Seems I found a muse
Was an accidental stumbling
Golden romper and all
With an angelic title beginning
And ending with A’s
I’ll call her AA, for she’s a lot stronger
Than any drink I’ve had hit the lips

-And I told her I needed it
    -All of that as to what she is

It seemed even as God’s
We found ourselves in a phase
Of making love, where love was absent.

We lived on the docks
Just you and I
We grew old here together love
Saw things lovers wish to see
The laughter of children once filled this house
Now my thoughts are only what drift though the walls
We said our goodbyes and you went to sleep
You ever fiery heart setting to a nice kindling
I felt the rush of life leave your fingers through mine
Oh my love the lake is quite peaceful at this time of night
I think I'll go for a swim and let the gentle waters calm the fires in my heart
When morning comes we'll be side by side just you and I
In whatever place we go
Just know that we can have our abstract hugs and our simple concrete goodbyes

So, let's set the sea aflame
Scorch the coastline
Watch the tides turn charcoal black
Watching the world burn away
Hell on earth
It's how I feel
With the dope *** instrumental
Cascading us with background noise
As we eye each other from across the room
Searing one another with fevered looks
Unaware of all the others burning up

I have this aesthetic idea in my head
Oddly enough it always calls for me
Being dead

I awoke surrounded in warmth
Just to realize it was my desires
They came back for me after all
Thought they had left me for dead
Just to to turn to ash in this burning heat
She gives me fever when she kisses me
When she allows her arms to envelope me
We have a love that a blind man can see
She's the reason I'm burning up
Can feel the smoke a risin'
I can feel the air leaving my lungs now
I'm feelin' my skin burnin up with fever
Startin to lose care in how long I live
The flames are creeping higher than ever
I'll lament for now
I've created a new circle of hell
No fire will hold me down
I'll crawl back to her.

When I wake up I’m afraid
Somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I’m afraid
Somebody else might end up being me
And being me means it’s difficult to see
All the smoke making it hard to breathe
Where the worlds disappeared and all that’s left is me and I’m scared of everything.

I use to think
I belonged down in hell
Going to church
Where the addicts go to meet
Seeking shelter from their demons
Trading shame for amnesty
Till reprieves fell on hurting shoulders
While my thoughts eat me alive
From the inside
And my body feels like a prison
Where my soul resides
Till I wake up
And there you lay

All these heavens are the same
They're rotting my brain, love
I think I need a change
Before I go insane, love

All these hells are the same
They're rotting my brain, love
I think I need a change
Before I go insane, love

Now, I am insane
Angels and Demons in my brain, love
Peace we can't obtain
Cause' all these loves are the same

Pour me a double shot
Of ***** and bleach
Heavy on the bleach
Make sure to mix it
With your spiraling straw
Of endless lies
In the end
The alcohol will burn
And the bleach will **** all
The ***** feelings we left behind
On the road we took all the way down

My confessions seem to always lie at the bottom of the deep end
These intricate caverns of guilt doused memories
With no true reason
For I have never truly felt loved
Forgotten and cast aside
By those unaware, yet cast like a skipping stone
Smooth and polished and so misshapen
As if my father not loving me was my own doing
Or unable to believe my past loves could love me
For I believed I was different and different couldn't be loved
Yet, I learned by you
That some may love the sunrise, while other's may love the sunset
And night feels just as home as day
While one can be attached to land
As the other soaks in the waves
Yet, there's sand in between
That's where our love seems to meet
Somewhere in between
And of that, all of which it is
I wouldn't trade for the world

She was built for the wild
Lusting for a free and wandering life
Wondering why the world can be so cruel
When she had nothing, but love in her heart
She’s a snow leopard
A ghost cat to the eye of the world
Yet, grounded in earthly constellations
It must be why I feel the way I do
I caught a glimpse of a side
The rest of the world doesn’t get to see
A shade fire blue like the sky above
It’s a pain that’s so good and wanting
Chapped lips from interlocked extremities
For the longest time I had writers block
How funny, all I needed was her
Now my Endless Summer doesn’t seem so
Endless
With her silhouette on the horizon

Take what we need while there's time
The city will be up in a short while
If I'm not mistaken it's catching flames
Let us run and escape back to the beach side

The city is burning and the ocean is turning
All the light that you possess scattered by lakes and sea
Guiding as we dance and sway in the tattered remnants of our destroyed moonlit eve

You are my lighthouse, the sea mark
The tempest of apocalypse has created this tide
I'm always pulled to the black silver ocean
Where these currents and the heavens collide
You're so unpredictable and I'm this solid brick who's unwilling to stray
We're in this solid state where the currents can't seem to carry us away
I'm the navigator who never could seem to lead
You're the ship who was always too proud to ever sink

We dread that feeling of, oh, so low
So empty, broken, and never home
Let’s never venture to that horrid place
Where love has no trace
And I would cry and you would too
Neither one of us would know what to do
On the horizon comes a storm
We can win this fight, just hold on for one second more
So, hold my hand and love me true
These endless cataclysms will make us ever so confused
But, just stay right here side by side
And we shall be safe and sound
At the end when everything finally makes sense

I went for a walk early in the morning, and as I made my way through the empty park I ran into a boy of seven. He asked me how I was, and I said "Not bad I guess, could be better." He kept the conversation going, and asked how life could possibly be better, and I smirked and foolishly replied with "It could always be better." He asked what I saw in the park and I looked around and said "The leaves are dead, and the sky is black, the snow and ice make today look quite bleak."

