is better sometimes
I guess I just like it like that

I tried again for the millionth time
Yet, the door to the timeless seas
Where I could sit at the beach
Writing pretty love stories
As the waves sing lullabies
And the tide is nibbling at my toes
I knew it in my bones and soul
For the night whispers to me
Take this lesson away
You loved me last night
What about today?
The alcohol says we’re meant to be
Except the door won’t open for me
And the guitar to our love story
Seems forever out of tune
And I lost the key to the beach room

There are doors
We find ourselves locked beyond
Where we must suffer
From the sins we’ve committed
Dragged to the endless oceans of
Where the Devils we’ve become
Beckon us further into hells we’ve created
As we sail ships into burning heavens
On fire from all the things we’ve done

She seems so familiar yet so unknown
A little broken and misused
Repairing herself with a stronger shell
She speaks and I swing between hope and despair
There's a lot I'd like to say
Can't seem to utter any words
Maybe one of these days It'll click
The words I want to say will roll of my tongue onto her lips
I waited too long, just wanted to hold you down
You got a way, and now I don't know how
To let you know, all I wanted was to get lost in moments with you

This is a calling
Let it resonate
For my muses
I need your medicine
2 to 3 doses, daily
****, she knows how to play
My heart strings literally
So, ****** lovely
Feels like flying...
She plays with so much emotion
She can just feel the music

I came to a fork in the road
One to hell and the other heavenly
The devil standing to the left
Said they both lead to death, invitingly
So, I plan to cheat and took both shoes off
Threw one as far as I could to hell
And sprinted to heaven just to see
I can’t help, but love humanity
Lost in the search for identity
Along our journeys we found empathy
Dodging heartbreaks in war torn countries
We traded a life of riches and temporaries
To help the poor and ill
Cause if it’s not us nobody will
I don’t know where
Our path will lead
But, I beg we follow our feet

She had bleached out black eyes
From staring into Aries rise
Caught up in midnight whisperings
Wondering if these stars aren’t just things
For the sun sets on Heaven’s cries
And the dark sets in when the stars come to claim their prize
Sweaty palms staring at the summer sky
Black magic searching for lost time
Sipping dark red wine on the coast surrounded in neon lights

It seems the judge and the jury
tried to buy me time
I just might be guilty of this crime
It's as if I left the window open overnight
As there are somedays I wake and the world doesn't shine as bright
Maybe it's me and my brain that just don't fit together quite right
The memories I thought I left behind
Those tire tracks just talk dirt behind my back
The more I'm happy the less that you see
Writing salt licked sympathies to show the world just what I'm finding out about me

I saw a man
At the end of the bridge
In last ditch efforts
I asked if he needed me
When I knew he needed someone
These prayers haven’t been heard
And he wasn’t sure that’s how it worked
He looked down to his side and nodded as if a seat was open
So, grab my hand jump down to the river
Cause’ the water is serene like poetry
And to talk is divine
Except God’s don’t talk
I wonder if that’s why these prayers
Are more like lost emotion
Drifting here and there
At the end of the bridge

There is a man I see from time to time
His eyes look like they have seen my sorrows
His smile looks as if it is mocking my happiness
His scar on his eyebrow brings back some foreign memory
His ungroomed ****** hair reminds me of when I lost even the will to shave
His arrogance is relatable in almost everyway
His confidence gives me jealousy
His smirk angers me
Angers me to the point where I am enraged
In this enraged stupor I react irrationally
My fist within seconds is going to connect to his skin
His skin which looks so familiar but so unknown
Realization
Blood trickles from my hand as I pull the broken pieces of glass from it
The mirror is cracked and shattered
The insanity is much clearer now
His sorrows, happiness, scars, ****** hair, arrogance, confidence, and smirk yes they are quite relatable
The hauntings of this man that I see from time to time I hope do change for the man I see
My heart goes out to him
For he is me