He smiled bright, grabbed my hand and led the way. As he led me down the path he softly said "Don't you think that black and white are some of the most beautiful colors, it gives you the chance to imagine and see colors unseen in this world."

He stopped and instructed me to close my eyes and so I humored this little fellow, and he started to count down and as he did so I started to feel a warmth growing inside, when he instructed I opened my eyes and there she sat, a beautiful girl with a book in hand bursting at the seams with colors I've never seen.

I suppose I just didn’t hear you
The waves were too loud
But, I definitely could read your lips

“Don’t get attached to me.”

But, the sun was setting low.

If I could I would feel nothing
The world is cold and life's not fair
Honestly I'm just looking for a human crutch

The ******* creed reads let's just **** no strings attached
Get in the car, I'll drop you off at home
I don't expect any text or calls on the phone

I'm okay, I just sold my soul to a beautiful devil
I've only ever killed once, my heart was the victim
It's all good I wanted that

If I had a heart I would probably stop taking you back
If I had a heart I'd paint that ******* black
And I'm sorry I'm so weak
Because if I only had a heart I'd probably give you all of me

It use to be so **** different back then
We were kids and now
We’re suppose to be women and men
There’s so many things
We need to start to understand
That we’re not queens and kings
And we should prepare for the end
Like hitting one another’s phones up when we feel all alone
Hands up to the ceiling
Please mind our business
This is where we hide our feelings
You all know how it is
No expectations that’s just how we’re livin’
Understandin’ that not all of our crimes will be forgivin’
So, count your blessings  and never start to question
Anything that you can mention that’s what time it is

I am attempting to find balance
The balance of all things
For I am an unbalanced man
But, for you I wish to balance the world
As Atlas I hope to be strong
Undeserving as I am
I dream of your love
If I've lost it
Or if I've just finally found I've always had it
Baby steps is what it takes
As I'm inching towards our future
On my tippy toes, hoping you'll help me along the way

It’s hard to explain what it’s like
The smell of the air
The heat waves over the crowd
The fresh cut grass
A flat beer and a hotdog
Maybe a pretty girl or two
All of it ever so trivial
When it comes down to just us
Toe to toe in a 12 round boxing match
Except our punches come at 90 MPH
Who will win?
Regardless...
I suppose it’s always a beautiful day
For some baseball

I told my mother I would quit, that I'd grow up someday
What can I say?
As long as I'm still breathing
I promise you I'll be falling in love every evening

You're a song and every last note is carved into my heart
A melody ruling my mind and breathing
All of our emotions form this symphony

Don't you know you have this little magic thing you can do?
It wipes away the monochrome hue
And fills this world with a color when you laugh beside me

So, please my love let's go and make the most of today
Our time is precious or so they say, and I just want to spend it all with you

Always try and trust
what's deep inside
You beautiful girl

There is no plan for my life
That I can seem to follow
So, I don’t have time for all of these games
And, I do not plan on staying the same
Cause’ I’m gonna be better
Things will get better
Better when you see me next

She shot a black bullet
Inlaid with golden hopes
Filled with white lies
With a little dash of cherry blood
I don’t know how to explain it
You showed up at the right time
With the hot lead corroding my mind
You’re a part of my head like sweet crime
Don’t be afraid baby
There’s another bullet in the chamber secretly

She told me blood moons
Meant destruction
How funny as we seemed so inclined
I quit strumming
Just to comment on your legs
How they’d looked so good
But would look better over my shoulders
Eyes a flutter
Bitten lips
Back locked up
Frozen in time
With the moonlight
Razing our shadows
Just for the night

Remember the feel of the sand beneath us
And the smell of smoke between us
When we laughed like kids
Dancing in a burning room
Alight with bonfires burning in our chests
And flames flickering in our eyes
As summer was fading fast?

The crashing waves
Ripping tides
Ocean's begging for peace of mind
If this is paradise
Why am I burning
With the words you carve through mine
Am I a dead man walking
For I seem to be just talking to myself in the night
And when I'm feeling so low
The clouds won't seem to part like they're made of stone
For your emotions take precedence
Even when I'm bled dry, from being the bad guy

Her:
She recalled the burning heat
Seeping off their foreheads
Pressed together, consoling the other
As she whimpered “Are we okay?”
Brought to knees on a battlefield
Of shattered hearts and
Desecrated morals built in hope

Him:
He memorized the details of her face
Pale stricken with beautiful streaks of dirt
Ragged and tired from the many battles
Driven off the endless battle waves of
Angels and demons in the pursuit of love
His soft breaking whisper
“Let’s just see if we can survive tonight.”

They both hoped they’d make it out alive.